**~~**~~ Ok. As said in previous chapters, I do not own Yu Yu Hakusho although I wish I did. If I did, I would be a millionaire and I would be the happiest person in the world. In reality, I am neither and am quite far from both. My muse is starting to enjoy his stay here because I sneak him Sweet snow every night. Parents beginning to wonder why I lock my door and why the ice cream is all gone. *Hiei smiles nicely* No More Sweet Snow Hiei! You had enough! *Hiei frowns* Aww, do not frown baby. Please be happy. Now I have to find some sweet snow. Damn. I think we are out. Ahhh no put the katana away! Ok. On with the story. Ahhh! ~~**~~**

Thinking of You
Point Of View: Kurama

It pains me to have to do this. I really do not want to, but I have to. I need time to think and if he is out of bed, he will be a distraction. I cannot just leave him on the bed like that, but I have nowhere else to put him. Maybe if I pretend to be sick, Kaasan will let me stay home then it will not be suspicious. I slowly walk downstairs, see her cooking breakfast, and put on my sick face. I cough quietly and she looks at me curiously.

"Are you ok Shuuichi?" "I don't feel well mother" "Drink some tea and go on up to bed. You stay home today" "But" "No buts. Go to bed" "Yes mother"

It worked. She fell for it perfectly. I wander upstairs and go in my room. I lock the door and lie down next to Hiei. In sleep, he looks like a child, a small angel. He is very different when awake. Very different. I change my clothes and do what he does every time he comes to my home. I sit on the window with one leg in and one perched on the windowsill. I look out at the street below and then at the sky.

Thinking is my strong point but at this time, I do not want to think. I want to avoid my problems and just pretend as if they do not exist but he will find them. He is a telepath much to my dislike. The fact that he can read my mind and know everything. I try to hide it from him but he sees it, I even try to hide it from myself. It never works. Thoughts I hide always find a way to be found, and it usually happens when I am alone, in a quiet area where there is nothing to entertain me.

My mother opens the door and walks out towards the car, ready to go to work. I watch over protectively from my window knowing she will not look up at me. I walk away and sit by him on the bed. I need to think about him. Yeah, him.

Surprising as it is, he occupies my scariest thoughts. The ones that send shivers down my spine. The only other person to ever do that is dead. And he gave me shivers of fear. Hiei does the same thing I'm sad to say.

He knows I am a Youko, I have never been committed to anyone but he loves me. I cannot figure it out, I cannot figure him out. However, I am sure if I asked him I would get his robotic response. Hn, stupid Kitsune. I know I shouldn't worry about it but I do. You see, I have always been the one to end relationships I have never had anyone dump me. It would be so new, it is something I do not want to experience, and I know he will eventually tire of me.

I sigh again and just stare out the window removing all thoughts from my mind. I do not know how long I was sitting there but he woke up soon. First he moved a little which caught my attention. I then stare at him eyes wide open, thinking this is going to be the moment, why was I so stupid as to put him to sleep? He looks at me and sits up head in hands. I just stare.

"What happened?"

I can't even speak. I can't think. I do not know what to say. Do I say, I was thinking about you, about us, please don't dispose of me, I am not used to it?

" I am not going to dispose of you Kitsune"

Damn, I forgot he's a telepath. If you can read this Hiei it says stop reading my mind!

" Fine. I'll stop"

And once again I am left by myself, am I destined to spend the rest of my life alone? I cannot commit to a relationship, the one I commit to just left. And perhaps it was for good.