Chapter 10
They stood in silence inside Jackie's room, her leaning against the bureau,
him leaning against the wall. Jackie raised her eyebrows at Steven, not
speaking. Okay, Steven thought, this isn't going to be easy.
"Last night Jackie, I wanted you mad at me but I had a reason." Silence. "We've been sleeping together for over 2 months now and I know you want to do more."
"You don't?" Jackie asked sarcastically.
"No I do but, see, you don't know everything and-"
"Know what? What do I need to know? We've been dating for over a year and if I remember correctly you were trying to get me to have sex with you. Yeah, I remember that" Jackie said to the look on his expression. "What, you suddenly don't want me?"
"No, Jackie. Okay let me talk without you interrupting. Hey why didn't tell me you remembered that?" He looked at her taking a deep breathe before continuing, "Listen, before the accident you and I weren't together. We had broken up cause . . . because . . ." He couldn't finish the sentence. He didn't want to go through it again; he wanted to just continue on as if nothing had happened.
"Steven, why wouldn't we be together? What happened?" Now Jackie was worried. What if he didn't love her anymore? What if this had all been due to him feeling sorry for her? No, that couldn't be. She knew he loved her, he may not have said it but she knew, "You love me" Not realizing she had spoken that thought aloud.
"Jackie, I do love you. You have to believe me. What happened was a huge misunderstanding and then you wanted a summer to figure everything out. To not make a choice between me and Kelso but just spend your summer tanning. I respected that and stayed away but I never stopped loving you or wanting to be with you." Steven stopped and looked at her. He hadn't really been looking at her but at the top of her head. Now he looked directly in her eyes before saying more forcibly "I love you. Only you." God that sounded weird coming out of his mouth. He hadn't ever said it to anyone before except Jackie and the last time he said it, her response was "I don't love you" That hadn't encouraged him to say it again.
"I knew you loved me!!!!" She smiled up at him. That big smile when he said or did something which pleased her. Jackie felt her heart pound harder in her chest. He did love her!! She stared at him, he had finally said it. He loved her. Nothing else mattered. Maybe they hadn't been together but that was then and this was now. She wanted to be with Steven and he wanted to be with her. "I don't care Steven, about what happened before. Or why. Or how. I care about now and now we both want to be together. That's all that matters."
"But, I haven't told you everythi-" She stepped across the room to stand right in front of him.
"Shh," putting her finger on his lips, "It doesn't matter. What matters is now and here. And now and here we want to be together. To prove our love." Jackie stood up on her tip toes and kissed him. Long and deep, at first Steven stood there not really believing what was happening.
She still wanted to be with him? He hadn't even told her the whole story; he should stop her and tell her the whole story. He would right after this kiss. His arms some how were around her body and lifting her up. God, she felt good. Her arms wrapped around his neck and deepened the kiss. They stood there, just kissing until Jackie pulled her head back.
"Steven, I don't care what happened before," she whispered, "I want to be with you. Please." She looked up at him with love in her eyes and he was lost. If he only got one night then it was better then nothing. He put her down then walked over to the bed with her behind him holding his hand. He turned. "Are you sure?"
"Yes," pushing him down on the bed with her on top. "I love you Steven."
"I love you Jackie" he said as they began kissing again.
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Author's Note: Okay, next chapter is R rated. Just to warn everyone.
"Last night Jackie, I wanted you mad at me but I had a reason." Silence. "We've been sleeping together for over 2 months now and I know you want to do more."
"You don't?" Jackie asked sarcastically.
"No I do but, see, you don't know everything and-"
"Know what? What do I need to know? We've been dating for over a year and if I remember correctly you were trying to get me to have sex with you. Yeah, I remember that" Jackie said to the look on his expression. "What, you suddenly don't want me?"
"No, Jackie. Okay let me talk without you interrupting. Hey why didn't tell me you remembered that?" He looked at her taking a deep breathe before continuing, "Listen, before the accident you and I weren't together. We had broken up cause . . . because . . ." He couldn't finish the sentence. He didn't want to go through it again; he wanted to just continue on as if nothing had happened.
"Steven, why wouldn't we be together? What happened?" Now Jackie was worried. What if he didn't love her anymore? What if this had all been due to him feeling sorry for her? No, that couldn't be. She knew he loved her, he may not have said it but she knew, "You love me" Not realizing she had spoken that thought aloud.
"Jackie, I do love you. You have to believe me. What happened was a huge misunderstanding and then you wanted a summer to figure everything out. To not make a choice between me and Kelso but just spend your summer tanning. I respected that and stayed away but I never stopped loving you or wanting to be with you." Steven stopped and looked at her. He hadn't really been looking at her but at the top of her head. Now he looked directly in her eyes before saying more forcibly "I love you. Only you." God that sounded weird coming out of his mouth. He hadn't ever said it to anyone before except Jackie and the last time he said it, her response was "I don't love you" That hadn't encouraged him to say it again.
"I knew you loved me!!!!" She smiled up at him. That big smile when he said or did something which pleased her. Jackie felt her heart pound harder in her chest. He did love her!! She stared at him, he had finally said it. He loved her. Nothing else mattered. Maybe they hadn't been together but that was then and this was now. She wanted to be with Steven and he wanted to be with her. "I don't care Steven, about what happened before. Or why. Or how. I care about now and now we both want to be together. That's all that matters."
"But, I haven't told you everythi-" She stepped across the room to stand right in front of him.
"Shh," putting her finger on his lips, "It doesn't matter. What matters is now and here. And now and here we want to be together. To prove our love." Jackie stood up on her tip toes and kissed him. Long and deep, at first Steven stood there not really believing what was happening.
She still wanted to be with him? He hadn't even told her the whole story; he should stop her and tell her the whole story. He would right after this kiss. His arms some how were around her body and lifting her up. God, she felt good. Her arms wrapped around his neck and deepened the kiss. They stood there, just kissing until Jackie pulled her head back.
"Steven, I don't care what happened before," she whispered, "I want to be with you. Please." She looked up at him with love in her eyes and he was lost. If he only got one night then it was better then nothing. He put her down then walked over to the bed with her behind him holding his hand. He turned. "Are you sure?"
"Yes," pushing him down on the bed with her on top. "I love you Steven."
"I love you Jackie" he said as they began kissing again.
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Author's Note: Okay, next chapter is R rated. Just to warn everyone.
