CHAPTER FIFTEEN: Draco's Journal

Friday, 10-25-2002

Dear Journal,

I hate Potter. Today I ran into him and his little friends and they hexed me with a bunch of spells and I spent the whole day listening to Madam Pomfrey lecture me on why I should work hard to do spells right. She refuses to believe that this was not an accident, but intentional, by that scumbag scar-face. I will get him back somehow.

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Saturday, 10-26-2002

Dear Journal,

This can't be happening, this can't be happening! I was about to get Scar-face and his friends back in the library today when that dimwit Neville called out a spell that has made me and my worst enemies pregnant! At first I was completely happy when I found out that the three would be stuck raising babies by themselves. However it turns out I was hit by the spell also. Of all the stupid, dumb... Neville is now at top of my list. Potter and his goons have it coming now that they're pregnant. I wanted to get rid of the baby now growing inside of me but the mudblood forbids it. Says she will take the baby, so that I won't have to take care of it. Stupid mudblood. Doesn't she know she is having a baby also? Like I care. I don't want a mudblood taking care of a Malfoy anyway. So Scar face has decided to take it. I'm not too happy about any of them raising a Malfoy, but I'm not taking care of it. No way, no how. I can't believe I even agreed to have it in the first place, I must have lost my mind.

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Tuesday, 10-30-2002

Dear Journal,

Today I did the unthinkable; I announced that I would no longer be on the team. Now I thought that my teammates would want to disown me, but, apparently like the Gryffindor team, they made me assistant Captain and I will be Captain next year. Maybe this is not so bad after all...no wait, it is.

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Monday, 12-16-2002

Dear Journal,

Well I am two months pregnant. The baby is perfectly healthy, not that I care...much. I don't know it's weird, maybe it's the pregnancy doing it to me, I don't know, but I am starting to regret telling Potter that he can have the baby. Of course, I'm not raising a child! I plan to join the dark lord when I finish school. I can't raise a child. I don't want to either. My family would kill me if they found out I was pregnant. They will never know if I have anything to do with it. Lucky for me I have not had any mood swings or morning sickness yet, so I can go home for Christmas. Madam Pomfrey has given me the all clear, so I need to pack my things. Crabbe and Goyle are too stupid to notice I go to the hospital wing every day for check ups. I doubt they will ever figure it out. Potter, Granger, and Weasley seem to be getting along famously. I try to steer clear of them, but find it hard when we have the same classes and are in the same situation. This is all their fault! I hate them!

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Wednesday, 3-15-2003

Dear Journal,

Potter's baby moved a couple of weeks ago and today mine did too for the first time only ten minutes ago. Apparently, we are high-risk pregnancies and Madam Pomfrey was surprised when she found that all our babies are perfectly healthy. Good grief woman. I have had to spend more and more time with the infamous trio, something that is actually not SO bad...wait did I just write that?!? If someone ever found out I wrote that I'd never live it down. Need to put extra spells on this journal now. Anyways every time something happens to one of them, all four of us are sent to the Hospital wing. Gets me out of lessons, something I never mind. Well I am now halfway through this pregnancy; I can't wait for it to end.

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Friday, 5-9-2003

Dear Journal,

School ended today, I wonder what kind of scores I got on my OWLS, and I don't think I did to well. I have had a lot on my mind and have not studied nearly enough. Even though I am taking the horrible potions Madam Pomfrey gives to me, the baby has still made my stomach pop out quite a bit then I would like. And apparently it will only get bigger because the baby girl in me still has quite a bit of growing to do. Great. I have been having weird feelings emotions wise. I think this stupid pregnancy has made me a little soft. I no longer hate Potter and his friends but I don't like them either. Also the more pregnant I get the more I want to keep the baby. Even though I want to, so bad, and I would if I could, but my parents, my life...no. I HATE THIS! Okay, I am staying almost all summer here at Hogwarts. Told my parents that I had a big project going on, and had the schools permission to stay behind and work on the project until it was done with fellow students. I didn't dare say with whom. My father hates Potter more then I did at my peak. Dumbledore of course sent a letter with mine saying that I have his permission, and, after much debating, my not to happy parents relented and stated I better get a good grade. So Snape has me working on a long potion just so that I am not lying in saying that I am working on a project.

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Thursday, 7-31-2003

Dear Journal,

It's over. Today I finally had a baby girl. 7 1/2 pounds and 3 oz. When I held her in my arms, it was, and probably will be, the hardest moment of my life. Giving her up...I actually almost let a tear fall. Finally getting to hold the baby I had carried in my stomach for so long, well, it was indescribable. Harry didn't say anything; he looked like he wanted to encourage me to hold her. I was a bit mad when I realized that she would have Harry's last name. My daughter is now a Potter. It's like a nightmare come true. Though I really don't dislike Harry and his friends anymore. Though were not friends, by any means. Harry will take good care of Lily Guinevere Potter, who will always be a Malfoy at heart. Harry himself had a boy named Daniel James Potter. Hermione had of all things twins! And she wanted to take care of mine. Hermione named hers Julie Elizabeth Granger, and Soroush Ambros Granger. What kind of a name is that for a poor child? Oh well, Ron had a boy who he named John Alfred Weasley. All perfectly healthy children. Harry held Lily like his own, much to my relief. I really want her to be happy. Madam Pomfrey has given me enough potion to hide the way I look until I come back to school, because I am still slightly large even without the baby in me. I am never going to get my six-pack back. I can see it now. GRR

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Monday, 9-1-2003

Dear Journal,

Well, life back home was uneventful, I had a lot of time on my hands to just sit and think about what I had given up, and, despite telling myself all the negatives of raising a child I still wish I had her. I could not help but wonder if Potter is taking good enough care of her. Then I would remember how he held her the day of their birth and I know she is happy. I have also realized, and my father is going to kill me the minute he finds out, but I don't want to become a death eater anymore. I want to get married and have children I can keep...the normal way. No way am I getting pregnant again. Not happening...ever. Though looking back on it, it was not that bad, I guess. I saw Lily for the first time tonight when Harry, Hermione and Ron brought them into the great hall. Everyone seems to believe the story we told them about me only having the symptoms of being pregnant. Lily is defiantly being well cared for, though I have no clue how the trio is going to take care of the children and do everything else at the same time. I am Quidditch team Captain, and need to plan try-outs. Got to do things to get my mind off Lily.

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Saturday, 1-10-2004

Dear Journal,

Today was our first Quidditch game against Gryffindor; we had played one other game against Ravenclaw a few months earlier and won. We did not win today however, but that was my fault. I got wrapped up in thinking and talking about Lily, that I completely forgot to look for the snitch. Harry of course did not, and got it a split second before I did, doing one of his famous dangerous dives. Harry has been really nice to me since school started again, but I had yet to see Lily since the night of the great feast until today. All attempts to not think about her have been shot; she is still all I think about. Harry let me hold her today and told me that I could see her anytime I wanted. I could not believe it. Maybe someday, Harry and I could become friends. Can you believe I am saying this? AHHH! A year ago I would have said I have lost my mind, but a lot has changed in a year. At this time last year I was only two months pregnant too. Incredible, huh? Lily has gotten so big, she is five months old, and has a beautiful smile. She has blond and white highlights in her brown hair. Harry tells me that she and all the other very happy looking babies have all of our genes in them. That would explain why she has Harry's green eyes, as does Daniel, and Julie. I plan on seeing her a lot more now. I am looking forward to it.

-Draco Malfoy