Every Wall has a Crack
Chapter 5
Fearless, but fearful
James woke up in a sweat. He looked around; he was on the common room couch. His watched beeped and he noticed it was Saturday. Jumping up quickly he ran to his bedroom to take a shower. He had to best day yesterday. Lily was back with the Marauders!! James couldn't whip the smile off of his face. He was in heaven. After he had his shower he got dressed and noticed all the Marauders were down at Breakfast.
Making his way over to the Gryffindor table and sat with Sirius, and Remus, Lily was no where in sight. 'I wonder where she could be.' James thought to himself, as he caught Remus' and Sirius' conversation. "It was good to see her smile again." Sirius smiled brightly remembering Lily face as she was spinning smiling in the rain. "I haven't seen her smile like that since the last time James kissed her." Remus nudged him. "Yeah but that was years ago, it's still good to see her smile again." James was beaming. "What's up with you Prongs?" Sirius looked at a crazed James. "She told me she's sorry, and she kissed me." James' eyes were now sparkling. "No she didn't James, she was down here earlier then she went outside by the lake. She never was in our dorm buddy. Sorry." Remus piped up. He'd been awake since three in the morning with Sirius planning there next prank on Snape; they left James to sleep because he was up stressing about Lily for almost the whole night. "Is she really, well then I have to go talk to her." James got up to leave when Sirius grabbed his arm. "Are you crazy, Prongs? Think about it! Lily hasn't talked to us in three years. THREE!" Sirius screamed holding up three fingers. James looked at him like he was crazy. "No you talked to her yesterday at breakfast, don't you remember Sirius? You and Remus were so jumpy to see her. Don't you remember?" James asked sadly looking at Sirius, who just put his head down. James didn't get an answer out of Sirius so he turned to Remus. "Remus? Remus, don't you remember?" James looked at Remus shaking his head 'No' with his face looking at his plate as though he didn't want James to know the truth. "How can you two not remember?! A girl, the most beautiful and the bestest girlfriend we have every had?! You don't remember Lily?" James looked at there faces. "James calm down, you were dreaming. It was all just a dream." Sirius spoke softly his joker image leaving him for a moment. James shook his head. "I'm going to see Lily." He got up and walked out of the great hall. "Should we follow him?" Remus asked. "No." Sirius said seriously. "He has to do this on his own."
James walked out side and looked to the lake. He saw Lily sitting there, with the sun shinning on her just right. He smiled as she looked like an Angel. He walked up to Lily and stood behind her. She didn't hear him coming as the wind swept in. She shivered and goose bums made there way up her bare arms. All she had on was a running suite. James quietly, not wanting Lily to know he was there he took off his cloak. He went up close behind her putting it around her shoulders saying. "I think it's time we had a talk Lils. It's been three years and I don't think my heart can take any more pain, and my eyes can't take anymore tears, my ears can't take anymore silence and my arms can't stay cold any longer." Lily knew who's voice it was, but she didn't turn around, she found that she couldn't. "Do you know how it feels to be fearless, to be afraid of nothing but what you can't have?" Lily asked James looking out onto the watery sunset. "Yes." James answered as he sat down beside her, but not to close. She still wouldn't look at him. "You." James said as he looked at her. She still kept her gaze on the water. "I keep running." Lily said sadly. "I've been running so long that I forget what I'm running from." Lily laughed at herself. James smiled. "Don't run from me Lils, of all things. Just don't run from me." James looked at the lake as Lily turned to him. "I run from you because you're the one I fear the most." Lily told him. James turned and there eyes met. "What is it about me that you fear?" James looked at Lily, sadly. 'I'm why she's running, and all this time I thought it was Joey dying.' James sighed as Lily begun to speak again. "I fear how you make me feel. I fear how that when I'm with you everything is okay, though the worlds falling apart. I fear your eyes. I fear your touch. I fear you smile. I fear you voice. I fear your hearing. I fear you. How you joke all the time. How you're serious sometimes. I fear how that when I'm near you I'm lost." Lily finished. James looked at her dumbfounded. "How can you be afraid of me so much?" James looked at her sadly. "I'm afraid of you because I love you."
~I'm sorry it took so long to get this up I've just been so buys. All the great movies that have come out lately are amazing and I've seen almost everyone. Thank-You for all the reviews I can't be happier that someone even read this story! Please Revie I love them!~
Kaydee
Chapter 5
Fearless, but fearful
James woke up in a sweat. He looked around; he was on the common room couch. His watched beeped and he noticed it was Saturday. Jumping up quickly he ran to his bedroom to take a shower. He had to best day yesterday. Lily was back with the Marauders!! James couldn't whip the smile off of his face. He was in heaven. After he had his shower he got dressed and noticed all the Marauders were down at Breakfast.
Making his way over to the Gryffindor table and sat with Sirius, and Remus, Lily was no where in sight. 'I wonder where she could be.' James thought to himself, as he caught Remus' and Sirius' conversation. "It was good to see her smile again." Sirius smiled brightly remembering Lily face as she was spinning smiling in the rain. "I haven't seen her smile like that since the last time James kissed her." Remus nudged him. "Yeah but that was years ago, it's still good to see her smile again." James was beaming. "What's up with you Prongs?" Sirius looked at a crazed James. "She told me she's sorry, and she kissed me." James' eyes were now sparkling. "No she didn't James, she was down here earlier then she went outside by the lake. She never was in our dorm buddy. Sorry." Remus piped up. He'd been awake since three in the morning with Sirius planning there next prank on Snape; they left James to sleep because he was up stressing about Lily for almost the whole night. "Is she really, well then I have to go talk to her." James got up to leave when Sirius grabbed his arm. "Are you crazy, Prongs? Think about it! Lily hasn't talked to us in three years. THREE!" Sirius screamed holding up three fingers. James looked at him like he was crazy. "No you talked to her yesterday at breakfast, don't you remember Sirius? You and Remus were so jumpy to see her. Don't you remember?" James asked sadly looking at Sirius, who just put his head down. James didn't get an answer out of Sirius so he turned to Remus. "Remus? Remus, don't you remember?" James looked at Remus shaking his head 'No' with his face looking at his plate as though he didn't want James to know the truth. "How can you two not remember?! A girl, the most beautiful and the bestest girlfriend we have every had?! You don't remember Lily?" James looked at there faces. "James calm down, you were dreaming. It was all just a dream." Sirius spoke softly his joker image leaving him for a moment. James shook his head. "I'm going to see Lily." He got up and walked out of the great hall. "Should we follow him?" Remus asked. "No." Sirius said seriously. "He has to do this on his own."
James walked out side and looked to the lake. He saw Lily sitting there, with the sun shinning on her just right. He smiled as she looked like an Angel. He walked up to Lily and stood behind her. She didn't hear him coming as the wind swept in. She shivered and goose bums made there way up her bare arms. All she had on was a running suite. James quietly, not wanting Lily to know he was there he took off his cloak. He went up close behind her putting it around her shoulders saying. "I think it's time we had a talk Lils. It's been three years and I don't think my heart can take any more pain, and my eyes can't take anymore tears, my ears can't take anymore silence and my arms can't stay cold any longer." Lily knew who's voice it was, but she didn't turn around, she found that she couldn't. "Do you know how it feels to be fearless, to be afraid of nothing but what you can't have?" Lily asked James looking out onto the watery sunset. "Yes." James answered as he sat down beside her, but not to close. She still wouldn't look at him. "You." James said as he looked at her. She still kept her gaze on the water. "I keep running." Lily said sadly. "I've been running so long that I forget what I'm running from." Lily laughed at herself. James smiled. "Don't run from me Lils, of all things. Just don't run from me." James looked at the lake as Lily turned to him. "I run from you because you're the one I fear the most." Lily told him. James turned and there eyes met. "What is it about me that you fear?" James looked at Lily, sadly. 'I'm why she's running, and all this time I thought it was Joey dying.' James sighed as Lily begun to speak again. "I fear how you make me feel. I fear how that when I'm with you everything is okay, though the worlds falling apart. I fear your eyes. I fear your touch. I fear you smile. I fear you voice. I fear your hearing. I fear you. How you joke all the time. How you're serious sometimes. I fear how that when I'm near you I'm lost." Lily finished. James looked at her dumbfounded. "How can you be afraid of me so much?" James looked at her sadly. "I'm afraid of you because I love you."
~I'm sorry it took so long to get this up I've just been so buys. All the great movies that have come out lately are amazing and I've seen almost everyone. Thank-You for all the reviews I can't be happier that someone even read this story! Please Revie I love them!~
Kaydee
