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Confessions of Love
Point of view: Kurama

A soft breeze floats through my room and blows a garnet piece of hair into my face. I brush it away with a sweep of my hand and focus back on the task, my homework. I look down at the scattered pieces of paper and my textbook and turn its page. Anatomy of a wave is the section header. I stare at it for a few moments before realizing I am in the wrong chapter. I swiftly turn it to the correct page and pick up my pencil; I promptly put it back down and gaze out the window.

The tree outside my window sways in the wind as its branches dance. The dark gray clouds saunter along in the sky, not bothering to hurry. They would unleash their torment upon us soon enough, it was what they wanted after all. To pour on us and shut us in, keep us away from others.

I was already away from others. I kept myself secluded, too preoccupied to think about socializing. My thoughts were always filled with one thing and no matter how hard I tried to focus on something else they always drifted back towards it, towards him, to Hiei.

I let a sigh escape my mouth and I put my homework away. Perhaps I would try it again later, after I have thought about what I need to. I get up and walk towards the window, the cushions in my window box need rearranging so I move them around a bit. I am just stalling, I think to myself. I do not want to think about him. I finally sit down and look out the open window.

The sun set hours ago and the moon has started its ascent to the sky. It was full tonight, same as it had been the last time he appeared here, the last time I saw him. The sky had been the same dark gray, the moon only visible through the spaces between clouds. I stare at them a bit, just blankly staring at them. They remind me of him a bit. I do not know why but they do, so I drop my gaze to the street. Just cold pavement, it reminds me of him too. He is a curse, something I cannot get rid of, but I would not want to anyway. He means too much to me. My heart grows heavy as I realize I may never see him again. He has no reason to come back. We are friends yes, but he does not have to come visit me. He can just wait around the makai until I die in this form and revert to my demon form. It would only be another 70-80 years at the most. Not that long, for him. For me that seems to be an eternity.

My heartaches some more and I decide to go lie down. Maybe some sleep will help me. If not, I could use some anyway; I have not been sleeping well lately. I get up from my seat at the window and cross the room to the closet. I pull out a pair of sweatpants and change into them. They are much more comfortable then the school uniform I have been wearing since 7:30 this morning. It is now 9:47 pm. I lie on the bed not bothering to cover myself with any blankets. I turn to my left and start to drift off into the world of slumber.

I sense a familiar energy, it couldn't be! He wouldn't come back would he? He had no reason for returning to the ningenkai. A small part of my heart tells me that maybe I am the reason he came back. I believe they call it wishful thinking. I sit up and there he is. Sitting on my windowsill, half in half out, as if he cannot decide whether he wants to come in or not. I give him a warm smile and my emerald eyes begin to glow. His face is the same as always, child like and void of all emotion except dislike.

"Hiei, what a surprise". I keep my voice low so Kaasan will not hear me. "A good or bad one Kurama" He has his trademark smirk on his face, his crimson eyes meeting my green ones. "A good one as always" "Hn" "What brings you here Hiei? It is rare for you to be in the ningenkai, I know how much you hate it" I ask this probing question hoping he answers me. He has no reason to; it is none of my business after all. "Hn. Why does it concern you why I returned?" His answer was quick as if he gave it no thought or as if he was hiding something "It doesn't, I am sorry for asking. So how have you been?" I hurried my response to hide my embarrassment for his outburst "Hn. I have been fine" "That's good. I am glad you are ok" "You are, why?" he gave me a slightly different look then. His eyes they, they seemed slightly suspicious of me then. "You are my friend, I worry about friends. Is there something wrong with that?" I hoped this answer would stop any further questions he might ask about why I was so concerned "I guess not"

An awkward silence fills the space between us. What am I to do now, what do I say? Should I tell him now or wait for a better moment. The Youko part of me was urging me to tell him now, get it over with, but the Shuuichi aspect told me to wait for a better moment. Why do I always listen to the Youko? I cannot believe what I am about to do.

"Hiei" "Yes Kurama" "I have something to tell you, it's very important" "Go on with it" "I.I.I Love you" There I said it; hopefully the worst was over.

Silence, not a sound emerges from those ruby lips of his. How I wish he would say something, anything at all. He could tell me he hates me for all I care, any words would be better then this silence. Any words at all. His face looks shocked, as mine looks serious. Say something please.

"I don't know what to say" "I do, I am sorry. I have troubled you greatly with my declaration. I am truly sorry" I am sorry. Sorry, that he does not love me back. If he does not leave soon, I will have to cry in front of him, something I do not want to do. I fear if he says something negative in the next minute I will cry, if he doesn't leave I will cry, Why must I feel this urge to cry now, can't it wait till he's gone, back in Makai? "Don't cry Kitsune" "How did you.you read my mind didn't you?" If he had truly read my mind, why hadn't he done it earlier, to see how I felt, why did he chose now? "Yes I read your mind, and I did earlier. Your thoughts just didn't make sense to me" "Oh. well, now you know. Are you going to leave me and go back to the makai now?" I got no response. "Well, before you do, here"

I had been standing next to the window talking to him and I now leaned into him. My lips brush his and my heart races. Why am I doing this? What I said was bad enough but now I am going to kiss him? I have truly lost my sense in the time I have been locked in this human body. Of course, I have never known of a love like this, I have never known love before. As a Youko I only had one-night stands, maybe they lasted a few months but it was not love that kept me with that person. I was after other things. I find it funny how things have changed. I need Hiei around me so I can live; I am not after sex or drugs. I am after him. I love him there is no denying it. I think about all these things as I kiss him. I slowly increase the pressure so that our lips are not brushing against each other as they were. I press his small ruby lips against mine as I drink him from them. I drink him through them, and to my surprise he does not run, he does not shudder away from me disgusted, he does nothing. He lets me kiss him, lets me drink him. I feel my cheeks blush gently as I pull away. The look on his face, what look? He has none at this time. None at all. I apologize again before turning away. I stare at the bed for a second before I walk back to my closed books and numerous assignments. I sit at the desk and stare at all my papers. Unable to work. He still has not moved. I stare at the books a few seconds longer before I feel his energy start moving. I draw in a breath as I feel it move away. I knew he would leave. I am not a telepath like him, but I knew it, and I did not even have to read his mind.