"Can..Can I meet you again?" "where are you?"

Chapter 6: Dreamy nights filled with Jealousy

Mimiru opened her eyes as she listened to the noises coming from Tsukasa's room, she looked confused she could not understand what he was saying or doing. Who was he talking to? Himself? Did he have a phone in there? What was it? He sounded strange filled with yearning. She squinted her eyes in disgust and flipped over pulling the pillow over her ears.

" Where are you?, I know it's late but.can I see you? I miss you.I want you.."

" Its.difficult I don't know how I am going to get here, sorry"

" I see.That's ok."

" Sorry, Goodnight"

Tsukasa rolled over tossing his phone onto the floor feeling desperate. " I can't take it anymore, this lie is eating away at me.I can't tell I can't" He continued to stare at his goggles questioning whether he should even go. His heart raced and pounded. "I could lye down in bed with it on couldn't I?" He thought it over carefully

" Ugh..O My god who the hell was he talking to? A friend?" Mimiru coughed hard squeezed her eyes tightly shut " A.A..Girlfriend?"

Tsukasa lay down on his back in his boxers, the heat of the room too much for clothes he adjusted the goggles over his eyes and shut them breathing hard " Oh god I'm so nervous don't know what I should do.." He turned the switch and he began to fall through brilliant shapes and colors. What felt like an endless tunnel stopped as he fell onto some hay. It was very dark out and the moon shone bright the stars and moon seemed to light the way to a small dusty road nearby. As he walked he passed by a small baby Grunty. Feeling a bit sad he began to walk at an even faster pace.

" Where are you!?" He lifted his rod high into the air and warped onto a small boat.

Mimiru sat up angrily. " Ugh!!!!!! Noises!!!!!" She stood up feeling even angrier and walked up to Tsukasa's door knocking hard. After a long wait she flung open the door.

" Why?" She asked staring at Tsukasa as he lay on the bed goggles attached over his eyes. " Whatever.doesn't matter" She walked away with a confused and hurt look on her face.

It was six in the morning and Tsukasa woke up stretching and yawning. He closed his eyes as a pleasant smell filled the air. " Must be breakfast, hope it tastes as good as it smells" He said rubbing his eyes. He got up and walked out his door entering the kitchen. There were plates heaping with pancakes, eggs, bacon, sausage, and steak. Bear was bending over in the fridge taking out whatever juice he could find. " Wow Bear! You really outdid yourself!" Mimiru shouted stuffing sausage into her mouth. " Well since you and Tsukasa will be living here from now on might as well cook a lot! Besides we have a guest this morning!" He explained. " Yeah..I know..Im still really shocked about it though actually its so impossible to believe I feel bad, how awfull." Bear nodded.

" A.Guest.?" Tsukasa walked even slower to the kitchen afraid of who it may be. Walking even closer he stepped gingerly into the kitchen.

" Oh.So your awake Tsukasa, Hi, how have you been?"

He felt as if his heart was going to burst open. He was in his boxers he had a chest of a boy, He lied to her.He..She..She was in this very house in the morning having breakfast with Bear and Mimiru, saying hello to him. He coughed hard really hard until it turned into fits, the fits followed with hacking and wheezing. He fell down onto the floor and grabbed at his chest.

" TSUKASA!" Bear yelled running over to him. " Mimiru! Get his Inhaler!" Mimiru nodded running off into his room. " uhhhhh..."Tsukasa felt dizzy and sick to his stomach. What the hell. what was he going to do? He looked up as Mimiru stuffed the inhaler into his mouth and gave it a good push. The room swirled and looked fuzzy almost pixilated, until there was nothing but darkness.

~You, You are near to the dark, let me tell you bout' the sun.~ ~ You, you are here, no escape from my visions of the world~ ~You will cry all alone but it does not mean a thing to me~ ~ Now in the song I will sing, Till the darkness comes to sleep~ ~Come to me I will you bout the secret of the sun, Its in you not in me~ ~But it does not mean a thing to you.~ ~ The sun is in your eyes the sun is in your ears~ ~ I hope someday you will see the sun somewhere in the darkness~

Memories of Aura and that special place flooded his head, the time he showed her where it was, sometime later when he lied and told her he was a she.

" GODDAMMIT TSUKASA! SEE YOU ARE A FAGGOT CAN'T EVEN TAKE THE PAIN!"

" not this again"

" But daddy!!! The burns they hurt! Why daddy why!?"

" WHAT THE HELL DID YOU DO TO HIM! HIS BACK ITS ALL RED AND BLOODY!!!"

" Noooo god noooo I DON"T WANNA FUCKING REMEMBER THIS NOOOO STOP!!"

" SHUT UP YOU'RE THE ONE WHO MADE HIM LIKE THIS YOU BITCH"
*Throwing her to the floor, he overpowered her and ripped her clothing as
she struggled harder to free herself he pushed down on her wrists, he
raped her, thrusted as hard as he could and continuously grinded his
nails into her wrists, bit her nipples until they bled, after he was done
with his sick pleasure, which was all infront of this small boys eyes, he
reached over to his pants and took out his butterfly knife, she screamed
loudly but they were soon stopped as the knife stabbed through her
throat, but he was not over with her yet, grabbing her neck as her almost
lifeless body hung into the air he repeatedly took stabs to her head,
lastly in the middle of her forehead he worked his way down making a deep
cut from her head down to her uterus. He then dropped her onto the floor
kicking her to one side he approached him and smacked him in the face
with his bloodstained hand*

" why did I have to remember such a thing"

He could feel the hot tears running down his cheeks as something warm was
underneath him, he was in his bed again. Was it all just a horrible
nightmare?
He opened his eyes and realized that his eyes met someone else, They were
pretty even under her glasses and her hair was long and blue, she sat in
her wheelchair wearing an aqua marine colored dress. " Oh god no.I
wasn't dreaming!"

Mimiru sat on the bed beside him and Bear stood on the other side of the
bed
" How are you feeling?" Subaru touched his hand lightly and squeezed his
eyes shut tightly " Not so good." Mimiru looked on her eyes slanted.