Dear Dawn

I'm sitting in the kitchen writing this letter and I have no idea what to write, please don't shout at Xander when he gives this to you. He did this for me, I wanted you as far a way as I could get you from here before the battle with the first broke out.

You are my light the one thing which I have lived for ever since you entered my life even if that was only really two years ago, I have memories of you going back to day which you were born.

I remember it was so sunny the day that Mom and dad bought you back from the hospital with them, Aunty Lin had helped me to put on my best green dress and I was waiting in the lounge for hours for you tot arrive. When you come through the door in mom's arms the first thing I asked her was if I could help to take care of you and she said yes that I could always help to take care with you.

That's the reason I have got Xander to take you away from here, from me. I'm trying to keep a promise which I made so long ago.

I haven't always been the best sister I know this but I've tried Dawn really I have. things in our lives have been difficult and most of them have been my fault but I have tried to keep you safe no matter what.

You should be in LA now with Angel, he told me he would look after you when I asked if I could send you to him.

If I had one wish it would be that you could be here right next to me to hold my hand as I walked down into the hell mouth to know that I had you there, but I can't dawn that would be selfish if I did that because chances are I'm not going to make it though this battle, I can go on for hours to the potentials about how we will win and how all we need to do is concentrate on the task ahead, but if I'm honest I've surrended , this is one fight I know in my heart I will not survive but I know now that faith here that it won't be up to me whether we win or not.

The biggest responsibility I have is to you, I want you to live and be happy, go to college, get married, have children and remember me, remember the happy times we shared with Mom and Dad and Giles and Willow and Xander and Tara and the others, it's only through your memories which we will survive, so I'm begging you to do one thing and that is to remember us it is only through memories which we can survive if you forget us then we will be lost for ever in the sands of time.

I love you dawn with all my heart I died for you once to show that love, now I have got to fight for the world to save the millions of people out there who need me, but this time you don't need to worry about me Dawn I know I'll be happy I'll be somewhere where I can find peace and I'll be there waiting for you , and then we can be together til the end of time but I don't want to see you there for a long time, you are going to live until you are an old white haired women with hundreds of grandchildren who love you.

I love you Dawn I don't know how many times I've said it in this letter but each time I've meant it.

Be Brave and love, the thing which evil hates the most is love.

Love

Buffy