"I should leave, now." I said once the kiss was broken a minute later.
"No, don't. I am sorry. I shouldn't have kissed you. It was my fault." he said.
"I never said it wasn't your fault. Listen I gotta go, now." I said and ran out. I ran all the way into the room. I found Ron sitting on the bed. Awake.
"Where have you been, Hermione. I was so worried about you." he said and gave me a hug.
"Sorry. I was………… um….. In the kitchen getting a snack. You know I didn't eat much dinner and I got hungry so I went to the kitchen and got a snack. Sorry I made you worried." I said. He let go of me.
"It's alright. Just next time tell me." he said. I nodded.
"Lets go to bed. It is early in the morning and we have classes." I said and kissed him. We went straight to bed but I didn't sleep. I kept thinking about the kiss. It was all I could think about. I remembered the times we talked about before the kiss. Everything was great before the kiss. But then again the kiss was great too. I was so confused. I loved Ron but remembering times with Draco made me wonder if I still loved him. If the feelings I felt long ago still lived on. I was really confused. I looked out the window. I wondered what Draco was thinking of right that very moment. If I knew draco, probably about how he screwed up by kissing me.
I laughed at my thought. I still haven't figured out whether or not he screwed up. I mean, I liked the kiss but I am married with 2 wonderful kids. But my life is completely boring and unfulfilling. My sex life was so dry. Unsatisfying. I couldn't believe it. I wanted to experience new and more exciting things in my life. I didn't know why I settled for Ron long ago. I couldn't found someone better for me. But I cant take it back. And I don't want to take it back now that I have 2 wonderful children.
I soon fell asleep after that. I woke up at 3:00 in the afternoon and realized I had classes and that I missed all of them. I heard Ron come in.
"Ron. Why didn't you wake me up?" I asked. He smiled and kissed my head.
"I wanted to let you rest. You looked so peaceful, so I didn't want to wake you. I got Dumbledore to get you a sub." he said. I smiled.
"Thanks I was really tired." I said and got up to take a shower. I took a shower and got dressed. I saw Ron sitting on the bed. He looked at me. I knew that look. He wanted to make love. I closed my eyes and wondered when the last time we made love was. 3 months. That was a long ass 3 months too. I hadn't had 1 orgasm in 5 months too. He wasn't that good in bed either. I just walked passed him.
"Hermione. Lets…………." he started but I cut him off.
"Ron, I am not in the mood. Really I am not. Maybe later." I said. He got up.
"Hermione. We haven't do it in over 3 months." he said loudly.
"I know. I am just not in the mood right now. I am very sorry." I said. He walked over to me. He was very close.
"So what's wrong with me? Am I not good enough for you? Huh?" he said angrily. I looked down. He smirked. "You know what, Hermione? I don't care if we never have sex. Okay. I couldn't give a care. If I can't get it from you, I will get it somewhere else. I will see you later." he said and walked out. I just shook. I was sad and angry. All these questions came into my head. Would he really cheat on me? If so, with who? No answer to my questions. I needed to think so I went to the Astronomy Tower.
I sat there for a while thinking about what he said. I cared about him a lot. I loved him. I think. I wasn't sure. I knew that there was something there. I wasn't sure what it was. After a couple of minutes I heard a throat clearing. I turned around.
"Draco. Hi. What are you doing here?" I asked him. He sat down next to me.
"Well I come up here every day to think. What about you?" he asked.
"Same." I said and looked out the window.
"Listen, about last night. I--" he started.
"It's okay. I understand." I said.
"Okay. What are you thinking about?" he asked.
"Ron. My life. Me. My kids." I said.
"Oh. What's wrong?" he asked.
"Ron threatened to cheat on me. I am thinking of leaving him and I don't know what do to about my kids. Then there is me I need to consider too. I am confused." I said and sighed.
"I think you should leave him. He's not right for you." he said.
"That's your opinion." I said. I knew he would tell me to leave him because he kissed me last night.
"What is your heart telling you to do?"
"My heart is telling me to leave him. But my head is messing with my heart. I have all these reasons to stay with him. I am so confused." I said. I felt a tear form in the corner of my eye.
"Hermione, don't cry. It's alright. Just listen to your heart. It will tell you what to do. God, I sound so cheesy." he said and laughed. I laughed a little. "Well. I am glad to see that I make Hermione Granger laugh." he said. I smiled.
"You always knew how to make me feel better. It is weird how you have changed so much but you are still the same." I said.
"That makes sense." he said sarcastically.
"You know what I mean." I said bumping my shoulder with his shoulder.
"Yeah I do. I am just being a geek." he said. I smiled.
"You're always a geek." I said. He stuck his tongue out. I laughed.
"Hermione." he said. I looked at him and then his lips were on mine. I was surprised to see I was kissing him back. I laid back and he was on top of me. I felt his hand go in my shirt and to my bra hook. I stopped kissing him and looked at him. He looked into my eyes, and I looked into his. I started kissing him again. He continued to moves his hands all over my body.
'What am I doing' I thought. I ignored my thoughts and let him do whatever he wanted. HE started kissing my neck.
"Draco." I breathed. He stopped and looked at me.
"Are you sure you want to do this?" he asked. I nodded. "WHat about Ron?" I didn't answer but kissed him. He took that as a I don't care about Ron right now. And he was right. I was not thinking about Ron. I was thinking about making love to Draco. And what I was thinking about became reality.
Draco and I made love for a long time. It was slow. Like the first time we did it. The time I lost my virginity. We lay there holding each other with only his leather jacket covering us.
"What are you thinking about?" he asked me. I smiled.
"You. And this wonderful feeling I have right now." I said. He kissed my head.
"Hermione. I love you." he said. I looked at him.
"I love you, too." I said and kissed him. I pulled away and looked at my watch. "I have to go. Now. It is 9:00. I gotta get home." I said. I walked to the door and blew a kiss to Draco. I ran home. When I opened the door Ron was sitting on the couch with his head in his hands. He looked up at me when I closed the door. He had been crying.
"Hermione. I was so worried." he said and hugged me tight. I pushed him off.
"Why? Did you all the sudden think about me when you were fucking some girl. Huh." I yelled.
"Hermione. Don't yell. I didn't do anyone. I was just mad. You know I would never cheat on you. I love you too much. Please forgive me. Please." he said. I felt bad because I made love to Draco and now I was mad a Ron because he threatened to cheat on me. I nodded and he hugged me.
"What is that I smell on you? Is that cologne?" he asked.
"Yeah it is." I said hoping he wouldn't ask me to eleborate.
"Who's?" he asked. I sighed
"Draco Malfoy." I said walking to the bathroom.
"What are you doing with his cologne on you?" he asked following me.
"We kinda had sex." I admitted. I was ready for him to yell. But instead of yelling he hit me. He slapped my hard on my face.
"You little slut. You get mad at me because I said I would and you actually go and do it. Oh shut up. Don't cry. You are such a baby. Well maybe this will ease the pain from face." he said and pushed me down on the floor. He starting kicking me. I tried to shut off the waterworks but I couldn't. I just kept crying and crying and he just kept hitting and hitting me. After what seemed like forever he stopped.
"That will teach you to cheat on me." he said and then spit on me. He went to the common room and sat on the couch. I lie there on the floor. Then Dumbledor's owl came into the room. Ron got up and read the note.
"There is a meeting. I will tell you what it was about when I get back." he said and left.I stayed there. Laying on the flooor. He came back an hour later.
"Your still on the floor. I thought you were stronger. Well the meeting was about the ball we are having. The Halloween ball. You are in charge of decorations along with Draco. I am in charge of food and drinks along with Minvera. Aren't you glad you get to work with your little hunny bun. Now get to bed. You are actually going to work tomorrow." he said. I didn't move so he picked me up and dropped me on the bed hard. I groaned.
"Goodnight, my darling." he whispered and turned out the light. I just laid there and didn't get any sleep. I kept thinking what had I done to deserve this. I shouldn't have told him. I should have kept it to myself. I lay there all night blaming myself. When morning came was I so sore I could barely move. Ron wasn't in bed and there was something on the table. I walked over to the table slowly and opened what was on the table. It was a present from Ron. There was a card and it said:
Hermione my darling. This is for you. You really deserve it.
Love Ron.
I looked at it. Then my eyes widened. It was the robe I wanted. It was blue and silky and short. I picked up the robe and under it was the ring and necklace I wanted. The ring had three diamond hearts and a gold band and the necklace was the same. I was excited. I smiled.
"I see you like the gifts." someone said and startled me. I turned around and it was Ron.
"Yes. Thank you." I said and walked to the bathroom and he followed me.
"Don't I get something." he asked. I kissed him lightly and very fast.
"I have to get a shower now." I said and closed the door. I looked at myself. I looked horrible. I was bruised everywhere. I muttered a few spells and all the bruised quickly went away. I took my shower and got dressed. Ron looked at me. I looked at him.
"Um, Hermione. Don't tell anyone about last night. If you do then it will happen again. Count on it." he said and walked to the Great Hall.
Sorry. It took me so long to update. And I am sorry that I made Ron so mean. You will find out soon enough why I did it. And to all those people out there who like my story I have already planned a sequel to it. Right now it is untitle but I guarntee that this story will be finished shortly. Please Review.
