sorry this is so short.......school started today, and well that's enuf of an explanation, aint it? lol! anyway, i hope you enjoy this part.......and i hope you review it. i really would like some reviews cuz with my schedule now, it's crazy to write and reviews really inspire me. if i dont get reviews.....well, this prolly will be taken off cuz it's not worth it. but if i do-well, ill keep writing! thanks-please enjoy and review!

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Part Eight

"I'm telling you, Rach, I tried everything," Ross said to his wife, "He just kept saying he was fine and to leave him alone."

Rachel shook her head, "Ross, I'm worried," she said softly, "Really, really worried."

Ross pursed his lips and sighed, "So am I, Rach, so am I," he whispered.

Dear Monica, the love of my life, and so much more,

There are really no words to explain just how much I love you, just as there are really no words to explain why I need to leave. I am not leaving because I am mad at you, or because I want a divorce or anything. The thing is, I feel I need to leave to protect you. I cannot hurt the two people I love more than life, those people being you and the baby, and if I stay, that's what I'll wind up doing.

Please, please move on and find somebody else. All I've ever wanted is for you to be happy, and I know that there's someone out there who will make you happy and who won't hurt you like I will. So please, find someone.

I love you, and please don't ever forget that you haven't done anything wrong. You're the most amazing person I've ever met, and I love you so much.

With all the love in my heart,

Chandler

Monica sat reading the note, unable to move, speak, cry, do anything. Now she understood how Chandler had not been able to cry at Joey's funeral. This kind of grief was beyond tears. How-why.......why was he doing this? She'd known something was going on with him, but she'd figured time would heal it. She'd never expected this. But it was true.

Monica knew she couldn't just withdraw from the world. She had a baby to care for-Chandler's baby, the one link she had left of him. She was determined not to become like Chandler had after Joey's death. Almost immediately, she called Ross and Rachel, and Rachel came to stay with her for a few days, to cook and to help her. Monica tried to act strong, for the baby's sake, but she knew she couldn't keep up a facade for very long. Sooner or later, the full impact of what Chandler had done was going to hit her. And she had no idea how she'd deal when it did.

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