**~~**~~ Still don't own Yu Yu Hakusho but I'm working on it. My muse is still here and will not be leaving any time soon. I have got him wrapped around my little finger. "Stupid ningen". And as you can see, that is all the insults I get now. Look who's good. Oh by the way. Flashbacks are in italics from now on. Ok? Ok. Good. ~~**~~**

Thoughts of Him
Point of View: Kurama

A soft wind floats through the room and tickles my nose. I scratch it and come to the realization I fell asleep. I sit straight up and rub the sleep out of my eyes. He is gone. No note saying where he went, nothing at all.

I can still smell his scent on the sheets. He smells sweet, like a pine tree. He loved to hide in those but he also smelled like fresh rain. That could be because before he came into my room 2 nights ago he had been in a rainstorm. The two smells combined smelled heavenly to me because only he smelled like that.

I breathe in in deeply and inhale his scent before stepping of the side of the bed to get ready for school. I had slept all night and it was now 7:00 on the dot, perfect timing for me. I grab a clean uniform and a towel and once again step into the bathroom to take a quick shower before leaving for school.

I turn on the water, undress, lather up quickly, and rinse off. All the while thinking of how much I am missing him already. I do not know how long he has been gone but he did not leave just before I woke up. The bed next to me where he would have been was cold as if no one had been there. If he had spent the night here, it would have been warm, if not hot from his body heat.

A tear escapes my eye and I wonder why I am crying as I dry off. It is not as if I will never see him again. He will come back eventually or I can go find him. Either way I will see him so there is no need for me to be crying. I brush the tear away with the towel, slip my uniform on and head for the kitchen. I cannot help but think back to before we got together. Before everything was exposed and out there.

"Are you ok Kitsune?" "Yes. I will be fine" "You took a beating today. You need to rest and be prepared for tomorrow. I wouldn't want any team member of value to die" "Hmm. So now I'm an asset?" "More so then the oaf we are stuck with" "Kuwabara has talent. He just doesn't realize it or know how to use his powers" "Say what you want about him. I still think he's a fool"

His way of ending a conversation was to just run off in a blur, leaving it with his words, making it final. He just did that to me. Left me there in the hallway left me with nothing. It had not been the first time and it would not be the last I am afraid.

He never knew how much I hated it when he left me. I still hate it. He does not know how much I worry about him when he leaves. How much I want to be there and protect him so he does not get hurt. I hate to see him hurt. He comes by whenever he gets hurt badly and wants me to heal him. I heal him because I love him and always use the best medicine I have and the strongest spells I know even if they waste my energy. It is helping him after all and I want him to be healthy and happy even if I am not.

I often contemplate why he always leaves me. Do I scare him? Does he not want to be around me? Plenty of things run through my head whenever he leaves. My mother is beginning to stare at me with an odd look on her face so I smile at her, give her a hug, and mention that I will buy breakfast at school. She smiles at me and ushers me out the door saying I will be late.

That was a close one; I had been staring while I was thinking and mumbling it aloud too. If she ever heard those things, if *anyone* ever heard them I would be mortified. I walk slowly to school and meet up with my followers again before sensing his energy.

My senses tell me he is in the tree to the right so I look up. Sure enough there he is, staring down at me, watching me protectively as I walk to school. The girls that surround me look at me and talk to me, asking if I would like to go with them after school to get some food or if I would like to go with them to see a movie. I politely turn them down saying I have to take care of something after school. It is the truth, I have to take care of my favorite little fire demon. My little Hiei.