Disclaimer: I don't own Andrew or Ben Covington.
Summary: Ben's father dies unexpectedly and with the passing of his father, Ben reflects. Ben's POV
***My father, My hero***
"I never really had a relationship with my father. It was only recently that we made a connection. My dad used to drink alot when I was younger. I used to wish that he would just go away and leave my mother and I alone. I used to wish he wasn't my father, sometimes I would pray that he would leave and that would be the last time we'd see him, then mom and I would go on with our lives. I came here to New York to get away from him and the insanity that was my life. I came here to put, what was supposed to be my past, in the past. I came here to forget him. Felicity says that I'm like my father in so many ways, but I don't see it, nor do I want to believe it.
To say that my father was a bad parent wouldn't necessarily be an understatement. He for sure wouldn't win father of the year, neither would I. To say that my father was a bad person, well we all have our flaws. My father, in some ways is my hero. He's my hero in ways that I cannot explain and wouldn't admit to anyone. When he was sick before, I was ready to let him go. To me it was like I wasn't losing much because he hadn't been there for me and I was used to that. Then I truly went over the pros and cons of not having my father in my life. So I opted to help him live. Now I wish I had that choice again, I would help him live once again if I could. In a way I think it's because I love him, and because in his own way he loved me. I'll miss him."
Rest in Peace:
John Ritter
1948-2003
this pov fic is dedicated to John Ritter and his family. May God Bless them and heal them.
