By: Ilyawen
To Yamato
They always tell me to write dots but why should I did it ever cross their minds that I might not want to put any dots in the middle of my words
they're mine anyway aren't they and why should I follow their rules I never liked them they just try to take control of your life and what use are they really when there is you around to play with my heart toss it around and crush it with your feet
you don't follow any rules at all but it's like that they say It's All Fair In Love And War though I don't think you could actually call what we've got love because not even I know what it is but I'll never let anything control me and take away my free will
why am I writing this
they scream at me to write dots and big letters although they don't care about me for real
because I'm just a teenager
a confused damn teenager in love with someone who doesn't have a clue
and who has the most wonderful eyes and when you touched my shoulder before when I was cold and freezing you were so warm I felt the heat through my sweater and jacket or was it just my imagination
I don't think so
and when you held my hand yesterday it wasn't realistic it was like in the movies and in the songs and I can't believe it despite it being true and despite it being impossible since they always tell me that dreams don't come true
I don't believe them at all
I want to believe in you in us even though there is no us yet I want it to be and can you tell me where my heart lies right now
I know you can you just don't dare to say it out loud why are you being such a coward I would scream it at the top of my lungs in the central station if I felt like it and I do so why don't I
are you getting tired of this
is it too hard to read my thoughts because they're always jumbled like this when they're in my brain
aren't they when they are in yours
I wonder if this is normal or if it's just me who is crazy and everyone else is sane
I don't fancy being sane
how come anybody would want to be sane when they can be insane and why would anybody desire death over life
all I want is to live and I can't do that without you and I'm sorry for what I said about you to my friends
they were so nosy and if you nothing but air to me you are the oxygen that keeps me breathing
Taichi
Please review, I'd really like to hear you opinions about this one! Did you hate it, or did you get what it was about? :o)
