To all german (and especially austrian) readers:
Yoah, österreicherin, und stolz drauf. *g* Nicht ganz aus tirol, aber schon fast: Vorarlberg. ;-)
I can't really believe that some people think my story is good at all, because my friend told me I had a really big problem with times [I knew about that, though, I HATE them!] and stuff. Damn, I think I should look in my english-book, shouldn't I?
And about those girlfriend things: Do you think Snape isn't able to love two people?
anyway, I'm determined to make him happy.
i'm bored, so i decided to thank all those who reviewed:
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I can't believe so many people reviewed. I love you all!
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"Who is not serious?", Draco asked his favorite professor.
"You're awake? How are you?"
"You're ignoring my question, what's up? Who isn't serious about what?"
"Nothing. I just thought aloud. Do you feel better now?"
"Yes, I do. What were you thinking about?"
"As far as I know I don't have to tell you that, so let it drop. I'm going to ask Dumbledore for a new room for you, so you don't have to go back to Slytherin. I'm afraid that's the only thing I can do for you, between the lessons you have to deal with them yourself."
"Thank you, Professor."
"You're welcome. Now what you need is rest, so don't leave the hospital wing, I'll return tomorrow before classes, until then you don't do anything, right?"
"And my school stuff?"
"I'll get it to you."
"Ok."
Draco was far to tired to disagree, so he just accepted it and let him go. At least he had now time to think. And that was something he really needed to do.
knock, knock [knocking on heavens door… *singing*]
"Enter. Ah, good evening Severus. Isn't it a bit late for a talk?"
"Yes, I'm sorry, Albus. But you have to give me a room separate from the Slytherin dungeons."
"For whom?"
'The old man is joking, isn't he?', Snape thought angrily.
"For Draco Malfoy. The Slytherins give him a hard time…"
"Do you know that if they find out that you saved him, they'll be angry at you too?"
"Yeah, I know that."
"What if some of them tell their parents? And if their parents are unfortunately Death Eaters, you'll have problems."
"Albus, don't you think I'm aware of that? I let them do those things the hole year long!"
"I know." The old man sighed. Of course he also wanted to safe Draco, but wasn't it a bit obvious? He didn't want to get Severus in problems, but he couldn't let Draco in pain either.
After a long silence of thinking, Dumbledore spoke again: "I'll get him a room for himself, it's between the Hufflepuff and the Gryffindor-tower. As far away from the dungeons as possible. But whats with the classes? You know, we will never be able to save him the hole day long. And Slytherins are clever. They'll find a way to torture him."
"I know. But if it will help just a little bit… You know, today-"
"-I know it. Poppy has told me. You're in real sorrow about the boy, aren't you?"
"I just want him to know that I care about him."
Dumbledore nodded.
"Come with me, I'll show you his room."
He stood up and walked out of his office, followed by Snape.
Severus just wanted to lie down in his bed. It has to be already 2 o'clock in the morning, and he was so tired of screaming and worrying and walking through Hogwarts, looking at the new room for Draco.
He just needed to sleep right now. But at that moment when he wanted to leave his office, he could hear someone knock on the door.
'Who would visit me at this time?', he wondered while he went to the door to open.
The person who stood in front of him was…
"Granger." Snape moaned. 'Does this girl now what time it is?'
"No, I won't go away and sleep so don't say that right now. You owe me some answers."
"No, I don't owe you anything." Snape snarled.
"If you want me to stay away from Draco you do."
"Accept it. You're not the right one for him. And now stop thinking about it and run to Potter."
"Yeah, that's exactly what I mean. Potter."
Snape looked at her questionably.
"Can I come in and sit down? I'm afraid this will take longer."
Snape rolled her eyes, but as she was in here already, it doesn't matter.
"So. What do you have to say to Potter, Granger? Have you thought about it? Wasn't I right?"
"No, you weren't. You are as old as Harry's father, aren't you?"
Again, Snape was bewildered about that girl.
'What has this to do with James Potter?', he thought, but answered himself.
/It has a lot to do with him, and you know it./
"Yes."
"Did you like Lily Potter?"
Snape's pulse run through his veins fast. What did she know?
"First, Granger, in the times when we were in school, it was Lily Evans, and not Potter. Second, I think this are not the questions a sixteen year old student asks his teacher. I'm not about to answer this."
"Ok, it's Lily Evans to you," Hermioe said, completely ignoring the second sentence.
"Granger, what do you want?! Come to the point, I'm tired!"
"I want to know why you compare Harry to James!"
"Am I?"
"Yes, you do! Of course you do! You hated James, and you hated the other marauderers! And now you hate James son, because James is dead! Maybe Harry makes some mistakes, but you don't hate him because of them! You hate him because he's James Potters son, and that is not fair!"
"What do you silly girl know what's fair, huh? D'you think it was fair, four against one? Do you think it was fair, giving someone a hard time because he exists? He's breathing? Do you think it was fair, always being compared to this gorgeous people? Do you think it is fair to hear the sentence: 'You have to be better than Potter' at every time from your parents? Was it fair, that he could make every mistake and they would see over it, but dare me, if I fail… I fucking do not care what's fair and what's not!!"
Before Severus realized that he bared his hole terrible youth to this girl in front of him, the words just left his mouth.
Hermione was shocked. She wasn't used to Snape telling her anything of him.
When she found her words again, she was very careful, because she didn't want him to freak out.
"But Harry is not like his father."
"Of course he is. You have seen them plenty of times, hexing Draco, making fun of him. Was there any reason of doing this? He hasn't done anything to them. He doesn't earn this."
"He provoked him plenty of times!"
"Haven't they noticed that he has changed? Haven't they noticed that he isn't the same anymore? Can't they forgive him?"
"But-"
"See? You're still on their side! You still defence them!"
"Of course I do! They're my friends!"
"And that's why you can't love a Malfoy. Have you ever thought about that?"
"They could forgive him, if they only know…"
"Know what? That Draco's a traitor to the dark lord? What do you think will that change?"
"They would understand it…"
"No. They wouldn't."
"Why are you so sure? You don't know them!"
"Of course I do! Remember when they found out that I'm a member of the order? Now tell me, did that change anything? No. It didn't. Draco is still a Malfoy, and they won't forgive him easily. And James was just exactly the same prat. Don't you dare tell me I don't know him! Maybe James stopped the torturing, but he still hated me! What do you think, if he ever found out about Lily…"
That was just too much.
'Severus Snape, stop telling Granger your hole life-story!'
"Lily what? Now that you've told me this, it doesn't matter, one word more or less…"
"Granger, you don't understand this. Your young, and foolish, you just forget about tonight, or I'll make sure you do."
"Really. As if I wouldn't know what you were about to say."
"So?", he eyed her carefully.
"Yes. You loved Lily, but just because you were afraid that she would take sides with James you didn't tell her, or did you?"
"Right I was, wasn't I? She married him, produced this fantastic child, Harry! Oh, how the hole wizard world were totally fascinated by this cute little family. Of course I knew that she would chose him over me. Do you think I would go up to her and tell her about me being in love with her? I think she wouldn't have believed me."
"You never know. But now it's too late, and you know that. But why don't you give us a chance?"
"Because I don't want to be hurt!"
'He? Who's talking about him?'
"You know, this isn't about you. This is about Draco," Hermione said coolly, causing Snape to laugh.
"It isn't. Don't you see that there is no difference between now and then?"
"There is a difference. I'm not Lily Evans. And I'm not going to marry a Potter."
With that, Hermione stood up, turned around and was out of the door.
'What if I had told Lily? Would she chose me above another? No, sure not. Don't be stupid, Severus, who would chose a life like yours?'
