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Secret of My Heart
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By Rainy Mysteria (rainymysteria@hotmail.com)
**Note: The characters in this fanfic are based on Koei's Dynasty Warriors 4 and Suan Ruan Er is from the book. This is my second fanfic on Dynasty Warriors 4. Unlike my first fanfic, this one will be shorter and the story is mostly from a first person perspective. I hope you enjoy this fic and please submit your reviews, so that I know at least how many people are reading this and any comments are appreciated. You are warned that this is yaoi (male/male relationship) though and there is no reason for you to flame me for that.
Chapters will be updated depending on responses and reviews for this fic.
I would like to take this opportunity to thank everyone who reviewed and supported my first yaoi fanfic (Heart on Fire) of Sun Ce/Gan Ning/Zhou Yu/Xiao Qiao. This encouraged me to write another fanfic which is this one. 'Secret of my Heart' takes us to the Shu camp, looking into the thoughts of Jiang Wei, Zhao Yun and the Shu forces.
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Chapter 1 - Knowing you
--- Jiang Wei ---
Have you ever been in love? I have, and I can tell you for a fact that it's not all candy and flowers. I know this because I live it everyday.
Okay, so imagine this; you're in love with one of your friends; one of the few people you can *really* talk to, hang around with, no matter how stupid you act, and you can act *really* stupid. You've known this person since forever and everyday the ache in your chest grows because you *know* you'll never say those three words to that person, since you're stuck in the "friendship zone."
Now try making this situation a little worse. The object of your affection is also the object of someone else's affection, and your friend returns the feelings for them. Not only does this cause major pangs of jealousy but you know you can't do a damn thing about it.
Now for the devastating part. Your friend, who you've loved ever since you laid eyes on them since joining the force, is a guy. And you're a guy too...
Yep, I'm gay...there, I said it. I haven't told anyone that, not even the person who I want to so badly...yet I don't. And to top it off the person I'm referring to is Zhao Yun, the mighty general of Shu and a very serious person on top of that.
Only he's not always like that. It rips me apart because there is a woman who can make him thaw, get past that serious exterior and connect to him in a way that no-one else can. Her name is Suan Ruan Er. That's what gets me most...the way he's just out of reach. Just past my fingertips.
One day I *will* reach him, and tell him how I feel. I don't think I even care if I'm rejected anymore, just as long as I get it out in the open instead of bottled up inside...but I know I won't, not really. I may be known as Zhuge Liang's potential successor who wears an innocent smile and can talk just about everything...but when it comes to telling Zhao Yun I don't think I could find the right words. Maybe when the time is right...
...But there's never a right time...
By Rainy Mysteria (rainymysteria@hotmail.com)
**Note: The characters in this fanfic are based on Koei's Dynasty Warriors 4 and Suan Ruan Er is from the book. This is my second fanfic on Dynasty Warriors 4. Unlike my first fanfic, this one will be shorter and the story is mostly from a first person perspective. I hope you enjoy this fic and please submit your reviews, so that I know at least how many people are reading this and any comments are appreciated. You are warned that this is yaoi (male/male relationship) though and there is no reason for you to flame me for that.
Chapters will be updated depending on responses and reviews for this fic.
I would like to take this opportunity to thank everyone who reviewed and supported my first yaoi fanfic (Heart on Fire) of Sun Ce/Gan Ning/Zhou Yu/Xiao Qiao. This encouraged me to write another fanfic which is this one. 'Secret of my Heart' takes us to the Shu camp, looking into the thoughts of Jiang Wei, Zhao Yun and the Shu forces.
~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*
Chapter 1 - Knowing you
--- Jiang Wei ---
Have you ever been in love? I have, and I can tell you for a fact that it's not all candy and flowers. I know this because I live it everyday.
Okay, so imagine this; you're in love with one of your friends; one of the few people you can *really* talk to, hang around with, no matter how stupid you act, and you can act *really* stupid. You've known this person since forever and everyday the ache in your chest grows because you *know* you'll never say those three words to that person, since you're stuck in the "friendship zone."
Now try making this situation a little worse. The object of your affection is also the object of someone else's affection, and your friend returns the feelings for them. Not only does this cause major pangs of jealousy but you know you can't do a damn thing about it.
Now for the devastating part. Your friend, who you've loved ever since you laid eyes on them since joining the force, is a guy. And you're a guy too...
Yep, I'm gay...there, I said it. I haven't told anyone that, not even the person who I want to so badly...yet I don't. And to top it off the person I'm referring to is Zhao Yun, the mighty general of Shu and a very serious person on top of that.
Only he's not always like that. It rips me apart because there is a woman who can make him thaw, get past that serious exterior and connect to him in a way that no-one else can. Her name is Suan Ruan Er. That's what gets me most...the way he's just out of reach. Just past my fingertips.
One day I *will* reach him, and tell him how I feel. I don't think I even care if I'm rejected anymore, just as long as I get it out in the open instead of bottled up inside...but I know I won't, not really. I may be known as Zhuge Liang's potential successor who wears an innocent smile and can talk just about everything...but when it comes to telling Zhao Yun I don't think I could find the right words. Maybe when the time is right...
...But there's never a right time...
