Chapter 4

When they were out in the hall, Spike put a finger under her chin and raised her head so she would look at him. "Did you really? I was getting the impression that you didn't." He told her.

"Why would you think that?" She asked and he sighed.

"I don't know, it could be the fact that I haven't seen you in about four years and we've hardly talked at all in that time. I know that it was a shock when I came back as a human and you were probably confused, hell I was too. I know that you said we could be friends and I have to admit that that meant a lot to me, but then you just decided to go to Cleveland and I decided to stay here to help out Angel and that was just it. I hardly heard from you at all. It was like you didn't wanna talk to me. I didn't know where you were or even if you were okay." Spike said and he noticed tears forming in Buffy's eyes.

"I'm sorry; I didn't mean to shut you out. I had to deal with something and I guess I was afraid to see you. I didn't know what to say. I don't know if this helps or anything, but I want you to know that I never stopped caring about you. Sometimes you were all I thought about and I always wanted to come see you, but I guess I was just scared." Spike nodded and pulled her into another hug, not wanting to let her go. He kissed the top of her head.

"It's okay, I understand and it helps a lot. I'm just glad you finally decided to drop by. I missed you, Buffy." She raised her head and looked at him and he wiped some of her tears away. "Come on, I'll take you to the hotel so you can get settled. You could probably use some rest." She nodded and he took her hand again and they both left Wolfram and Hart. When they got to the hotel, Buffy found that it wasn't deserted like she thought. She saw a familiar face that she hasn't seen in a while and that she missed. Wesley looked up to see Spike walk in with Buffy.

"Buffy, well this is a surprise. It's good to see you." He said as he hugged her.

"You too, Wes." She said as she pulled away. "You just keep getting hotter as the years go by, I'm impressed." She told him with a smile and she noticed him blush.

"Well, thank you." He told her. "You look good too; of course you never had a problem with that." She smiled at him and Spike shook his head and took her bags to one of the rooms upstairs. Buffy watched him go up and then she looked past Wesley and noticed Gunn who was talking to Lorne and they didn't seem to notice that she was there. Buffy smiled.

"Hey sexy, who are you and what have you done with Charles?" Buffy said as Gunn turned and looked at her with a huge grin on his face.

"Well, I'll be damned." He said as he made his way towards Buffy. "Girl, look at you. I see these last few years have been treating you right." He said as he grabbed Buffy in a hug, lifting her off the ground a little. He put her down and she smiled at him. She spent some time in LA before she left to Cleveland four years ago and she managed to get close to all of them. She never knew how much she missed them until now.

"You know me, I try. It's good to see you, Gunn." He nodded and smiled at her when Lorne walked up to them.

"Hey there, sweet cheeks." Buffy noticed Lorne and gave him a big hug, she managed to get very close to him and besides Clem who she also missed at times, Lorne was her favorite demon. She pulled away and smiled at him.

"Hey, did I ever tell you that green looks really good on you." He smiled at her.

"You gotta love this girl." Buffy returned his smile and kissed him on the cheek as a thanks.

"It's hard not to." Spike said as he came back down the stairs. Buffy was trying not to blush at his comment.

"Well, I guess I'll head upstairs now. I'm getting kinda tired." She said as she walked up the stairs past Spike, getting a shiver through her body when she brushed past him. She looked back at him. "Try not to miss me too much." She told him as she headed up the rest of the stairs. Spike smiled as he watched her go.

"Easier said than done." He whispered so she wouldn't hear him.