I felt someone lift me up into their lap and hold me tightly. Then I felt someone hold me and the other person tightly. It was like a group hug. I cried and shook. I almost passed out until I heard Jeff.

"Patience? Patience hold on baby. Don't close your eyes. Keep awake baby. We are going to take you out of here." Jeff said.

Jeff picked me up and took me outside where he laid me down on the ground. The fresh air hit me and I stayed awake, but still crying.

"What's wrong sis?" Matt asked.

"I found out why Mom killed herself" I choked out

"Why baby?"

"Because of me" I cried.

"What?!?!" Both Matt and Jeff said

I handed Jeff and Matt the letter and they read it.

"Oh Sis...its not your fault. You are not to blame for what your mother did," Matt said.

"Yes, I am" I cried as I curled into a little ball.

Jeff gently grabbed my chin and made me look at him.

"Stop that right now. You are not the reason she did this. This is not your fault. Do you understand?" Jeff said sternly.

"Yes" I whisper

I only said yes to make him happy. I think he could tell I was lying, but he let it pass for right now. Matt picked me up and we walked home. To my new home. When we entered the house, Gil ran to us. I was sleeping in Matt's arms. He stroked my hair. Matt went and put me into Jeff's room. He came back with the note. After Gil read it, Jeff, Matt, and Gil talked about it.

"How did she take it?" Gil asked

"She completely broke down dad. We found her in the kitchen, lying on the floor screaming." Matt said.

"She almost fainted, but we took her outside and it calmed her a bit, but she thinks it's her fault her Mom killed her self." Jeff said

"I guess what we will have her do is see a therapist. Also make sure she is never alone. You never know what she might do because of this letter" Gil said.

"Yea, I think that is best" Matt said.

"Where ya going son?" Gil asked

"To stay by Patience's side." Jeff said

"Okay, but don't wake her up" Gil said.

While Matt and Gil talked and watched TV, Jeff came into the room and sat in a chair that was next the bed. The sat there thinking and tears were flowing down his face.

"Why you crying?" I asked as I rubbed my eyes.

"It's nothing. Go back to sleep baby" Jeff said wiping away his tears.

I grabbed his hand and pulled him into bed with me. We held eachother. I looked into his eyes searching for what he was feeling. I saw some sort of feeling, but I could not distinguish it.

"Please tell me why you were crying." I asked as I stroked his cheek.

"I just..."

"You just what baby?"

"I just wish I could take all your pain away. I wish I could turn back time and make you the happy, fun, loving girl I knew. I'm so sorry that you are going through this baby." Jeff said with tears running down his cheeks.

"Oh Jeff don't cry. I can't stand it when you cry. I love you and I want you to be happy"

"I'm happy when you're happy"

"I will get there Jeff. I don't know when, but someday I will be happy again."

I looked into his eyes and saw safety, warmth, love, compassion, and more. From the moment, I knew I loved Jeff more than a brother. I closed my eyes and leaned forward. We kissed. It was passionate, loving, and fulfilling. I wanted it to last forever. I moaned into his mouth and gently grabbed the back of his head and pulled him into my mouth deeper and it was his turn to moan. He started kissing my neck and I pushed him away breathing hard.

"What's wrong?" He breathed out

"Jeff I would like to go further, but I am only 17. I can't."

"I understand Babygurl"

"I love when you call me that. I feel special."

"You are special Patience."

"I didn't realize it until now how much I love you Jeff and how much I always have. From the first day I knew you. You were my rock, My happiness, my everything."

"And you were and are mine"

We kissed one more time before falling asleep holding eachother. The next day I woke up early. I took a shower and got ready. I went over to a sleeping Jeff and gave him a gentle kiss on the forehead. I was about to walk away when his hand grabbed my arm and pulled me back.

"Where ya going babe?"

"To go get my stuff and then get too work."

"When you gotta be there?"

"About 2 hours."

"I wanna come with you." He pouted.

"Well go take a shower and get dressed and then we can go" I laughed

He jumped out of bed and ran to the shower. I waited downstairs watching TV and talking to Matt and Gil. I am surprised Matt is up this early. He doesn't go to bed until 3. Jeff came down wearing black jeans and a white wife-beater.

"Ready to go?" Jeff asked

"Yea let's go" I said standing up and heading to the door.

"Where ya guys going?" Matt asked.

"I am going to work. Jeff is coming along." I said.

"Do you think you can handle work?" Gil asked

"Yea, its nothing too hard"

"What are you doing at work today?" Gil asked

"Today we are just doing some filming."

"Filming of what?" Matt asked

"Of me and others doing jumps." I said

"You be careful OK?" Gil said

"Okay Gil"

I took Jeff's hand and we walked out and to his car.

"I need to go home and get my stuff" I said look

"Sure babe. Anything for you" Jeff smiled.

We went to my house and I took a deep breath. Jeff grabbed my hand and firmly squeezed it. I looked at him and smiled. We walked to the shed and opened it. We grabbed my bike and helmet. I filled it with gas and then Jeff and I put it in his trunk and took off to my work. When we got there we got out and took out my bike. We walked it up to the building by the hill and I set my bike on its stand. I saw Mikey walking toward me. I ran into his arms as he spun me around.

"I am so glad you came" He said as he set me down.

"So am I. So when did Rick want to start?"

"As soon as you got here. What jump did you wanna do today?" Rick said as he hugged me.

"Hm...let's do No Mercy" I said

"Are you sure you are up for it?" He asked.

"Hell ya. Let's do it."

I gave Jeff a quick kiss and ran to my bike. I put on my helmet and started my bike. I revved it up and took off toward the hills and cliffs. I looked at the sign which told which jump was where. I saw No Mercy and took off toward it. I stopped at the beginning and I looked down. I saw Jeff with his hands in his hair looking at me and I saw Rick give the signal that the camera was ready. I focused back on the jump and pressed on the gas. I hit the jump perfectly and started to land. Perfect landing. Everyone below was clapping for me. Jeff ran over and hugged me.

"What's a matter?" I asked

"I'm glad you're ok"

"Of course I am OK. I am a pro. This is what I do for a living."

He looked at me concerned. I just reached up and kissed him.

"Thank you for your concern though. I am glad I have someone in my life like you."

We smiled and kissed.

"Okay Patience lets do couple more and we are done." Rick said

I went up to try it again when all of a sudden my bike went out of control. My bike was heading toward the cliff. I didn't know what to do and I was scared out of my mind.