Why,
Do you human
Choose to stay by my side,
with me,
A half-breed.
In the eyes of all in my past
I'm hideous,
Worthless,
Emotionless,
I'm not,
But they didn't care.
And yet,
You stayed,
Stood by me,
Gave me hope
And
A reason to live.
Someday, because of you
More might understand me,
The real me.
I could be needed,
Wanted,
Maybe I could live a life,
With no hatred
Felt or received.
Where I could live peacefully,
Happily,
Loved.
And yet,
Why?
Why do you stand by me?
Choose to understand?
Why me?
I've felt needed,
Wanted,
loved before,
And I had eagerly accepted.
But it was all a lie.
A lie that left my heart wide open,
For any one to attack,
To use me.
I was betrayed,
By the one I loved most.
And the one I loved most,
Suffered as well.
I can't take that again.
And so,
Forgive me if I can't open up,
Can't show you my feelings,
For maybe,
If you see the true me,
The weakened part,
You too will hate me,
The fear holds me back,
If you love me now,
Would you love the me
That only I know?
No.
So, why?
Why do you persist?
You keep trying to peek inside,
And I throw you out each time.
For....
Inside I'm not healed yet,
From before.
If I gave in,
And gave you my heart,
And you refused,
And left,
The pain would kill me.
I can't take it again.
And yet,
Is love more important than death?
Is it worth a try
To open up,
Would you hate me?
Would you accept me for who I am?
No,
You wouldn't,
Couldn't,
Not yet.
Not ever.
So you might as well give up.
I'd give any thing
To love you,
To be loved by you,
But the doubt,
The memory,
The guilt,
Is unbearable.
I was born alone,
I shall die alone.
I was meant to be
Alone,
I am alone.
I'm sorry,
For us both.
Do you human
Choose to stay by my side,
with me,
A half-breed.
In the eyes of all in my past
I'm hideous,
Worthless,
Emotionless,
I'm not,
But they didn't care.
And yet,
You stayed,
Stood by me,
Gave me hope
And
A reason to live.
Someday, because of you
More might understand me,
The real me.
I could be needed,
Wanted,
Maybe I could live a life,
With no hatred
Felt or received.
Where I could live peacefully,
Happily,
Loved.
And yet,
Why?
Why do you stand by me?
Choose to understand?
Why me?
I've felt needed,
Wanted,
loved before,
And I had eagerly accepted.
But it was all a lie.
A lie that left my heart wide open,
For any one to attack,
To use me.
I was betrayed,
By the one I loved most.
And the one I loved most,
Suffered as well.
I can't take that again.
And so,
Forgive me if I can't open up,
Can't show you my feelings,
For maybe,
If you see the true me,
The weakened part,
You too will hate me,
The fear holds me back,
If you love me now,
Would you love the me
That only I know?
No.
So, why?
Why do you persist?
You keep trying to peek inside,
And I throw you out each time.
For....
Inside I'm not healed yet,
From before.
If I gave in,
And gave you my heart,
And you refused,
And left,
The pain would kill me.
I can't take it again.
And yet,
Is love more important than death?
Is it worth a try
To open up,
Would you hate me?
Would you accept me for who I am?
No,
You wouldn't,
Couldn't,
Not yet.
Not ever.
So you might as well give up.
I'd give any thing
To love you,
To be loved by you,
But the doubt,
The memory,
The guilt,
Is unbearable.
I was born alone,
I shall die alone.
I was meant to be
Alone,
I am alone.
I'm sorry,
For us both.
