"Yeah. It's me."
"Good." Vegeta smiled. Then instantly, his smile turned to a glare. "BASTARD!!" he punched Goku so hard the saiyan fell to the floor.
"V - Vegeta?!" Goku coughed. Vegeta growled.
"You baka, Kakarotto!!" he snapped. Goku shook his head.
"Whoa. Hey, don't call me that for a few weeks, okay? Just until I calm down a little."
"Fine." Vegeta mumbled. "Goku, what's wrong with you?! How could you even let that moron take over you in the first place?! Are you really that weak?!"
"Sorry, Vegeta..." Goku replied guiltily. "I just couldn't fight him."
"It's not ME you should apologize to!" Vegeta shouted. "It's my wife!!"
"Bulma?" Goku looked at him.
"Yes! That's right! Bulma! She's the only one left after your stupidity let Kakarotto loose and got everyone killed!!"
"SAY WHAT?!" Goku jumped to his feet. He looked at Vegeta desperately. "Everyone?! Like who?! Krillin?!"
"Krillin and Eighteen." Vegeta told him. "As well as your entire family including V -"
"Chichi?!" Goku's eyes widened. "Gohan?! Goten?! Videl?! Are they all gone?!"
"That's right." Vegeta nodded. He glared accusingly at him. "By YOUR hand!"
"..... This... can't be happening..." Goku lowered his head. He knelt down. "I can't believe this.... my best friend? The guy I've known almost all my life? And my own family? I just killed them?" he looked at Vegeta. "And what did I do to Bulma?"
"Raped her twice. You raped your son's wife, too."
"No!!" Goku jumped to his feet again. "Tell me that isn't true! I wouldn't do that!!"
"Kakarotto would."
"I...." Goku turned his back to Vegeta, to ashamed to even look at him. "..... I'm sorry..."
"Sorry?!"
"I know. I know that doesn't help at all." Goku shook his head. "But you know I would never do that. I can't! .... But I don't expect you to forgive me..."
"Don't expect your family to, either." Vegeta replied. ".... But it wasn't "Goku" who did that..."
"Don't." Goku said. "Don't try to excuse what I've done. I know I've betrayed my family, my friends and everything I believe in." he looked over his shoulder at Vegeta. "They'll all be wished back, right?"
"I suppose, unless you don't want to wish back everyone that Kakarotto killed." Vegeta answered. In other words, yes.
"Wish them back, and tell them that I can't even express how sorry I am." Goku instructed, turning his head back round. "Bulma, too. I'd never want to hurt her."
"Why can't you tell them yourself? You're the one who killed them." Vegeta shrugged.
"Vegeta...." Goku sighed. "I can't tell them. I just can't. They'll never forgive me. And if they do, that's even worse! Chichi'll never want to go near me ever again. My sons won't want to speak to me. Krillin and Eighteen will be the same."
"But that's just one of the reasons, right?" Vegeta looked at him. "What are you doing to do?"
"Heh. You know me too well. Well... Goku, at least." Goku cracked a small smile that faded away. ".... Thanks. For everything. I guess you'll be the hero now..." he flew off.
"Where are you going?!" Vegeta called after him.
"You'll find out someday. Just don't let me come back. We'll meet again, I promise!" Goku replied. But if the world was at all fair, maybe they wouldn't meet again...
~~~
Goku stood on the edge of a cliff, staring out at the sea. Yes. He had to. What if Kakarotto came back? Besides, by just letting Kakarotto out and doing those things had brought to shame to everything Goku lived for. But it wasn't just that. It was... oh, Goku didn't even know himself. It was a combination of different things, but most of all he was going to do this to make sure those people didn't have to go through all that again.
"I'm... sorry..." he said. "Chichi... Bulma... Gohan... Goten... Videl... Krillin... Eighteen..." he looked at the sea, and smiled. "But don't worry, I'll fix things. He'll never bother you again." his smile faded. "Never..."
Goku took some steps back, and with a great burst of energy he ran as fast as he could. He jumped off the cliff edge and dived down into the sea. He pummeled to the bottom. And stayed there.
~~~
King Yemma sighed.
"Goku..."
"I know." Goku hung his head. "I've done some really bad things, and I take full responsibility for them. It's only fair."
"Yes, you have been acting differently lately. But compared to how you've been during almost all of your life you can still -"
"No." Goku shook his head. He raised his head and looked at Yemma. "Thanks, but I don't deserve a second chance. I got my chance to change when I was a kid, and during the past week or so I've blown it. I'm no better than Frieza. If you send me to Heaven, you'll have to send him, too."
"You mean...?" Yemma looked at him. Goku nodded.
"I appreciate you offering to send me there, but I don't think I deserve it. Even if they forgive me, they'll still have to live on knowing that their own father, husband, friend, whatever, killed them. And I know Bulma will never forget what I did to her. She's gonna be scared for life and even if she isn't she won't forget how I betrayed her. I don't know about them, but I can't forgive myself."
"Goku, are you sure?" Yemma asked.
"Positive."
"Well.... okay... if that's what you really want..."
"It is." Goku smiled.
"Alright. You're going to Hell."
"Thanks."
~~~~~
God don't you know I live with a ton of regret?
'Cause I used to move you in a way that you've never known
But then I accused you in a way that you've never know
But you hurt me in a way that I've never known...
Break me, shake me, hate me, take me over
When the madness stops then you will be alone
So won't you break me, shake me, hate me, take me over
When the madness stops then you will be alone
Listen, baby You'll be, you'll be alone
Break me, shake me, hate me, take me, make me
Fake me, break me, shake me, hate me, take me
Break me
- Savage Garden
Break Me
