CHAPTER 2: Contemplation
"Yea Willow! I know, but work with a rocker? And what if? Just what if the whole thing is a flop?" Buffy asked; head bent to fit into her phone while cleaning her cello clean of rosin residue.
"But, wouldn't you just feel better to take the chance?" Willow answered. "What if it's just what your career's been needing and you regret forever that you passed the opportunity. When you first got the opportunity you were just so positive.that this was it. 'Ya know?"
"I know. But afterwards, I was just so uncertain.just like I am now," Buffy whined into the phone.
"Buffy, seriously. I would literally bend over backwards to have the opportunity that you have in your hands really. But on the other hand, nobody wants a violist that has no talent do they?" Willow asked with scorn.
"Willow! Don't say that! I know how talented you are. Your chance will come," Buffy exclaimed. Buffy has never heard such low confidence in Willow. And the fact is, Willow was great, although she might think otherwise.
".But Buffy. Everyone's made something of himself or herself. Cordy. Tara. You. Even that guy named Jonathan that no one paid attention to in class. Me? I'm just stuck in the gutter, stuck in Baltimore with the Baltimore Orchestra. I mean they're good and all but nothing compared to say, the Cleveland Orchestra," Willow said, getting quieter until all she was at was a whisper.
"That still doesn't mean you don't have talent!" argued Buffy with passion. "Your one of the best violists I have ever meant, and not just because your one of my bestest friends."
In the background, Buffy could hear yells.
"YEAH! I'M COMING! LET ME GET OFF THE PHONE FIRST!" Willow screamed back. "Sorry Buffy. I've got to go. Oz and I have tickets to get on Lady Baltimore. Crab night!" Willow explained. "I'll talk to you later, alright?"
"Yea Will, go have fun!" Buffy said wistfully. "And tell Oz I said 'HI'."
"Ok." Willow replied. "Oh, and Buffy? Just grab it and don't look back." Willow simply stated before hanging the phone up.
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"What to do. What to do." Buffy mumbled over and over again as she paced across the studio.
Ever since that man named Gunn had come three days ago, everything had been hazy and unclear for Buffy. At first it seemed an easy decision. Just take it, right? Nope. When it came down to it, Buffy just didn't work well with rockers. They just seemed to have come from a different planet.
Classical and rock? "That just doesn't mix," she thought. Talking to Willow just seemed to push on the side of taking the opportunity. Willow didn't seem to grasp the 'rocker' part of the equation that was making Buffy so hesitant. And thinking about it more, it just seemed reasonable to Buffy to grab the opportunity, but then in the back of her mind all she could hear was, "What if? What if it's a repeat?"
As she thought of this, her head wandered off into the past, the past of heartache and pain. After a couple of minutes, Buffy shook her head, clearing it of unclear, unwanted thoughts. Only thought in her head, "I must move forward; I can't let him affect me this way."
Grabbing the phone, Buffy hastily dialed the number printed on the small card that had been obviously folded and unfolded many times and over.
"Yes, Mr. Gunn? This is Buffy Summers," Buffy said into the phone.
"Yes, well.Gunn. I've decided to join in on the collaboration," Buffy said quickly.
"Yes, I know it's final."
"No, I won't back out."
"Yes, I'm free tomorrow."
"To meet the rock star?"
"Where then?"
"Yes, I know where Café Bagel is."
"The one near Safeway right?"
"Yes."
"Ok. Café Bagel. Next to Safeway. 3 o' clock pm," and Buffy hung up the phone with a satisfied click.
Staring onto the phone, Willow's statement reverberated in Buffy's head:
"Just grab it and don't look back."
"Well, I've grabbed it, no going back now," Buffy said to the empty studio.
Tbc.
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A/N: Yes, I know. It is still pretty short for a chapter.but hey! It's longer than before. Again.please review!!!!!!!!!!!!
Btw: the Lady Baltimore is a ship in the Baltimore Harbor.
Disclaimer: Café Bagel', 'Safeway', and 'Lady Baltimore' do not belong to me.the stores are just making a cameo in the fic. =) Same with Buffy and the crew, all Joss's. Please don't sue me! :]
"Yea Willow! I know, but work with a rocker? And what if? Just what if the whole thing is a flop?" Buffy asked; head bent to fit into her phone while cleaning her cello clean of rosin residue.
"But, wouldn't you just feel better to take the chance?" Willow answered. "What if it's just what your career's been needing and you regret forever that you passed the opportunity. When you first got the opportunity you were just so positive.that this was it. 'Ya know?"
"I know. But afterwards, I was just so uncertain.just like I am now," Buffy whined into the phone.
"Buffy, seriously. I would literally bend over backwards to have the opportunity that you have in your hands really. But on the other hand, nobody wants a violist that has no talent do they?" Willow asked with scorn.
"Willow! Don't say that! I know how talented you are. Your chance will come," Buffy exclaimed. Buffy has never heard such low confidence in Willow. And the fact is, Willow was great, although she might think otherwise.
".But Buffy. Everyone's made something of himself or herself. Cordy. Tara. You. Even that guy named Jonathan that no one paid attention to in class. Me? I'm just stuck in the gutter, stuck in Baltimore with the Baltimore Orchestra. I mean they're good and all but nothing compared to say, the Cleveland Orchestra," Willow said, getting quieter until all she was at was a whisper.
"That still doesn't mean you don't have talent!" argued Buffy with passion. "Your one of the best violists I have ever meant, and not just because your one of my bestest friends."
In the background, Buffy could hear yells.
"YEAH! I'M COMING! LET ME GET OFF THE PHONE FIRST!" Willow screamed back. "Sorry Buffy. I've got to go. Oz and I have tickets to get on Lady Baltimore. Crab night!" Willow explained. "I'll talk to you later, alright?"
"Yea Will, go have fun!" Buffy said wistfully. "And tell Oz I said 'HI'."
"Ok." Willow replied. "Oh, and Buffy? Just grab it and don't look back." Willow simply stated before hanging the phone up.
~~~~~~~~~~
"What to do. What to do." Buffy mumbled over and over again as she paced across the studio.
Ever since that man named Gunn had come three days ago, everything had been hazy and unclear for Buffy. At first it seemed an easy decision. Just take it, right? Nope. When it came down to it, Buffy just didn't work well with rockers. They just seemed to have come from a different planet.
Classical and rock? "That just doesn't mix," she thought. Talking to Willow just seemed to push on the side of taking the opportunity. Willow didn't seem to grasp the 'rocker' part of the equation that was making Buffy so hesitant. And thinking about it more, it just seemed reasonable to Buffy to grab the opportunity, but then in the back of her mind all she could hear was, "What if? What if it's a repeat?"
As she thought of this, her head wandered off into the past, the past of heartache and pain. After a couple of minutes, Buffy shook her head, clearing it of unclear, unwanted thoughts. Only thought in her head, "I must move forward; I can't let him affect me this way."
Grabbing the phone, Buffy hastily dialed the number printed on the small card that had been obviously folded and unfolded many times and over.
"Yes, Mr. Gunn? This is Buffy Summers," Buffy said into the phone.
"Yes, well.Gunn. I've decided to join in on the collaboration," Buffy said quickly.
"Yes, I know it's final."
"No, I won't back out."
"Yes, I'm free tomorrow."
"To meet the rock star?"
"Where then?"
"Yes, I know where Café Bagel is."
"The one near Safeway right?"
"Yes."
"Ok. Café Bagel. Next to Safeway. 3 o' clock pm," and Buffy hung up the phone with a satisfied click.
Staring onto the phone, Willow's statement reverberated in Buffy's head:
"Just grab it and don't look back."
"Well, I've grabbed it, no going back now," Buffy said to the empty studio.
Tbc.
~~~~~~~~~
A/N: Yes, I know. It is still pretty short for a chapter.but hey! It's longer than before. Again.please review!!!!!!!!!!!!
Btw: the Lady Baltimore is a ship in the Baltimore Harbor.
Disclaimer: Café Bagel', 'Safeway', and 'Lady Baltimore' do not belong to me.the stores are just making a cameo in the fic. =) Same with Buffy and the crew, all Joss's. Please don't sue me! :]
