Not sure where this is going but i always wanted to write a gravi fic so here it is. Sorry if this chpt isn't so good. *depressed* can't write that well like this. Next chpt will be longer. Plese r+r. hopefully i'll know where i'm going with this next time i update. Gods it took me so long to come up with this title. hee hee.

Disclaimer: i wish!

Pairings: TatsuhaxRyuichi, YukixShuichi, (maybe others mentioned later)

Warning: this fic contains yaoi, some mature themes, violence, and mild cursing.

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Kakaru

Prologue

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Drip drip drip.

I couldn't breathe. Everything had become blurry. I couldn't see anything. All I could do was feel and even that was to much. I could barely move. Everything hurt to much but I kept going.

Drip drip drip.

Just one more step and I would be there. Just one more step....

" He's over here!"
I could here the footsteps now. They were coming closer and closer. They would get me. I knew that without a doubt but still I walked.

Drip drip drip.

I wanted to see them again. I no longer knew who they were. Only that I wanted to see them no matter what. I had to or else I would have nothing left. Then I would truely be broken. But then maybe I already was.

Drip drip drip.

I felt a hand grab my shoulder and screamed silently. I had no voice left to speak with anymore never mind scream. They had taken it away from me so very very long ago. Picking me up the man started to carry me back. Struggling I pushed at him but it was no use. I was to weak to do anything now. They had made sure of that as well.

Drip drip drip.

I didn't want to go back. I had to see them again. They knew who I was. I needed to know who I was and why they were so important to me. Before I lose myself completely and no longer remember even them. I couldn't go back. I COULDN'T GO BACK!

Suddenly I felt something come out of me. My body felt so hot but so cold as well. What was going on? My back was the worse. It was as if something was trying to open up. Thats when I heard the screams.

Drip drip drip.

I felt the man drop me as he tried to run away. I could feel his fear and horror as if it was my own. Strangly enough when he let go I didn't fall. I did not have time to wonder about this though. Suddenly everything went black but the screams never went away.

When I woke up I was chained to the wall again. I had lost my only chance to excape. I would never be able to leave here again. I felt the people who I remembered but didn't remember start to disappear. Screaming silently I felt tears fall down my my face. They were taking them away from me now as well. Blinking I no longer knew who I was talking about. All I knew was that they had finally succeed. I no longer had a reason to live. All I had was them. There was nothing left now.

Drip drip drip.

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AN/ so there it is. Please tell me what you think. Oh and kakaru means something like 'to be trapped'. Ja.