In chapter two of Boku, Knives shows Vash a reality that he hadn't remembered. How will Vash be able to go back to the way things were now that he knows the truth about the SEEDS ship and how much his brother truly cared for him? Perhaps a familiar outfit and weapon are the answer

**Note** Chapters Two and on are now replaced as html files to fix the paragraph format problems

**WARNING**Again, what Knives does can be considered yaoi. Also, there is an implied event that takes place in a flashback. Acctually you can make it be whatever you want.**WARNING**

Chapter Two: Live Through

The doctor said Knives is nearly completely healed already. He said that tomorrow morning he is going to be officially discharged, Meryl smiled as he handed another wet plate to Vash.

Vash nodded as he dried the plate and placed it on a pile. His mind was still reeling from the events earlier in the day. After Knives let go of Vash, he had said something that bothered Vash immensely, then had lain down and fallen asleep again. Vash felt his face turning red just thinking of the moment. Vash snapped out of his daydream as he felt eyes piercing into him and looked to the side.

Are you getting a cold? Meryl said as she raised an eyebrow at Vash.

Vash smiled at Meryl and grabbed her hand out of the soapy water. She blushed and tried pulling away, but Vash already had pulled her close.

It's true, Vash said to himself, I feel the same when I embrace Meryl that I did when I was embraced by her

Vash moved away from Meryl and walked out of the room. Meryl stood next to the sink, her face deep red.

Wh-what just happened... she gasped.

A black cat popped out of the sink with a Meryl looked down at the cat with a blank look.

I can't be like him. I can't just ignore what has been done by these humans and live amongst them, Knives stared at a dark wall in his hospital room. The final shift of nurses had checked on him and now he had until morning to be alone.

I'm sorry, dear brother. I care about you more than you will ever know, but I simply cannot forgive humans for stealing energy from our kin, killing the land, and, most of all, for hurting you. You are such a fool

Knives got out of the bed and walked towards a box in the corner of the room. He pulled on the skin tight bodysuit he was so used to. The blood had been washed off it, but the bullet holes were still torn into it. He put on his shoes and walked towards the window. This was all he could do. He had known there was no other choice when he held his brother's trembling body in his arms. Humans had hurt him so much. They could never be forgiven. He opened the window and climbed out, then ran off into the empty desert.

Milly threw open Vash's bedroom door. She was out of breath and her eyes were full of pain. Vash sat up in his bed quickly and stared at her.

Oh, Mr. Vash! I was just at the infirmary. I was taking Mr. Knives a midnight snack and the doctor said that he had disappeared! she huffed.

Vash's eyes grew wide and he started to shake. He knew where Knives had gone.

(Back in Knives' room when he and Vash were alone.)

Knives removed his arms from around Vash and sat back. He looked into Vash's bright green eyes and placed a hand on his chin. He pulled Vash's head next to his own.

You think of Rem when you are around her. She isn't anything special. She is simply a replacement of Rem. That's why I can't believe she accepts you. That is why I have to get back what was mine. I'm sorry, Knives whispered into Vash's ear.

(Back in the current time.)

That's what he had meant by getting back what was his. Vash ran out of the room, down the stairs, and out of the house. The place under the trees That is where he needed to get to.

Knives stopped under a tree and gazed down at a familiar red coat. He picked up the coat and out of it fell two guns; a silver gun and its twin that he had been seeking. He bent down and lifted the black gun. The familiarity of it was nostalgic. With it, he was once again going to show Vash what was meant for the two of them. Knives smiled and brought the red coat to his nose. He took a deep breath and laughed at the scent.

your poison isn't it Vash? he grinned.

Knives spun around at the sound of Vash's voice. Please come home with me

You got rid of this coat in a feeble attempt to separate yourself from Rem, didn't you Vash? But every time you look at her you think of Rem, don't you Vash?

I loved Rem but I realize now that I love Meryl too However, I feel differently about how I love Meryl than how I love Rem. So I know that Meryl accepts me, not because she is like Rem, but because she is a kind person.

what a waste of time and energy love is Love is a human emotion. We don't need to bother ourselves with love, Knives stepped towards Vash holding out the silver gun and red coat.

If we don't need to bother ourselves with the emotion of love, Vash took a step back, Then why did you hug me?

I wanted to feel your emotions. Do you remember when I did that on the ship? We carry a bond, Vash, Knives stepped forward again, that goes far beyond that of human twins. We can make each other feel eternal pain, or we can remove each other from pain. I did that for you before, don't you remember, Vash?

Vash started to take a step backwards, but stopped. What Knives said made sense and yet didn't at the same time. Was there something he had forgotten from their days on the ship? He stared back at Knives with a confused look in his eyes.

If you don't remember, then let me show you, Knives lunged forward and dropped the guns and coat. He pulled Vash to him before Vash could dash away. Knives pulled himself closer to Vash and placed his lips on Vash's.

Vash tried to pull away, but he was in Knives' strong grip. He struggled until he felt lost memories flow into his mind. Then he blacked out.

Hey Vash, come see this, a young boy's voice rang in his ears.

Vash sat up in the grass and pushed his long blonde hair out of his eyes. He yawned and looked over at his brother. Knives was scratching at his long light blonde hair with one hand and with the other he was poking something out of Vash's site with a stick.

Vash crawled over next to his brother and sat down by his side. He looked down at what Knives was poking with the stick. It was a small blue egg. Vash gasped and looked up at his brother. Knives grinned back at Vash and pointed the stick at a huddled blue mass a few feet away. Vash slowly crawled toward the mass and realized just what it was.

you killed a bird! Why did you kill the bird? Vash growled at Knives.

Because it was eating a worm. I like worms better than birds anyways, you know, Knives continued poking the egg.

Vash clenched his teeth as he watched his brother then placed a hand softly on the bird's lifeless form. Just then he heard a soft crack. Vash grabbed the bird and jumped up, then ran to his brother's side. A small beak had broken through the egg's shell.

Knives stood up with a grin on his face. He lifted his foot over the egg and looked at Vash.

The stupid thing thought it could escape, he laughed, then began to bring his foot down.

Vash's eyes grew large and he threw his hand over the egg. He grabbed it in his hand and pulled it from under Knives' foot.

Vash! What are you doing? Put it back! Knives yelled.

Tears poured down Vash's cheek and embraced the egg and the dead bird. He ran away from Knives and through the door out of the meadow.

She heard the sniffling through the door. She immediately knew that Knives had done something. Recently, it seemed Knives was turning more malicious. Every day he did something that made Vash cry. Rem opened the door and moved her gaze across the room. Sitting in a dark corner she saw a blue jumpsuit and a tuff of blonde locks. She walked to the corner and placed her arms around the crying Vash.

what's wrong? Did Knives do something to upset you? her sweet voice rang in Vash's ears.

Oh, Rem, Vash turned around and cried into her chest, Why is he like that? Doesn't he have any compassion for living things?

What are you holding, Vash? Rem tried to slightly change the subject.

Vash opened his hands and showed Rem the lifeless bird and the motionless beak sticking out of the egg.

Knives killed the bird and then he tried to smash the egg when the baby was trying to hatch! Knives tried to— Vash looked down in shock at the egg, Did I Vash dropped the bird and the egg and buried his face into Rem's chest, I'm just as bad as him! I'm just as bad as him!

Rem frowned at the crying child, Let's give them a proper funeral and then we will talk to Knives

Vash wandered through the halls. Rem had brought the entire crew into the meadow to hold a funeral for the birds. Nobody had seen Knives so Rem could not speak to him after the funeral. Vash wiped away tears from his eyes and sighed. It wouldn't have done any good anyways, he realized now. Knives' method of thinking was too far gone.

Vash jumped and turned around quickly at the voice.

You killed those birds, didn't you? You monster, Steve growled.

No I Knives Vash stammered.

You kill living things without any remorse. Both of you do, Steve mumbled as he took another drink out of his liquor bottle.

Vash stepped back and shook his head, I didn't kill anything I never meant to hurt anything

You aren't even human. How can you two possibly be intelligent, kind creatures? You're nothing but monsters, Steve grabbed Vash's jumpsuit and pulled him into the nearest room.

Knives strode down the hallway. He couldn't understand why Vash was so weak. Rem hadn't affected Knives' ability to think for himself, so why had Vash fallen under her spell? Just then he heard muffled voices coming from the room next to which he had stopped. He placed his ear to the door and held his breath.

I'll teach you a lesson. You think you can kill a living creature without paying a price? Well I'll change that, Steve's voice came through clearly.

I was all Knives could hear of Vash's voice. Then suddenly he heard a screaming, NO! STOP IT PLEASE!

Knives jumped back and tried to pry open the door with his fingers. It was locked. Knives knew what room this was though. He hurried down the hall and around a corner. The entire wall going down the next hall was large glass windows. He pressed himself up to the glass and searched for Vash and Steve. When he saw them, Steven had a bruised Vash down on the ground. He was standing over Vash with his fists raised and a heavy booted foot pressed on Vash's heaving chest. Knives pounded his fists on the glass.

Vash! Vash! Knives screamed into the glass. Vash stared up at Knives. Fear was racing through his face, Vash, I can't get in the room but close your eyes I can help you, I know it!

Vash closed his eyes just and heavy fists came down on his skull. In his mind he could hear Knives' voice echoing. Knives was calling Vash's name, I can hear you, Vash stammered.

Knives' image appeared in front of Vash. Knives pulled his around Vash and brought him close. Knives ran his hands through Vash's hair and sighed. I'll keep you safe until the pain is over You'll be okay for sure Don't worry. Vash felt a tear fall onto his head. I'll make sure he pays I'll make sure they'll all pay