Hey. Yeah, I started to write chapter 6 today but I just feel like blah. There was supposed to be some humor and romance in it but at the moment I just don't feel funny and flirty. As you know, if you read my bio, I used to have a horse until she died this past March and I used to show her. We went to a horse show today just to watch and it really brought back some memories. Anyway, I'll share you the corny sobbing flashback. She was just heavy on my mind today and I just don't feel like writing. I miss her so freakin much. I mean pardon the unspiffified language, but it just describes how I feel better than "I miss her dearly".
But yeah, enough of my whining. I'll get to writing the chapter as soon as this passes. I should be excited, my trainer is making an offer on this one horse that I want and if they take the offer we might buy her. But I haven't been to a horse show in a long time and some really nice memories came flooding back and I just really need to sit and mope on my couch watching depressing movies for a while. I love all my reviewers to death, seriously. You add a little light to a dim little world. I don't wanna stuff you in a big fat bucket of corn, but be careful with things you love. I can't help but think that I didn't really pay much attention to Cash the few months before she died. Like I lost interest in her. I wanna just kill myself when I think about how I never wanted to go out to the barn to see her because I was too busy watching a movie or sitting my lazy ass on here. Things like this will just come up and bite you square in the face and you will spend the rest of your life wondering how the one you lost felt about you when they died.
You're probably thinking "oh, it was just a horse" right? Well she may have been /just a horse/, but she was my horse and she was my future. That horse held not only my dreams and hopes but also my father's dreams and plans. We had everything worked out, it was perfectly planned. And then this happens and suddenly we're completely lost. It's like running and running and then suddenly there's no more room to run. A cliff just appeared out of no where with no other side and an endless depth below it.
Okay I'll shut up with the corny 'never take anything for granted' speech. Love ya all, peace, harmony… lemony fresh buckets of corn for all.
