Erm… Naruto does
NOT belong to me^^ It belongs to I-can-never-remember-his-name person and we
will all bow to his glory right now…
*bows*
This also has
shounen-ai and yaoi and YES!! This is going to get veeery dark, actually^^ It
already is…
It may even have
RAPE themes 0___________o *gasp*
Heh, but it
depends on my mood and even if it did, it's only hinted at. The only reason it
IS there would be very important to the story so don't like all spaz on me or
something ^____^;;
This is dedicated
to my beta Koganei!! Who is going through hard times right now so we must ALL
PRAY 4 HER!!!!!!! Cuz we ALL LUV her don't we???????? Hah! Well I do!
This is also
dedicated to ugh,*sigh* Umm… Mikie… for being me… err… inspiration and
so-called helping my with my Hikago story…
Shhhhhhh… he
forcing me to say this!! DUN BELIEVE THOSE WORDS!!!!
*gets muffled*
MGAAAAAAAAH!!!
Naruto growled to himself angrily, unsure of what to do. How many times
has he rushed out of the stupid temple anyways, only to find himself wandering
around a stupid forest with nothing to throw his frustration upon?
He knew he had over reacted and he wouldn't exactly blame Sasuke if he thought that he was some lunatic maniac right now… but somehow, he still believed it was Sasuke's fault. Naruto tried to dismiss it as his childish stubbornness to push the blame on other people, but he had grown out of that years ago and can safely say that he could judge things a little more fairly now… yes, a little…
It was perfectly hard to believe so many things could have happened in
one day, why is everything happening all at once? Why is everything going wrong
at once??
" Fuck! I. Hate. Him."
Naruto snarled as he was almost blinded by rage, slamming his fist into
the tree with a surprising force. He continued to walk swiftly, not noticing
his bloodied hand, which he pushed back into his pocket. He also didn't notice
the rough fist indent that had pressed its way deep into the tree.
But someone else did. And that person was chuckling merrily.
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When Naruto got back, no more words were passed between the two rivals.
Kakashi and Sakura remained worried at the sudden change, no longer did Naruto
attempt to rouse annoyance out of Sasuke. He just flat out ignored Sasuke's
presense. Sasuke continued to watch Naruto carefully though. Even if it was
carefully concealed, Kakashi could see the flicker of worry in Sasuke's usually
cool eyes every time he risked a glance on the other boy's direction. But
Naruto remained true to his words, it really seemed as though he genuinely
"hated" Sasuke and the stoic boy was certain not to make the first advance in
fixing their broken relationship.
The remaining two days at the temple was quiet and restful. For
everyone else other than Sasuke and Naruto though. Kakashi knew of the troubled
mumbles and consistent tossing and turning in sleep, for both of them.
Times when they were together were quiet affairs where voices were
clipped the few times they were heard. Neither of the rivals acknowledged each
other's presence. On the day they trained and Kakashi had ordered them to have
a brief fight with their newly learned techniques, he had hoped to mend the
hopelessly ruined relationship they had. But barely casting a mere glance at
each other, they both downright disagreed and proceeded to work alone instead.
As much as Kakashi felt sympathy for Sasuke for he had reason to
believe this matter wasn't so simple as a small disagreement between the two.
If it had been, Naruto would have forgotten everything have a good meal. Kakashi
was most concerned about Naruto- he almost became a double of Sasuke. His eyes
had lost the defiant cheeriness and morphed into two orbs of dull emotionless
blues. He was not lively as he was before and neither did he pick fights. When
he worked, he worked without speaking and when they were left alone, He would
either lock himself in his room or silently creep outside to who-knows-where.
Naruto was losing himself, and Kakashi really began to wonder what
exactly had happened.
The day they went back to the village and everyone went back to their
respected homes. Kakashi hurried to Iruka to find the mystery behind all this.
" Ne, Kakashi. What a surprise
to see you." Iruka said tiredly as he opened the door a crack, a flicker of
annoyance in his eyes. " And at 3 o-clock in the morning too. How very
considerate of you. But may we leave this matter in the morning, when the sun
is shining and the birds are singing and people aren't willing to kill anyone
who would disturb them from their well-deserved sleep." Iruka shut the door
quite rudely before Kakashi could get a word out.
Kakashi pounded impatiently at
the door again.
He heard with a satisfied smirk
hurried footsteps towards the front door. Iruka swung open the door and his
eyes swept over Kakashi with an irritated expression. His irritation quickly
changed to concern when he saw the grave seriousness that was embedded on
Kakashi's half-hidden features.
" Come in." Iruka sighed as he
moved aside and gestured his slim arm languidly towards the couch. Kakashi
walked in with a murmur of thanks and fell back onto the lavender colour chair.
Iruka took seat in front of Kakashi and peered at him curiously.
" I just came back from my
little vacation with my team." Kakashi stated blandly. Iruka nodded slowly.
" And…?"
" And…" Kakashi took a deep
breath before starting. " I know I shouldn't be as worried and flustered as I
am now… I mean, on the outside, it seems like a slight disagreement between
them but I can't help but think there are something very wrong with the picture
here and— "
" What are you trying to say
Kakashi?" Iruka interrupted, patting the other man's arm to calm him down. He
felt extremely uncomfortable; it wasn't often when Kakashi was actually this
concerned about something.
Kakashi looked away as though
embarrassed.
" It's about Naruto and Sasuke…"
Kakashi continued on about how strangely they've been acting. But the time he
finished, Iruka furrowed his brows thoughtfully.
" It seems to me that it's just
another common disagreement between team mates, like you have mentioned before.
I'm sure that they'll get over it soon enough, Naruto is known for his
hot-headedness."
Kakashi shook his head. " It's
not only that, there is just something I'm missing." Kakashi argued. "I feel as
though someone's there watching us right now. Laughing at us… Because he's
hiding something from us and it's… it's going to harm Naruto! I just know it."
He explained worriedly.
Iruka continued to think for a
while, his lips white and his body tense.
" Besides… Naruto may lose his
temper easily, but he is not one to hold grudges for so long. And he's holding
so much anger within him right now. He's changed Iruka." Kakashi muttered.
" How about this, I'll go over
to Naruto in the morning and talk to him. I'm sure he'll tell me what
happened." Iruka said slowly, thinking his words over. It was true, there was
certainly something wrong and Kakashi was not one to lie or assume.
Kakashi suddenly grabbed his
sleeve, his eyes darting back and forth worriedly from the door to Iruka.
" Go now Iruka. I'm really
worried about this." Kakashi said lowly. Iruka smiled lightly and stood up,
gently brushing away Kakashi's grip but grabbing the man's hand in the process.
Kakashi looked almost startled for a second, but his features softened at the
warmth of Iruka's hand. He smiled tiredly, seemingly a lot older than he really
was.
" I guess I'm over reacting am
I?" He finally asked somewhat sheepishly.
Iruka smiled back.
" Not over reacting… just overly
concerned. And it's not always a bad thing, but I think we should give Naruto
right now his rest." Iruka pulled his hand away to nudge at Kakashi gently at
the shoulder. "And I think you should give me by beauty sleep right now."
Kakashi chuckled merrily, his
usual self shone brightly as he shrugged his worries off and walked towards the
doorway. Though his hand lingered on the knob as he pulled the door open. He
glanced back at Iruka for a minute, opening his mouth as though to say
something. He shook a bit like he was rethinking whatever was about to come out
of his mouth and grinned instead.
" Go have your beauty sleep or
whatever now… but remember, go talk to Naruto tomorrow. I personally think that
you will be able to figure all this out."
Iruka waved him away with mock
impatience.
" Ok ok, go now! Or I won't be
able to wake up tomorrow."
Kakashi glided away quickly with
a cheery wave, leaving Iruka alone with troubled thoughts, and troubled
feelings.
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Iruka knocked at the door three
times and waited at the front step for Naruto to open the door. He was actually
planning to meet his former student any way; it has been quite a while since
they had last talked. The door opened slowly and Naruto peered out hesitantly.
His eyes stopped at Iruka and darted wildly around a moment. Iruka knew for a
fact that that meant Naruto was hastily trying to find an excuse to not talk to
him.
" Hey, can I come in?" Iruka started.
Naruto sighed.
" 'Kay." Naruto answered dully
as he opened the door a little more widely and moved aside. Iruka went in;
noting to himself that it was very true, what Kakashi had said. Naruto's eyes
really had dulled exceptionally, and the dark rings under his eyes certainly
proved that he's been having restless nights the last few days.
Iruka saw Naruto hurry to the
kitchen as he got in and looked around for a place to sit. The place was very
clean, a large difference from the last time he had stepped into the house.
Iruka shifted uncomfortably, he had been to Naruto's home a number of times.
But he felt so alien in it now. He never realized that messiness could be
rather welcoming sometimes.
Naruto walked out tiredly,
swaggering a little as he tried to balance the two cups of tea on the tray and
placed in on a the dining table. There was only one seat there and Naruto
quickly dragged a stool over for himself. Iruka walked over to take his place
at the table, he took the cup and took a long tentative sip out of it. Naruto
watched him carefully.
" Is there a reason you have
graced me with your presence." Naruto said coolly. Iruka winced at the coldness
of his comment, yes… there was certainly something going on here. He decided to
start off casually.
" Your home seems a lot… cleaner
now." Iruka fought down to urge to say "colder." " When did you fix it up?"
Naruto continued to stare at him with those steely eyes.
" I cleaned it up when we got
back yesterday. But to the point please Iruka." Iruka watched Naruto with a
twinge of disappointment. That cold politeness, it was not Naruto at all.
" Iruka? When have you stopped
calling me Iruka-sensei?" Iruka asked amused, though he didn't really feel that
way inside.
Naruto smiled a very non-Naruto
smile.
" I have no reason to, you are
no longer my teacher."
" Did something happen during
your little trip?" Iruka asked straight out. "To the point" he said, well now
he is. Naruto's cold expression flickered for a second to an unfathomable look,
but it returned by to it's usual state immediately.
" Nothing, nothing of course,"
Naruto quickly replied. With that, he began to get up and gave a sorry smile. A
smile that didn't reach his eyes, Iruka noticed.
" I'm sorry, I have something to
do right now, so will it be okay if I am left alone?" Naruto said softly as he
began to walk towards his room. Iruka stood up as well behind him.
" What happened between you and
Sasuke!" Iruka called. Naruto suddenly froze and tensed up.
" How- How did you know?" Naruto
asked quietly, not facing Iruka.
" I don't know, but I want to
know." Iruka told him sincerely. " I am so worried about you, Kakashi came to
me—"
Naruto suddenly whirled around
in fury, his eyes blazing and Iruka hoped that the old Naruto was back. Except,
Naruto quickly turned around again as he regained composure.
" Kakashi… told you, that
bastard."
Naruto stood there for a minute
in silence before he walked into the room and shut the door quietly.
Iruka stared at the door for a
few minutes. Yes… there was definitely something wrong with Naruto. And the
best thing to do now, is to talk to Sasuke.
" I have no idea what is wrong
with him." Sasuke answered coldly. Iruka sighed impatiently.
" You told me that 5 times
already!! But I'm asking you if you remember if you've done anything that could
have caused him to be like that!" Iruka said.
Sasuke stared at him
bewilderingly.
" Why do you automatically think
it was I who made him like that!!"
" I don't! It's just that it's
you who he's been acting particularly cold to." Iruka explained quickly. Sasuke
bit his lip thoughtfully as he tapped his fingers against the table. Iruka was
getting really irritated with Sasuke, he was almost as bad as Naruto. Actually,
Iruka thought, well he was worse. At least Naruto offered him tea. Which was
frighteningly polite of him, Iruka shuddered for a minute feeling as if he
didn't really know Naruto at all.
" Well, perhaps he was mad at me
because I found him when he was in the forest while sick. Maybe he couldn't
stand the fact that he owed me something." Sasuke said slowly, Iruka noticed a
twinge of anger in his voice.
" Yes… Kakashi told me about
that. But is there anything else?"
" Right before he yelled that he
hated me. He said all this weird stuff about how I was harassing him or
something, then apologizing and whatever crap. I just assumed he was going a
little crazy, which isn't exactly surprising when it comes to him."
Iruka found this information
highly interesting. " Did you do anything he said you did??" Sasuke immediately
blushed, to Iruka's shock.
" N-No!! Of course not!! I
didn't even see him since I helped him back when he got lost. I went to talk to
Sakura and spent the rest of the day trying to find him. When I Did find him,
he was already like that!!!" Sasuke stuttered defiantly. Iruka raised a brow.
Was he telling the truth??
Sasuke sharply looked away and
got up in the same fashion as Naruto. " I'd appreciate it if I had some time
alone please." He stated. Iruka got up and bowed slightly, Sasuke did the same,
although much more stiffly.
" Thank you for your help."
Iruka said as he walked out the door.
" Your welcome." Sasuke answered
curtly before he slammed the door shut.
Iruka scratched his head for a
minute as he thought this all over. There was definitely something wrong, and
it isn't only about the two. There was something else that just seemed out of
place and Iruka was determined to find out what it was.
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There was a low steady knocking
at his door and Naruto climbed out of bed tiredly to answer it. It was in the
middle of the night! Who the hell in their right mind would visit him!
Naruto shuffled to the door and
called through the door.
" Who is it?"
There was a short silence.
" It's me."
Naruto's eyes widened and he
swung open the door hastily. As he had expected, Sasuke stood there, looking
rather smug if he could say so himself. Naruto glared at him.
" What are you doing here?" He
barked resting his hands on his hips. Sasuke looked up, with a sorry expression
on his face. Naruto didn't care to register this in his mind.
" I- I wanted to talk." Sasuke
said softly, the cool night breeze lifting his dark strands up slightly. Naruto
paused for a minute, he had been meaning to talk to Sasuke anyways… about what
had happened.
" I hope you're not expecting me
to apologize or anything and…"
Sasuke lifted his eyes brows in
surprise, and lifted his arm to brush his hair aside.
" No of course not. I'm here…
just to talk…" He said again quietly. Naruto watched him suspiciously.
" At--," Naruto looked at his
watch, " Two o-clock in the morning Sasuke-kuuun… That's rather strange of
you." Naruto said slowly with a small smirk. Sasuke's hair had once again
fallen on his reddening face due to the breeze, but he didn't care to brush it
away. Naruto's hand twitched with a sudden impulse to push it aside to reveal
those dark eyes again.
" Shit Naruto, just let me in."
Sasuke said lowly, Naruto was pleased at the abashed ness that he had roused
out of Sasuke. He thought for a minute and decided to let him in.
When they got in, Naruto didn't
offer him a seat so Sasuke stood instead, gently closing the door behind him.
Naruto raised a brow at him, feeling suddenly as though their usual roles were
switched, as though he was now the dominating cool Sasuke while the boy in
front of him was a mirror copy of him. It was a weird feeling and Naruto began
to enjoy it.
" What's there to talk about
Sasuke?" Naruto said quietly in an almost teasing tone.
Naruto saw Sasuke hunched shape
shrug and felt rather uncomfortable with the dimply-lit room, with the moon its
only source of light. He made his way to the dark silhouette of the lamp beside
him and switched it on. A warm orange glow flooded the room and Naruto gestured
towards the dining table where he was talking with Iruka earlier. Sasuke
followed his lead and they both sat down stiffly.
" I wanted to talk about… ummm…"
Sasuke seemed a little stuck with his words. Naruto sat silently, wondering if
he was actually dreaming or not. Naruto. A sudden wave of nausea hit him and
Naruto swallowed back the urge to throw up. He began to realize that sometimes
when he was with Sasuke, he felt a sudden urge to vomit.
Sasuke seemed to notice how Naruto paled and leaned over.
" Are you okay?" Sasuke asked
lightly, concern in his voice. Naruto felt very ill now, even worse now that
Sasuke's face was only mere millimetres away from his face. But there… there
was something seriously wrong with this scenario…
Was Sasuke actually asking if he
was feeling alright??
Naruto blinked how unreal that
sounded before another wave of unbearable nausea hit his stomach. There was
something horribly wrong, something he was missing and Naruto understood that
now.
But…
He slowly winced, hissing in pain as he clutched at his stomach.
" It… It feels like there's
something tearing at my flesh right now… it hurts so much…" Naruto whimpered as
he doubled up in pain and wrapped his arms around. It hurt so much… There was
something ripping through him, trying to get out and-and… God… it hurt…
But he had to know.
" Who- Who are you…" Naruto
asked raggedly with clenched teeth.
There was a dead silence for a
moment, with only Naruto's harsh uneven breaths to break through the air. But
Naruto's ears were ringing, the blood in his head rushing about as though it
was being pulled apart. Pain… So much pain…
Sasuke slowly got up and walked
over to Naruto. He didn't speak and Naruto couldn't see his face at the moment.
Because the light didn't reach his face… it didn't reach his eyes…
He could see him smile though, a
sly evil smile that he never knew--…
God… Sasuke…
" It hurts…" Naruto rasped out
again, his voice hoarse and broken.
Naruto's eyes widened as Sasuke's
fingers suddenly rested under his cheek and his face was tilted upwards.
Naruto's stomach lurched and he gave a startled gasp, partly out of the pain
but mostly because of what he saw.
Blackness…
Sasuke swiftly bent down, but
his face… it was still dark. The light should have been shining on his facing,
Naruto was supposed to see his face!! But it wasn't there, it was shadowed…
Shadowed… even in the light…
Naruto looked at the face
hovering for a few seconds above him, he took in the darkened features that he
could still pick out and that damn smile…
The perfectly straight teeth that glinted dangerously and the lips that
were pulled up in a wicked sneer… Naruto was stunned with shock and horror,
because he couldn't tear his eyes away from that face.
He almost failed to hear the harsh whispery words that slowly wrapped
around him with its cold relentless fingers and choked him.
" It hurts… does it?"
He almost failed to realize the lips that were suddenly crushed against
his own roughly…
Almost…
Naruto cried out angrily, his
previous burning pain nearly forgotten as he tried to push the other boy away.
A heavy new kind of pain furiously hit him again. He couldn't breath, his
insides were churning and tightening and god… he was going to be ripped into
bits and pieces…
Those lips that were pressed against his, they radiated such burning
unbearable heat… Naruto felt it course through his veins as it shot all through
his collapsing body. There was a sudden explosion in his body that was more
painful that anything else, it was so terribly and utterly painful.
A moan was torn away from his throat, clawing at his flesh in the
intense agony, his mouth vibrating against the other, that fire… it wasn't only
from Sasuke. It was from him, rising and burning and engulfing everything
inside of him.
His body was an infernal of
fire…
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Naruto woke up with a jump, his pajamas stuck to him like a second skin
due to the wet sheen of sweat that had covered his body… He quickly pressed his fingers against his
lips and shut his eyes tightly.
That pain… it felt so real.
Naruto quickly flung his damp
sheets aside and relished in the coolness that had graced his flushed body.
Naruto breathed in deeply, his head bowed. His hair hung in clumps that fell
limply against his face. He choked in a sob and wiped his wet cheeks with his
sleeve.
He couldn't remember his dream
though. It was so important, he knew that but just couldn't remember it. All he
could grasp out of it was an intense pain…
Naruto looked out the open
window beside his bed into the night sky.
The moon hung as a softly
glowing orb in the ink black sky, but there was not even one single star in
sight.
Wooooow 0________o
I seriously don't
know where that came from and I KNOW I KNOW!! It kinda un-natural how Naruto
and Sasuke keeps on acting weird all the time. But I LIKE them that way!! So
HAH!!
But really… I HATE
how I did Naruto in this chapter!! I totally totally despise it because it's
all wrong and this part is supposed to be how he acts "later" on… not NOW!!
But it's too late
to change it because I'm seriously too lazy to and I have exams coming up.
Thank you for ALL
the reviews!! How very kind of you all^________^
So I'll be VERY
happy if you review me again… cuz I really Luv you all, I DO!!
Oh yes, this thing may not make sense now
but It kinda will later on… I Hope so because I myself have no idea where the
heck this is going^^;
Hey!! How about u
guys guess in the reviews why the hell everything is happening now!! Then
perhaps I can steal it!! HAHAHAHAHAHA!! *cough* NOT!!!
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Meh, oh
yes^^; I read pretty far in Naruto but
I might still have my info wrong…. Because… well because I don't care for
little bits in the manga that would affect this story…
Because if I did,
I'll go crazy and my head will explode.
And if my head
explodes, it will mean two things:
1) My brains
will platter onto my computer and most likely destroy it.
2) The horror!!
I won't be able to CONTINUE this!!! @_@
Eh,
whatever^_______^ Still tell me if there are mistakes in my story so I can
correct them… cuz we can AAAAAALL learn from our mistakes can we????
NOT!!!
^_^ Nevermind me,
I'm just a little crazy right now^^;\
Note from Koganei: C-chan, u babble worse than me ^_^() ~.~ Me fine, so dun worry and me LUV ur fic so SHUT UP and KEEP WRITING! Its awesome and since Im ur BETA, I'll REALLY TRY 2 make sure there r no mistakes! So THERE!!!! XP
