This is the next chapter to "So Far Away."
The song belongs to Stained.
Hope you all like this story, no real flames yet, and I will accept them, if there about my writing, but if you try and flame me about doing a Taito, why are you on the second chapter? Didn't you get that it was a Tai and Matt in the first chapter?
The song is very widely spread and I am going to try and keep it in tune with the song the best I can.
This is a Matt Pov. If I change to Tai Pov I will tell you clearly.
You all know what Tai's life has been like these last two years, how's Matt's going? Oh and just to clarify, this is the day after Tai. So Tai could be doing anything.
So Far Away
Chapter 2
Disintegrating
(~Now that we are here~)
" Please come out!" I hear behind my door. " Matt please" Sora. What is she doing here? I don't answer any of them. Why can't they just leave me alone? Just like he did.
I chock on a sob, no I'm not going to think of Tai, he left, and he never cared for me. I tell myself but the words hold no meaning, only a lie to myself. Two years he has been gone, and yet everyday feels longer then the last.
My hands reach up and touch my lips, a year ago today, one year ago we had our first kiss. A small smile tugs at the corners of my lips. It had been the best kiss I could have asked for. The happiness that went through my veins that day is all that keeps me going.
" Matt, you're upsetting everyone even more." T.K. " We know that you… You're hurting more then any of us, but we need you, I need you bro, please come out." He sounds so sad. I sigh knowing that I could not make my little brother hurt anymore.
I stand up and unlock the door before moving back to my bed. My curtains are closed and blowing in the wind, giving an even darker look to my black room, just like I like it. My bedspread is jet black with two read flames entwining together in an almost dance. My pillows are Black, carpet Black, and walls painted a black purple colour, except in one spot where Tai had painted one word and drew a smiley face. Only I knew what it said though, Tai's writing was not known for being legible.
I find myself staring at that spot a lot, I remember when he wrote it, or when I found out he wrote it.
I had come home after a practise with the band and found Tai sitting on my bed, nothing strange about that but the look on his face told me he had done something.
" Tai…" I had said uneasy looking around my room when I noticed a towel hanging over my wall to my left, three feet from the window. " What did you do to my wall Tai?" I finally got out.
His smile grew. " Just thought I would label the room." And after he said that he jumped up and ran towards the window and stood by the towel, signalling for me to sit down.
" Gentlemen and Matt." Tai began, and I scowled, just because I was skinny Tai always made comments about me being feminine. " I would like to present you with the label for this room!" And then he tore down the towel, and before me I saw he had painted in red writing was the word Goth, and a happy face.
My mouth had gone slake; the only thought in my head was that I was going to kill Taichi Yagami. But what he did next made me forget that thought.
" And you know what?" Tai said moving closer,
" What?" I spat out through clenched teeth.
" I wouldn't want you to change for anything." As he said that he had sat in my lap, giving me a more then friendly hug. " Because you're my Yama." And he kissed me on the cheek. I still remember the bush that spread across my face, it was so hot it almost hurt.
With that said he stood up and stuck out his tongue at me. " And you are a Goth."
" And proud of it!" With that we laughed and went to the kitchen, Tai pleading with me to cook him something.
Times were good then, really good. Tai… He painted that on my wall two weeks before the incident.
Why had he even been drinking? Tai was not usually one to get drunk.
" Matt?" I heard Kari call from behind the door.
" It's open." I said simply.
The door swung open revealing all of the digi destined and there parents, all except Tai.
I must have been crying because the asked me to stop. I couldn't though, why weren't they all crying? TAI'S STILL GONE! But I kept my rants inside my head.
" Matt when was the last time you had something to eat?" Kari asked out of the blue. I looked down at my body; I had lost another 20 pounds almost since last year. The doctors told me I had to fatten up or I would die, but I didn't listen so twice a week I would go down there and get IV's Stuck in me, sometimes four times a week.
" Through IV's or actually eating?" I heard my dad question angrily.
" Oh Matt! Why are you doing this to you're self? My brother would not want this!" Kari said poking at my curved in stomach.
" You brother is not even here!" I yell pushing her away. " And I don't care about what he wants. He left TWICE don't you get it? He's a Bastard that deserves to be on the streets! You know what I hope some one has murdered his sorry ass; do all of us some good! No one needs him around! He's a murderer himself. I'm glad he's so far away."
Everyone's mouths dropped at that, even mine. Ken, Yolie, Cody and Davis just stood there while the rest clenched there fist looking royally pissed off, everyone other then Kari and T.K.
" Why would you even say something like that?" I hear Kari ask and my brothers eyes probing into me, but before I could answer Mrs. Yagami had rushed forward and slapped my across the face.
" How dare you!" She cried. " You really want him dead, well guess what Matt he could be! My baby could be dead. I thought that you cared about him, especially after last year. I have never seen someone so devastated as you. You said that you loved him…" She couldn't talk anymore as sobs racked her body.
I can only look blankly at them.
" Do you actually believe what you said? Do you even know what you said?" T.K Screams, I shake my head not really signalling anything. "You said; I don't care about what he wants. He left twice don't you get it? He's a Bastard that deserves to be on the streets! You know what I hope some one has murdered his sorry ass; do all of us some good! No one needs him around! He's a murderer himself. I'm glad he's so far away. Do you REALLY think that little of him?" My brother already knew the answer to that.
I start to sob harder then I ever had. I don't want anything to happen to Tai, I want him back home; I want to hold him tight. But we are here, and nothing can change that.
I could tell that T.K was about to say something else when we all heard a thud out side of my window. I jump off of my bed and run towards it, pulling the blinds open to see a bundle of Brown hair, spread out across my fire escape.
I hear Kari gasp as if something was wrong, but all I could think about was getting Tai inside, keeping Tai with me this time.
I climb out my window and run down the stairs to where he is. He must have knocked the wind out of himself, I reach down to grab onto his arm when he punches me in the face, lightly, but it's enough to stop me in my tracks.
(~ So far away ~)
Tai try's to stand but falls back down; he hit his head pretty good too.
" Tai stay there will get you inside." I say, trying to take his arm.
" I thought I deserved to be on the streets? That you would like it if some one killed my sorry ass, I thought you wanted me so far away, right?" He says glaring only hatred at me.
It all makes sense now. He heard what I said. Before I can say anything back though everyone else come down the fire escape and his dad with the help of Joey, T.K, and Daisuke all help him up into my bed room.
" Matt are you coming?" Kari asked me after everyone else had entered the room.
" He heard what I said Kari." I cry out covering my face with my hands. " He heard."
She sighed and laid a hand on my shoulder. " I thought he might have. But are you just going to stay out here? What if he leaves again? You need to tell him the truth." And with that she left.
I just sat there not ready to face him again.
Tai's Pov
(~ All of the struggle we thought was in Vain~)
I'm lying on Matt's bed, my family around me saying so many things; it is so hard to understand it all.
" Don't leave again Tai, please!" It was my mom. I looked at her, why didn't she want me to leave? I thought I was disowned.
" Why would you think that?" She shrieks. Damn I need to stop thinking out loud.
" I heard you and dad, I know I have no honour left in me. But I did try and help her, you have to know that!" I say looking down the whole time.
" Oh my god, we weren't talking about you! We were talking about what we heard over the news!" My dad said after a moment.
Realisation appeared on my moms face. " You thought we were talking about you? We know you tried to help her. Tai Your not disowned, we can bring out the papers to prove it!" My mom screams and flings her arms around me.
I smile. I still had honour, and my family. " So you still care about me?"
" Care about you! Ha, we love you more then you will ever know." I saw everyone nod his or her head. They all looked so happy, tears of joy falling down their faces.
"And were not letting you leave again, you got that?" It was Kari; she moved closer and sat beside me, waiting for mom to untangle her self from me before hugging me also. " He didn't mean any of it, he's missed you the most. He almost killed himself because you were not here. Don't leave please." Kari whispered in my ear, not letting anyone else hear the words she spoke.
I close my eyes tightly, he didn't I… he couldn't mean what he had said; that if I left he would kill himself.
" Do you know how much we looked for you? When finally we thought it was all in Vain so we stopped?" Izzy. He has changed though, grown about half a foot.
" You look different Izzy." I say trying to smile, but only succeeding in grinning.
" Two years can do that to you." He says sternly but his face is all smiles.
I rub the back of my neck not knowing what to say. " I deserve to be there." I finally chock out and the room falls silent.
" No you don't." Mimi.
" You need to be here with me, um… us." Sora, I shudder, she kept jumping between Matt and me before I left and it seemed that she was still going at it.
(~All the Mistakes~)
" Tai no you don't. And it's about time you realise that no one deserves to be on the streets." Ken.
I couldn't smile at him so I just nodded. Matt thought I did, no matter what Kari say's, I now knows what Matt thinks of me.
The room smells like him, and nothing looks like it has changed much, same old black. I look to the window and see that Goth-Happy face is still there. The only thing that is different is that there are more pictures around the room. I take a closer look and see that there all of me or of him and me.
" All of the pictures are of Matt and me." I say in disbelief.
" Of course." T.K replies looking around. " Your all that matters to him." He adds.
" I wish." I mutter. Then shiver, it has been so long since I have been around so many people, and I felt like running away but knew that I couldn't now that I knew that they did care about me. " I heard what he said." I say more clearly.
T.K's face knitted together in worry. " Matt didn't mean it you know?"
" That's what Kari said." I say with a grunt.
" We all make mistakes, and slip of the tongues, you should know that." Yolie.
" Trust me I know." I snap out. " I'm sorry Yolie." I say after a second.
" It's okay."
There was a noise from the window and everyone's attention turned to it. Matt was climbing into the room, his eyes down cast.
Now that I got a good look at him I noticed he had lost even more weight, about 20 pounds I would say. His cloths hung off him as if he was an anorexic. His face had sunken in some, and he looked like he was NOTHING but bones, a living stick. Even though he looked like this, to Tai, he was still too attractive for words.
" Matt… You look like a mess." I say finally break the uneasy silence.
" So do you." He replies with a smile.
All I can do is smile back. Matt's words keep running through my mind, but I try and push them away. Maybe we can start over.
" I see your still a Goth." I laugh at the end, a true laugh. Everyone else in the room drifted away, until it was just Matt and I.
" Yep, and proud of it." And then we both laugh a little, but his words still lye between us.
Then a thought came to my head, how was I going to get off the streets? I had to make some friends there to survive and I'm not sure if they want me to leave just yet…
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Done chapter 2
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