CHAPTER 3: At the mansion
At the mansion:
I noticed that it wasn't that dirty, and the vines of the plants did not take over the place, and that clean sheets were on the bed, red silk with two pillows on it. It looked beautiful, there was still a sent of vanilla in the air, it hit me. Buffy had been taking care of it for me. She was so sweet, I didn't know if this was for her, or me, but either way I should thank her. That would be a good reason to go see her again. I took all of my clothes off except my boxers and white beater and crawled under the sheets.
I smelled the sent of her, beautiful vanilla and strawberries, it was her personal scent that I loved taking in. I lay there just wondering what she was doing there and I finally feel asleep to the sent of Buffy. I dreamt of her. Just like I always will, and always have.
Angel had decided to stay in town at the mansion as he thought about what he wanted next, now he wanted Buffy and Cordelia. He didn't want to go back to Los Angeles without telling Buffy what he had come here today. He was confused, but had to go see her one-day. He wasn't much for talk so he just brooded in the mansion.
Buffy was still crying in her bed that night when Angel had arrived at the mansion. She lay there just sobbing into the pillow with her ring back on; Buffy was hurt so many times by him, but yet still loved him.
Tuesday afternoon around 8 o'clock the sun had already set….
Buffy:
I walked into the mansion I usually went there when I was upset and just lay in his sheets, smell his sent. Even though he didn't live there I kept a toothbrush, brush, a hand mirror, and some extra clothes. In one of his draws right next to a leather duster he had left there and a red shirt. I sometimes stayed there after patrol, I felt safe there like he was there. I needed his comfort, and the mansion gave me that. Even though he never said he loved me last night, I still loved him and I know that somewhere deep inside of him he loved me as well.
I wanted him to be with me, but he wanted to be with Cordelia it was obvious he cared for me of course or else he wouldn't' t have come to see me. But it felt in my heart that he didn't, and I know that might not be true but last night when he just walked away from me that's what I felt. I felt not good enough. He just went back to Los Angeles and Cordelia. Angel left me there crying. When I was younger and he was with me, he wouldn't 't have done that. He would've taken me in his arms and held me. I know it. Or he would've just stayed with me or even whipped my tears. But he didn't. He doesn't know me, and I don't know him.
He wasn't the same person I grew to love all those years ago. Angel wasn't the same Angel. He wasn't the same sweet, gentle, loving, cryptic man that I ounce feel in love with and still was till this day. But I still loved him nether the less. I think I will always loved him, my star crossed lover.
Thinking of Angel, the blonde slayer fell asleep to the sound of her hearts longing for Angel, her Angel. She dreamed of when they would be together.
Angel:
I walked out of the Sunnydale butchers shop were I had been a regular customer all those years ago. The main butcher, Mike, still worked there and was happy enough to give me blood no questioned asked. The only thing hr asked was how Buffy was because every time she came in there without me she was always distant through her thoughts. As he said that my heart weekend for my love…. Buffy.
Even though my heart was aching and longing for Buffy, Cordelia was my matter at hand; I had never told her that I left L.A. She was a probably worried sick about me being gone, or the most likely emotion she has right now is pure hatred for Buffy. Cordy wasn't as dumb as she used to be she had probably figured out that I had gone to Sunnydale to see Buffy. But she probably hadn't guessed it was to confront her about the prophecy because Cordelia didn't even know yet.
The only one who knew was I. I was turning to Buffy first because she was the one who deserved to know about it, Cordy wasn't. Buffy had never fallen back in love, and waited for me. So my second love, Cordy would have to wait second. Just how she was in my heart, second Buffy was the love of my life and always will be. But it seemed like she didn't want to be with me, which is until last night when I saw her tears when I told her I loved Cordy. If only I could've finished and told her. No wait, she would be even more upset that I couldn't be with her again, but not because of vampires or demons it was because of my heart.
As I walked towards the mansion all I could think about was Buffy and the look on her face last night, she looked like she was going to die from a broken heart. And I don't know why I reacted that way to what she told me. I just was over whelmed and let my pride and confusion win over my heart. I don't know what else I would've done though. I am so confused over my feelings for both Cordy and Buffy.
I stepped into the mansion threshold and I felt something weird. Someone was either in the mansion or has been there lately, a human I mean. I set the blood in the fridge and walked into the living room, no one had been there. Then I walked into the bedroom and it hit me the minute I walked in there from the smell, it was Buffy. She smelled like sweet vanilla and strawberries. Like a beautiful spring day, it was her own personal sent and plus her shampoo.
And sure enough as I walked towards my bed her figure was under the sheets. I never could wake her. It was the only time I had seen Buffy smile in over three years. She looked at peace in my bed, so innocent. I have no idea why she was there, but it didn't bother me too much. Instead of waking her I gave into my emotions and lie with her. I took off my shoes and duster and crawled under the sheets. I lie there and the temptation of waking her or holding her at least was too strong, I took her in my arms and cuddled her in my arms. She fit perfectly. I knew when she woke up there would question and that we needed to talk, but for know I could just hold her.
This could be the last time I am ever this close to her. A tear trickled down my face with that thought. I loved her, and I knew that she loved me. And finally this might be our chance to be together and I screwed it up by having ties with someone else. The last thing I wanted to do was hurt Buffy, but there was Cordelia. I knew that Cordelia and I could make a great couple, but Buffy and I fit and we made the best couple. We were true soul mates. Everyone saw that, even her and I, yet we did not give in because the road was long. And to find love this strong was almost impossible. Even though every time she is close around me it feels as if my loneliness disappeared, our hope was gone. I didn't know if we would ever be together again, but I can at least pretend until she wakes…
Angel thought about what it would be like to be human and be with Buffy or Cordelia as he drifted to sleep with Buffy in his arms.
Buffy:
I stirred as I felt the sun rise…. I could sense it. As I was about to turn over I felt something surrounding me. Not a light or magic, but something hard, solid, and cold. I panic at first, and then I saw it was arms. But who would hold me in there arms Spike? No too muscular. Angel. That's why I felt something when I woke, but I didn't want to think it was he because it was just a dream I thought in my head. But it wasn't it was Angel, but why was he in bed with me? Is this a dream? What is going on? I thought he was in L.A.
Did he love me? I turned in his arms and he had a lopsided grin on his face. I took in his features, his strong jawbones, his eyelids, and especially his peaceful grin one that I wanted to kiss right off. I did, I kiss his lips gently. I had no idea how he would react but I couldn't lose anything now. To my surprise he stirred and kissed right back. Not even opening his eyes. As if knowing it were me, or maybe he thought that I was Cordelia. Maybe they slept together every night. Maybe I was just there at then wrong second.
I broke the kiss with that sad thought and he opened his eyes gently.
"Good morning beautiful," he answered my question there he wasn't expecting Cordelia. He was expecting me.
"Hi," I said wearily and he leaned down and kissed my head.
"Did you sleep well, love…Buffy?" he stuttered over that, he loved with me.
"In your arms I will always sleep well," I said whole-heartedly. I saw his eyes grow with sadness as I said this. "Did I say something wrong?"
"Nothing"
"That's a something face, Angel," I looked in squarely in the eye. He looked as if he were going to cry, there was no frustration in his eyes like there was when he had left me when I was a senior. He looked at me with sadness and love in his eyes. It seems that he was truly happy looking down at me. And to tell you the truth even the scene from two nights ago had happened I was happy.
"I love you, Buffy." He said in a low, sweet voice.
"What about Cordy…." He cut me off with a kiss.
"She doesn't matter, don't you see why I came here?" he asked me leaning his forehead against mine.
Angel:
"To tell me you're in love with Cordelia?" she said with a single tear falling down her cheek. I wiped it with my thumb and cupped her checks so she looked at me straight.
"Never Buffy, I could never fall in love completely. I came to tell you I thought I was until I found out about my soul being permanent, and" I saw her smile broadly and another tear slipped down her face, I smiled back and continued, " there is a prophecy for me becoming human one day. I know this sounds funny after all those years apart, but when Wesley found out all I could think of was how I wanted to come to you and tell." She cried in my arms. "Does this mean you're happy?"
"Of course, I love you and you love me, what happens next?"
"Well I was thinking we have some alone time just me and you," I winked.
"I like that plan," she smiled.
"Then I have to tell everyone else including Cordelia who doesn't know that I left," I looked at her as she winced.
"Ouch…but we will worry about that later." I smiled and bent my head to kiss her sweetly.
The kiss grew more passionate and she put her hands around my face as I moved mine to her back to sit her up. She wrapped her legs around my waist. Finally needing air she pulled away, but quickly looked into my eyes, panting heavily.
"I love you, and I want you to make love to me," she said with all the passion ever.
"Right now?" I asked shyly.
"Now, I need you now," she said huskily.
I grabbed her and kissed her entwining my hands in her hair. My hands slipped down to her back and lifted the hem of her shirt upwards. Breaking the kiss only for enough time to ripped her shirt from her head. She was in my arms kissing me tenderly.
She said, "Angel, I love you,"
"I love you too,"
As I kissed her shoulders she shivered. With that I covered her body with mine as she messed with the buttons of my shirt. She undid each one precisely as I kissed her neck and shoulders. They tasted like honeysuckle, sweet and soft. She completed her task of taking off my shirt and I pulled my arms away from her body still kissing her to takeoff the garment. After that she undid the clasp on my belt, I didn't hold back. She took off my black pants fully then leaving me clad in my emerald boxers.
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Buffy:
From that moment on I was lost in the ecstasy of happiness and he was lost inside me. It was perfect bliss. The only thing I had ever wanted was mine, Angel. He was mine and I was his, forever and always. I feel asleep soon after I had reached my peak in his arms while he stroked my hair gently. I loved when he stroked my hair it soothed my thoughts and doubts about us. We were perfect in every single way for a moment in time….
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