Boku

This is my first fan fiction so when you review. please be gentle. Takes place directly after the series. Vash carried Knives back to town and brought him to a hospital. Vash desperately wants to live out his life with Knives, Meryl, and Milly as normal as possible, but faces confusion as his brother brings back some long lost memories. Some parts may seem out of character for Vash, but he is simply overwhelmed with everything Knives is telling him. Contains spoilers for the series.

**WARNING** Some of what Knives does to Vash can be taken as
yaoi.**WARNING**

Chapter One: Chikara

Vash mumbled sleepily as he sat up in his bed. Yesterday was a long day and he didn't wish to get up so early. Vash closed his eyes and sighed. Imagines of the events from the day before ran through his mind. He relived that final battle with Knives as though he were pulling the trigger again.
Vash placed his feet to the floor and forced himself out of the comfort of the bed. He had carried Knives all the way back to town on his shoulder and didn't realize until now just how much Knives weighed.
"Mr. Vash, are you awake now?" a childish voice rang through the door.
"Yeah, yeah. I'm up Milly." Vash mumbled as he moved across the room towards a box of clothes.
"Well, I was just asking. You don't have to be so rude, you know. Sempai is with Mr. Knives. She wants you to bring some food to them," Milly said as she walked away from the door.
Vash sighed again as he pulled on a black muscle shirt. Milly really didn't act as smart as Vash knew she truly was.
Vash opened the door and wandered into the quiet hall. It seemed strange to no longer need to carry around that heavy silver gun and to not be wearing the thick red coat. He had even left his blonde locks down today. Everything people felt as his trademarks were now things of the past.
"Rem," Vash whispered as he gazed out a window at the end of the hall, "I'm not a child anymore. Thank you for giving me the strength to keep moving all these years, but now I need to change who I am."
He walked down the hall and down the stairs. Milly had already left for the infirmary and Vash was left alone. Vash gazed around the bottom floor of the small building. This was going to be their home now. Meryl and Milly had sent their letters of resignation to the Bernardile Insurance Society as soon as Vash and Knives were in sight. Vash hadn't gotten to speak with Knives since the battle so he was still unsure in his mind whether or not Knives was finished with trying to destroy the human race and make a utopia for he and Vash.
Vash grabbed the plastic bag left on the kitchen table and walked to the door. He had been rehearsing what he was going to say to Knives for half of the night.
"Aneki! Now we can live together in peace, like real brothers!"
"Knives! I won so you have to do what I say!"
"Onee-chan, we can finally bond! We shall now live happily ever after with Meryl and Milly! I'll even forgive you for getting Wolfwood killed!"
Vash cringed. Could he really forget all that Knives had done and accept him as a brother? Knives killed the crew, he killed Wolfwood, and he killed so many people. He killed Rem. How could he just forget all of those things and embrace Knives as his brother?
Vash wiped a tear from his eye, closed his eyes, and walked onto the porch. Hushed murmurs made Vash open his eyes to the bright sunlight. Practically the entire town stood outside Vash's house staring at him. Vash blinked and took a deep breath.
"May I. help you?" he stammered.
A familiar man stepped out of the crowd towards him. It was the man that had had Vash tied to a truck and nearly killed not long ago. Vash narrowed his eyes and watched the man walk up the porch.
"On behalf of the entire town. I apologize. However, as sorry as we are for what was done to you." the man trailed off as his eyes froze on Vash's metal arm. The man swallowed and started again, "However. as sorry as we are for what was done to you. we cannot allow your brother to reside in this peaceful town. We have heard what he has done. We heard about the towns changed to ghost towns and the only clue as to why being the word 'Knives' written in red. We cannot let our town become like them."
Vash stepped past the man and walked toward the crowd. The townsfolk parted and allowed him to pass and the man remained standing on the porch. Vash continued walking away as more tears ran down his cheeks. He knew it was too good to be true.

"Vash!" Meryl stood up quickly, her face pure red.
Vash smiled slyly. After dropping Knives off at the infirmary, Meryl had taken Vash aside and told him about her true feelings. He had known for a while that she felt differently about him than she let off. Vash promised to give her an answer within the week about how he felt, but he had decided to wait a few days before even thinking about it.
"Mr. Vash!" Milly snapped Vash out of his daydream, "Sempai was singing a song to Mr. Knives today and he woke up and called her Rem. You called her Rem before too, right?"
Vash stared blankly at Milly then moved his gazed down to the sleeping Knives.
"He. he just fell asleep, but he was asking where you were." Meryl stared down at the floor, the red in her face started to fade away.
"Can you girls leave us alone for a few minutes," Vash's deep voice caused both Meryl and Milly to jump. He set the bag of food down on the floor as the girls slowly walked to the door.
"Vash," Meryl's voice was barely above a whisper, "I'm sure everything will work out."
Vash stared down at Knives and Meryl walked out of the room, closing the door after her.
"I know you're awake, Knives," Vash growled.
Knives opened one light blue eye and rolled on his side. Vash clenched his teeth and grabbed Knives' shoulder.
"Listen to me!" he boomed, "I don't want the same thing to happen to you in this town that happened to me so just listen."
"Vash, I can't live in this place," Knives sat up and turned his back to Vash, "Humans won't accept either of us. You can preach about how we can make a perfect life living amongst them but we are not humans. We can never live with them."
"If you just stop being such a genocidal lunatic then maybe people will accept us. We could even tell them the truth about what we are and they would still want to be our neighbors and our friends."
"You're foolish," Knives growled, "just a worthless fool. If it weren't for that meddling Rem we would see eye to eye."
Vash slammed a fist into Knives' bed. Knives turned and faced Vash, a startled look on his face.
"I told Meryl everything," tears began to run down Vash's cheeks again, "and she accepted it. She even told me she loved me. So how can you possibly-"
Knives grabbed Vash into a tight embrace. Vash's eyes widened. This had to just be one of Knives' mind games. This couldn't be one of those brotherly moments that Vash had imagined in his mind all this time. Vash relaxed his muscles and closed his eyes. Even if this was just a mind game, it felt so right.