Name: Letter to You

Disclaimers: The characters don't belong to me… or I wouldn't have massive school loans… The song 'My Immortal' belongs to Evanescence

Feedback: I would appreciate it. b_marangoni@yahoo.com

Rating: PG

Keywords: Daniel/Sam

Spoilers: Everything up to and including the first part of Season 7…

Acknowledgements: Thanks to Tina, Jen, and Allison who helped me.. and Tina who is my beta…

~*Letter to You*~

"That was one hell of a mission." Daniel said to himself as he walked into his office. He gathered a few things to start writing the mission report and headed to his quarters.



He walked in and dumped the stuff on his desk and went to jump in the shower when a white envelope that was sitting on his bed caught his attention. He noticed the hand writing right away as Sam's. It was addressed to him and he immediately started to wonder why she wrote a letter to him when they see each other every day. He then saw that there was a CD attached to it. He opened the letter and started reading.

Dear Daniel,

I'm writing this because I know that you need to have reassurance about your place on SG-1 and with the SGC. By now I know that you remember everything that happened before you ascended including the thoughts you were having right before, like thinking that you don't belong here anymore. I want you to know how I feel about you now and before I met you.



I remember the day that I heard about the mysterious Dr. Daniel Jackson, archeologist, figured out how to open the doorway to heaven, or Stargate. I was excited to hear about it, considering I've been working on the project two years before Catherine asked for your help. But I was also mad, not at you though, at General West for not letting me come and go through the 'gate on the first mission to Abydos.

When I first read the mission report, the horror and excitement that was going though my head was overwhelming. You fought against these warriors even though at the time, you weren't trained too. How you died and were revived, then how you stayed on Abydos with Shar'e even when everyone else came back.

Sometimes while my team and I were working on different addresses, I would go outside and sit and look at the stars and think about you, how brave you were for doing what you did, and how I wanted to meet you someday. I wanted to talk to the person who opened the opportunity of a lifetime.

When the day came that I learned about my transfer to the SGC and my mission to go back to Abydos, the first thing I did was look up more information on you. I learned about your parents and how Nick wouldn't adopt you. How you started college early and put yourself into your studies and work. I read the articles about your thoughts on how the pyramids were built by aliens for spaceship landing. I learned that you were shunned from the academic community because of your theories and I wished that you could tell them that you were right all a long.

I remember what I was feeling while waiting to go through the 'gate. How I was so excited to go through, but also I badly I wanted to meet you, talk to you. I know that the first thing that got my attention when we came through was the DHD, but I was on a science high that day, and I know that you understand that. One thought that crossed my mind that day was how easily I could fall in love with you, but that was pushed to the last part of my mind when your wife was taken.

I am glad that I met you, and glad that you have become my best friend. I don't know what I've would of done this past 6 years without you and I can't think of what my life would be like without you. You helped in so many ways that I can't even start to explain. I know that you probably think that you don't mean anything to us, but that's not true. I know that we don't say it enough, but I'm going to tell you: You mean everything to me. You are my best friend, confidant, soul mate; and somewhere along the line I fell in love with you. I didn't mean to, I don't know why i'm telling you, and I don't care if you don't feel the same way, but I had to tell you. It has been killing me everyday since you ascended that I didn't tell you how I feel. So, now you know. It was hell while you were gone, I don't know how I got through each day but I did.

Enclosed is a CD with a song on it that explains how I felt. The song is called My Immortal by a band called Evanescence. I wanted you to hear it; the lyrics are in here too.

Love,

Sam

Daniel put the letter down, and picked up the other piece of paper that had the lyrics. He went over to his CD player, put the CD in and pressed play. He sat down with the paper as the strains of a piano came through the speakers.

My Immortal

I'm so tired of being here

supressed by all my childish fears

and if you have to leave

I wish that you would just leave

'cause your presence still lingers here

and it won't leave me alone

these wounds won't seem to heal

this pain is just too real

there's just too much that time cannot erase

when you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears

when you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears

and I held your hand through all of these years

but you still have me

all of me

you used to captivate me

by your resonating light

now I'm bound by the life you've left behind

your face it hurts

my once pleasant dreams

your voice it chased away

all the sanity in me

these wounds won't seem to heal

this pain is just too real

there's just too much that time cannot erase

when you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears

when you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears

and I held your hand through all of these years

but you still have me

all of me

I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone

but though you're still with me

I've been alone all along...

when you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears

when you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears

and I held your hand through all of these years

but you still have me

all of me