~*TO*MUCH*TO*LOSE*~ *Chapter 3: Lose yourself* By: Hikari*Chan

A/N: Please review this!!!!!

Disclaimer: If I owned digimon do you seriously think I would be writing fan fictions? Hahahaha acutely I probably would..but anyway I don't own digimon..

Sora looked down at the floor, and bit her bottom lip.

"You're.getting married." Tai's voice chocked, he closed his eyes and griped the phone tighter. "That's. that's..." Tai stared at the floor and took a deep breath trying to compose himself. "Great!" He lied.

"Yeah."

"So whose the lucky guy." Tai asked trying not to sound jealous.

"Yama.." Sora began to shake she didn't know how Tai would react to this news. Tai and Matt had been best friends ever since before the digital world and this could break 13 year friendship.

"Oh, wow that's great Sora! Matt and you I couldn't be happier!" Tai exclaimed pretending to happy.

"Thanks Taichi." Sora said.with a frown on her face, this wasn't what she hoped his response would be. She had desperately prayed that he would be upset and tell her that he missed her and that she couldn't go off with Matt. That she needed to stay with him but instead, he was acting as if he were happy for her.

"Well I have to be going to work.but umm what's your number? I'll give you a call when I get home later tonight." Tai asked rather anxious to get off the phone.

"Well I wont be home tonight so I'll give you Matt's number that's where I'll be." Sora said meekly.

"Okay. what is it."

"789-832-8322..."

"Alright I'll call you when I get home."

"Okay bye Taichi."

"Bye Sora."

Tai hung up the phone and took a deep breath before flopping over on the couch and shutting his eyes. In the bedroom he could hear a faint whimper but ignored it, until.

"Daddy, Taichi!! Daddy, Taichi!!" He was abruptly interrupted by a two year old boy tugging at his sleeve.

"Yes, Matt?" Tai answered still not opening his eyes.

"Mommy's in her room crying.she needs a hug!" The little boy explained.

'Oh Mimi! I totally forgot poor girl must be heartbroken.' Taichi thought as he got up.

"Alright little man, you sit right here and watch some brain depleting television while I go give your mother a hug.okay?"

"Okay." Matt beamed and clicked on the TV. "Just one question."

"Hmmm?"

"What's brain depleting mean?" I'll explain it to you in a second.

"OKAY!"

Tai walked down the corridor to Mimi's room where he could hear the sobbing full force now. He quietly knocked on the door that was halfway shut.

"Mimi" Tai questioned sympathetically.

"Oh.I'm sorry, I just have something in my eye.that's all." Mimi said pretending everything was okay.

"Ya know Mimi, for someone that's on stage actress you sure do suck at lying." Tai said while sitting next to her on the bed.

"Tai. he's getting married.to SORA!"

"I know."

"He said he'd wait for me.he said he loved me." Mimi said wailing. Tai warped his arms around Mimi and hugged her tight.

"I know.but were not with out fault.you know."

"I know."

"You never called Sora.and I never told.Matt."

"Told me what?" Mimi's son asked while crawling on to the bed.

"Matt I thought I told you to watch T.V. while I talked to your mother."

"But I did Daddy TAI!"

"Matt."

"No Tai its okay..."

"Mimi, you need to tell both of them." Mimi nodded and sighed and you need to tell Sora the reason you left. Tai's expression was blank as he nodded in agreement.

"Matt. sweetie.mommy and daddy have to tell you something.."

"What Mommy!"

"Well you see little man.I'm not your real daddy."

"Yes you are daddy Tai!" the little dirty blond boy said while playfully hitting Tai.

"No.Matt.listen to me." Tai started and sat Matt on his knee.

"I'm not your daddy.your real daddy is this guy right here." Tai explained while picking up a picture of Matt, Sora, Mimi, Kari, Tk, Joe, Jun and himself. Tai pointed to the boy with blond hair and blue eyes. His hands were wrapped around Mimi's waist and Mimi was kissing his cheek.

"Dat's my daddy?"

"That's right little man that's your daddy, he's an awesome guy.wait till you meet him."

"No! Daddy Tai my daddy!"

"Matt..please."

"Nooo! Daddy TAI I LOVE YOU!" Matt clinged to Tai's neck and cried. Mimi looked at her son who was obviously not taking this well.

"I love you too little guy. You know I'm not going anywhere right?"

"Your not?"

"No, well still be best friends and do everything together, I just wont be your father."

"Promise?"

"Promise"

"YAY!"

"So lets dry those tears." Mimi said while picking up her son off Tai's lap and rocking him gently in her arms.

"Mommy I love you."

"I love you too angel." Mimi voice cracked and she started to cry. Tai rolled his eyes 'here we go again' he thought.

"Mommy wuts wrong?"

"You look so much like your daddy."

" I do?"

"Yes you do." 'God he is the spitting image of Yamatto when he was little' Tai thought.

Meanwhile.

Sora lay in her bed her eyes wide open, they were red from crying. She lifted her hand to her face and stared at her engagement ring. 'It must have costed him a fortune.' she thought while staring at the silver ring that had tiny diamonds all the way around it and on top a gigantic stone cut in the shape of the heart glistened. As she stared at it silent tears streamed down her face. 'Tai.I will always love you..' Sora thought as she shut her eyes and slipped the ring off her finger and into the pearl jewelry box.

Not to far away in his dorm.

Matt sat awake staring at pictures of Mimi and him.

'What am I doing looking at these? She left me years ago. and I love Sora.I think. I don't know anymore.' Matt sat down and sighed on his bed. He flipped through the scarp book Mimi had made of him and her before she left for America. 'We were so happy. I loved her so much.I still love her.but I can't I'm engaged it would brake Sora's heart if I left her.and for what.to keep a promise to my ex girlfriend.who left for America with out explaining her reasoning.' Matt layed back in his bed and closed his eyes. 'God.what have I gotten myself into this time.'

Back in America.

Mimi was sitting at the kitchen table working on her designs when she was intuputed by Matt.

"Mommy..can I meet my daddy?" Mimi's eyes widened. at the thought.

"Well.you see suga, your daddy lives far away in Japan."

"But mommy.I thought we were Japanese."

"We are.but we live in America" 'Stupid Taichi.should have known that telling Matt about his heritage would end up kicking me in the ass.' Mimi thought.

"So can.we go vist daddy in Japan?"

"Well.umm.I guess.I mean you still haven't met your grammy and grammpy Taichiwa.

"So we can meet daddy?!?" Matt asked exitedly. Just as she was about to answer Tai entered the apparment.

"DADDY TAI!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!" Matt screamed and tackled Tai's leg.

"Hey there buddy!" Tai scooped up Matt and swung him around.

"Guess what!?!?"

"What?"

"Mommy and I are gonna go too Japan to meet my daddy and my grammy and grampy." Matt squeeled with delight.

Tai stared at Mimi.

"Are you sure Mimi?"

"Well.its been 3 years since I saw my family and Matt needs to know his father and Yama desvers to know the real reason why I left.so yes.I am sure.and I think you should come to.Sora needs to know the real reason you left her. Besides you need to see your family, its been 3 years since you saw them last."

Tai nodded, "when your right.." He pulled Matt's number out of his pocket. "Mimi.this is Matt's number Sora gave it to me earlier because I told her I'd call her tonight. She's going to be at Matt's.. I'll umm get her on the line. then you can talk to her and I'll talk to Matt well tell them were planning a trip back there."

"Alright."

Tai dialed the number. RIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIING

RIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIING

RIIIIIII "Hello...Matt Ishadia."

"Hey.Matt its Taichi."

"Tachi..? Who.."

"Yamagi" When Matt herd the last name his mouth dropped.

"TAICHI!?!?"

"The one and only."

"Dude man its been years!"

"I know, look Sora called and told me you two are getting married that's awesome!"

"Thanks! Hey ya know I would really like it of you would be my best man"

"Dude really?"

"Yeah!!!"

"Sure that'd be awesome, well look, Mimi and I are going to Japan for a trip."

"Mimi.and you?"

"Yeah you know your ex girlfriend."

"Oh wow! You two are.are.are.umm.d-d-d-d-dating??" Matt stuttered and slurred his words together.

"No we just live together its easier to pay the rent that way."

"Ohh I see.is she there?"

"Yes she is would you like to talk to her?"

"Would I ever!!!"

"Alright just a second."

"MIMI!...He wants to talk to you."

"Hello!"

To Be Continued..

Authors notes: So what did you think? Longer than the others I know but I have a lot of time on my hands cuse I'm sick and I can't go to school! SOOOO REVIEW PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE I'LL LOVE YOU FOREVER IF YOU DO!!!!! Thanks soooo much!!!! I'll have the next chapter up pretty soon!

~*Katie