It'll Never be the Same
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Hey, I have been doing so much work on trying to make up my own Rogue + Pietro love fic. I have never been much on doing romantic love fics, but this was one. So I decided to mix my angst abilities with love. Oooo fun. Well I hope that you like it… and please review!!!!! My characters may be a little OOC but not in a big way. Thanks.
Oh and all flashbacks are italicized.
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Chapter 1
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' How? Wha' is wrong with mah?' Rogue had just woken up from another one of her nightmares. ' His face appears in mah dreams… well nightmares really.' Rogue's eyes filled with tears. 'And each time ah end up killin' him because of this damned curse of mine.' She started to cry uncontrollably. " Ah can't fall in love with him. Ah can't fall in love with anyone… eva." She fell onto her soft pillow and cried black tears.
Kitty listened to her friend. She was too afraid to say anything. Kitty knew that lately, more than before, Rogue was thinking about all the people she had touched, but most of all, Rogue was thinking about Pietro. ' It was only like a month and 1 weeks ago that Rogue had lost control over her powers. When she returned, she had to like stay in bed for days, but afterwards, she was different. Her emerald eyes had changed along with her heart. I think she knew of her speedy friend who loomed over her bed. He came to see her everyday, each day talking to her. He said he loved her every visit. ' She paused to sniffle. ' But now he puts that act on, of being all cool and that nothing is bothering him, but I have seen the scars on both of them.' Kitty had been crying lately too. The memories haunted her soul.
Rogue's cries could still be heard through the door. Kitty's back was against the wall; she fell down with her head in her knees. ' Why did I have to see them? Why did I have to be the one to find out?'
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" Pietro, ah'm sorry ah can't…be with ya anymore!" Rogue cried, struggling with each syllable.
" Why Rogue… whathaveIdonewrong?" His voice picking up pace. They had bee secretly dating for a month now, nobody knew, or so they thought. Rogue and Pietro would sneak out to meet one another almost ever night. They were dating a week before Rogue had her ' power surge' at the concert. He visited her, and they dated after that, but something changed within Rogue.
" Ya know why Pietro!" She screamed. Tears claimed her eyes. ' Damn this curse of mine.'
Pietro stepped across the warm grass, reaching for her hair and putting it behind her ear. Rogue slightly flinched. " As long as I can be in your company for the rest of my life, that's all I need. I don't care if I can't touch your skin. I love you Rogue." He talked slowly, so that she understood every word. He smiled a faint smile; it was a different thing for Pietro to spill his heart out to anyone.
She smiled back, but then came back to reality and it quickly fell. " No…Pietro ah cant!" She ran away, back to the mansion. " Ah don' wanna hurt ya!" She cried out loud.
For the first time in his life, he couldn't run. His legs didn't move. He had heard her last words. " You're not only hurting me, you're hurting yourself Rogue." Tears fell from his smooth skin and hit the ground leaving small circles. After minutes of being motionless, he finally turned around and shot off back to the brotherhood house.
Kitty came out from the bushes. " So this is what she was doing. She was meeting up with Pietro." She paused and thought about what she just saw. " I wish I hadn't like followed her." Kitty headed back to the mansion.
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' That was like two weeks ago. I haven't told anyone, except for Lance, but it was for a different reason. He had to know. I often talk to him about it, and to myself like I am now. I remember the following two days from after I returned to the mansion.'
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' It's been two days now. Rogue hasn't come out of her room. I go in, but never ask her what's wrong. I just watch her cry. Being her best friend and all, I have been covering for her at dinner. Yesterday was a headache; today is a stomachache … for the both of us. I think I will like go to bed early.' Kitty got up from the table. " I'm really not that hungry sorry, but like thanks." Kitty faked a smile and put her dish away, which had all its food still on it. She grabbed a bar of chocolate from her hiding place. ' Maybe Rogue would like some chocolate, always cheers me up.' She thought on a high note.
Kitty walked up the long, wide staircase with the chocolate bar in hand. ' I will just simply ask her what's wrong. She can't know I was spying on her.' She declared in her mind. She reached her door and raised her hand to knock, but hesitated. ' What if she's asleep? The lights are off, I cant like see any light from under the door.' Kitty slowly phased her head through the corner of the room. Her face was hidden in the shadows. The only light was from the moonlight, shining through balcony windows. Kitty almost gasped at the sight, but kept quiet to restrain from Rouge seeing her.
" Pietro… I'm sorry. I love you so much… but we cant be together… not with me like this. You deserve so much better." Rogue cried. She took a simple kitchen knife and swiped it across the top of her shoulder.
Kitty looked at her dumfounded. ' Rogue…is…cutting herself and liking it, from what I can tell.' Kitty phased back through the wall. ' I've got to tell someone.' She thought for a second and finally responded to herself. ' Pietro. I will tell Pietro tomorrow night when I go to Lance's for our date. He can help her.'
Kitty finally turned around and knocked. " Hey Rogue can I like come in?"
" Yah, jus' hold on a second." Rogue yelled through the door.
Kitty cringed, knowing what she was doing. A minute passed and finally Rouge yelled to Kitty to come in. Kitty phased through the wall, trying to not show she knew everything. " Rogue… I noticed that you haven't been like eating, so I was thinking maybe you could use some chocolate." Kitty said enthusiastically.
Rogue could tell that Kitty had a strong will to help her, and didn't want to hurt her feelings any longer. So she graciously accepted the chocolate bar. " Thanks Kitty." Rogue squeaked out. She slowly opened the wrapper and hesitantly bit into the chocolate.
" Oh good!" Kitty exclaimed, " I was afraid you wouldn't eat it, but I hope you like get better Rogue. And I'm here if you ever want to talk, okay?"
" Yah Kitty, I will." ' Not' Rogue thought. ' I can't let Kitty know. Ack… I can only imagine how many calories are in this thing. I hope she leaves soon.'
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' Rogue, you have changed so much. Especially that night.'
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Hours had passed since Rogue had eaten the chocolate bar. After Rouge was sure Kitty was asleep, she ran to the bathroom close by.'
Kitty eyes shot open and heard gagging noises…and then a release of bodily fluids. Kitty cried. ' Oh Rogue, what has happened to you?' Kitty put the blanket over her head.
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' The next day at school took forever to go by. I finally got home. I had to wait about four hours, until my date at seven. Not that it was on my mind really. I had to tell Pietro about Rogue.'
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" Hey Lance, um… like what were we planning on doing today?" Kitty asked cautiously.
" I don't know really, got any ideas?" Lance asked in question, driving his car out of the driveway.
' Perfect.' Kitty thought with a small smirk plastered on her face. " Well, why don't we just rent a movie and watch it at your house?"
Lance thought about it and nodded at Kitty. She smiled.
They picked up the movie and bought some popcorn to put in the microwave. Lance drove Kitty back to the Brotherhood house. Kitty was on a mission. ' Got to like tell Pietro.' She repeated in her mind. They entered the house and Lance put the popcorn in the microwave. " Hey Lance, I'm going to go to the bathroom, okay?"
" Yeah sure Kitty." He said, preoccupied with the popcorn.
Kitty crept up the stairs. She could hear Pietro's music blaring through the walls of his room. It was techno. ' I guess that's slow for him.' Kitty joked. She knocked on his door, but nobody answered. She quietly phased through, knowing if she were caught, she would be in big trouble. She looked and was shocked. ' Why does this keep happening to me?' Kitty cried in her mind. She unlocked the door and cracked it open, so that it looked like Kitty was walking past and saw him like that. She ran downstairs in tears.
" Kitty what's wrong?" Lance asked, quite worried.
Without saying a word she dragged Lance upstairs and pointed inside of Pietro's room. He peered in and shook his head.
Pietro was sprawled out on his bed. There was a pile of empty beer bottles on the floor. At least twelve empty ones. In one of his hands he had a bloodstained knife. Slits were cut across his wrists. His bed sheets were covered in his blood. You could see other scars from previous sessions. ' What am I going to do?'
Lance walked over to Pietro and tried to wake him up. " Get up Pietro." Lance whispered. He was shocked and hurt his friend would do something like this.
Pietro's head moved. Pietro coughed. " What…" He cut off. He was groggily trying to sit up. " Can you turn off the fucking bright light?" Pietro yelled. Lance flicked the light switch off, so that the light through his window was all they had now.' Damn, the room's already spinning… don't need lights too.' Pietro told himself. Pietro stretched without thinking. His arms were outstretched. The wounds on his wrists reopened and started to ooze blood. Pietro realized the knife he still had in his hand. He gasped because they were looking at him. Pietro brought his hands down in a nonchalantly way. He took the blade and threw it on the ground.
" Pietro… why?" Lance chocked out handing Pietro a towel to clean himself up with.
" I have my reasons. Just leave me alone." Pietro rasped.
Kitty was crying. Lance and Pietro didn't even notice her until. " It's because of Rogue."
Pietro didn't get mad. He just froze and shook at the sound of my name. " Listen, I moved to fast to noticed that I had lost her. If I didn't drown myself in pain and alcohol, what could I have done? All my life I have been faster than anybody else. But not with Rouge, she kept up with me. So, if she cant keep up with me anymore, I will slow down for good." He chocked out. Maybe he said it because it haunted his conscience… or maybe it was because he was still pretty drunk. Either way, he spoke his words truthfully. His eyes fell. Kitty's eyes were filled with even more tears, so she ran. Lance followed her. " Kitty wait!" Lance yelled. " Kitty!" But she was already gone. Lance shook his head. He went back upstairs to help Pietro out.
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' So am I really crazy for crying all the time? I'm not sure anymore. I feel like I can't help. I'm afraid I might lose one of them, and it seems like a package deal though. One goes, they both do.' Kitty's head fell into her knees harder. ' It's been two weeks since I had seen them ' breakup' so what now? They both have gone to extreme measures, and I cant help. Rogue is cutting and not eating. And what she does eat, she throws up. Pietro is a cutter also, and he is an alcoholic as well. Should I be surprised? Rogue didn't seem suicidal yet, but Pietro's cuts in his wrists were pretty deep. I know for a fact that Lance has cut Pietro's alcoholic sources, for he couldn't buy it on his own yet. Pietro is slowly doing without it, but Lance cant watch him all the time, so he still cuts. Lance told me he was worried out of his mind; he didn't know what to do. Pietro took an overdose of pills one time that Lance found on the counter, but luckily for Lance, Pietro's protective cells moved faster than the pills affects. So nothing happened.' She paused. ' But what can I do for Rogue?'
A noise was heard down the hallway in which Kitty sat in. She was crying so hard, finally getting it all out, that she couldn't hear the figure that was approaching. " Half-pint… what's wrong?"
She immediately dried her tears and replied with a simple " Nothing Mr. Logan, really."
Logan sniffed the air. " I can smell your tears." He abruptly paused. He sniffed again. " Blood, I can smell… Rogue's blood… it's stronger than a normal scrap."
Kitty's eyes widened with horror. " No wait, Mr. Logan, It's nothing." He didn't listen. Logan threw open the door the locked door and saw Rogue with a knife in her hand. Kitty cried even harder.
Scott woke up to the bashing of a door being shot open and Kitty's dominant cries. He opened his door and ran to Kitty. " What's going on?" Kitty didn't answer; she couldn't control her crying. She felt like she couldn't breath. Scott went down to comfort her, but he passed the door and saw Rogue. He shot up. " Rogue?"
Logan growled. He walked up and grabbed the knife from her hands. He took it and cut it into pieces with his claws. Logan chucked it out the open window. " What are you doing stripes?" He asked in a tone full of worry and disappointment. Rogue started to cry hard too.
Between the cries of Kitty, Rogue, and the outburst from Logan, many of the other, older X-Men awoke. They came to see what was happening. They couldn't believe what they saw.
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A lot to happen in the first chapter, but a lot was Kitty's P.O.V. and what she remembered. Poor Kitty knew too much. Well I hope it was good. As you can see, this is a Reitro, but they need a lot of help it seems. Better things will happen, you'll see. Well, please review. I would really like it if you did. Well byes now, I will try and update soon!
~Suraka-chan~
