Well, I knew some people would have reacted that way to the last chapter.
I just did it for the fun of it. My friend pretty much freaked when I read
it to her until I finished the chapter that is. She really wanted it to be
Xander though since she doesn't like Spike, but like I was really gonna
make her happy. I'm sticking by my evil comment. I love Xander, but I
couldn't have him as the father. He's too much like a brother and I just
couldn't do it even though I did always want her with him. I guess things
change. I didn't have Buffy reveal it yet because it's a sensitive subject
for her and I just know people will hate me for it when she does reveal the
truth, but again I think it had to be this way.
Chapter 7
It was getting too crowded at Wolfram and Hart so everyone headed back to the hotel. Buffy was upstairs in her room reading a book while Emily was sleeping next to her. Buffy was stroking her hair when she heard someone knock and she looked up to see Angel. She smiled at him. "Hey, come in." She whispered so she wouldn't wake up Emily. He smiled at her and sat on the edge of the bed as she put her book away.
"Is this a bad time?" Buffy shook her head.
"No, I finally got her to sleep. Poor thing was exhausted." Angel nodded and looked at Buffy as she was stroking her daughter's hair.
"So, you have a kid?" Buffy smiled at him.
"What gave it away?" Angel shrugged.
"Well, everyone was pretty surprised when they found out. I definitely didn't expect it." He said as he looked at Emily. "She's pretty cute." Buffy nodded and looked at her daughter.
"She's my everything." She said as she kissed her on the forehead, hoping not to wake her up.
"I guess it's true when they say you never know how much you love something until it's gone." Angel said, more to himself than Buffy.
"Are you okay? You seem sad all of a sudden." Buffy wondered and he looked at her and gave her a smile.
"I'm fine, it's nothing." Buffy nodded then looked back at him.
"I'm sorry about Cordelia. I know how much she meant to you." Angel nodded.
"It's okay, I'm dealing." It was hard for Angel when Cordelia fell into a coma and he always hoped that she would regain consciousness, but there were complications and she died a few years ago. It was hard for Angel along with everyone else. She would truly be missed. He was still dealing with the fact that he gave his son away; of course he would be the only one that would remember. He just hoped that wherever Connor was, he would be happy. That's all he ever wanted for him. "So, I guess you still don't want to talk about who the father is." Buffy shook her head.
"Not right now, it's too hard." Angel nodded.
"I understand, do Dawn and the others know?" Buffy nodded also.
"Of course, it would have been hard keeping it from them. They were with me through everything and I don't know what I would do without them." Angel nodded accepting her answer, even though he wished he could have been there for her. "So, how has Spike been really holding up after all this time? You know with being human and all." Angel shrugged.
"It was hard for him at first, but he's adjusting and I think he's doing better. It just takes time." Buffy looked down and then back at Angel trying not to cry.
"I should have been here for him. He got sent back as a human after saving the world and he had to go through so much and I wasn't here to help him with it. I just took off to Cleveland the first chance I got without even thinking about how it would affect him. That's how it always is, isn't it? Things get tough and I run away, some things will never change." Buffy stated as the tears slowly flowed down her face. Angel touched her face gently.
"You only did what you thought was right. You both needed some time apart to think about things." Buffy looked at him.
"Yeah, but four years apart. I could have visited or called more, but I didn't. I was just so scared about him finding out about Emily that I couldn't even manage to contact him. I went and started this whole new family without him even knowing. I couldn't tell him because I was afraid he would hate me." Angel brushed hair out of her face.
"He doesn't hate you, Buffy. He could never hate you. You are still all he talks about and I know you two can get through this. You're here now and that's all that matters." Angel told her, trying to make her feel better. She just put her face in her hands and continued to cry. Angel hugged her to him and let her cry on him. She then pulled away and looked at him. She was about to say something when she felt Emily move next to her and knew she was waking up.
"Mommy," the little girl said.
"I'm here, baby." Buffy said as she lifted her daughter up and put her on her lap. The little girl then wrapped her arms around her mother's neck and started to cry. "Shhhhhh, it's okay sweetie. You had another bad dream?" Buffy felt Emily nod and she just rocked her back and forth to calm her down. Angel got up and headed to the door.
"I guess I should head back down." He stated.
"Angel, do you think you can take her to Dawn while I change?" Angel nodded and walked back to her. "It's okay, he's a friend." She whispered to the girl as she handed her to Angel. Angel wrapped his arms around the child and even though she didn't really know him she also wrapped her arms around his neck like she did with her mother. "I'll be down in a minute." Buffy told them and Angel nodded then looked at the child.
"Hey, if you smile I'll give you some ice cream. You like that?" The little girl looked at the stranger and smiled as she nodded her head.
"Yeah," she told him and he smiled back at her.
"That's a good girl." He said as he left the room. Buffy watched them go and she couldn't help but smile also as she got up to change.
Chapter 7
It was getting too crowded at Wolfram and Hart so everyone headed back to the hotel. Buffy was upstairs in her room reading a book while Emily was sleeping next to her. Buffy was stroking her hair when she heard someone knock and she looked up to see Angel. She smiled at him. "Hey, come in." She whispered so she wouldn't wake up Emily. He smiled at her and sat on the edge of the bed as she put her book away.
"Is this a bad time?" Buffy shook her head.
"No, I finally got her to sleep. Poor thing was exhausted." Angel nodded and looked at Buffy as she was stroking her daughter's hair.
"So, you have a kid?" Buffy smiled at him.
"What gave it away?" Angel shrugged.
"Well, everyone was pretty surprised when they found out. I definitely didn't expect it." He said as he looked at Emily. "She's pretty cute." Buffy nodded and looked at her daughter.
"She's my everything." She said as she kissed her on the forehead, hoping not to wake her up.
"I guess it's true when they say you never know how much you love something until it's gone." Angel said, more to himself than Buffy.
"Are you okay? You seem sad all of a sudden." Buffy wondered and he looked at her and gave her a smile.
"I'm fine, it's nothing." Buffy nodded then looked back at him.
"I'm sorry about Cordelia. I know how much she meant to you." Angel nodded.
"It's okay, I'm dealing." It was hard for Angel when Cordelia fell into a coma and he always hoped that she would regain consciousness, but there were complications and she died a few years ago. It was hard for Angel along with everyone else. She would truly be missed. He was still dealing with the fact that he gave his son away; of course he would be the only one that would remember. He just hoped that wherever Connor was, he would be happy. That's all he ever wanted for him. "So, I guess you still don't want to talk about who the father is." Buffy shook her head.
"Not right now, it's too hard." Angel nodded.
"I understand, do Dawn and the others know?" Buffy nodded also.
"Of course, it would have been hard keeping it from them. They were with me through everything and I don't know what I would do without them." Angel nodded accepting her answer, even though he wished he could have been there for her. "So, how has Spike been really holding up after all this time? You know with being human and all." Angel shrugged.
"It was hard for him at first, but he's adjusting and I think he's doing better. It just takes time." Buffy looked down and then back at Angel trying not to cry.
"I should have been here for him. He got sent back as a human after saving the world and he had to go through so much and I wasn't here to help him with it. I just took off to Cleveland the first chance I got without even thinking about how it would affect him. That's how it always is, isn't it? Things get tough and I run away, some things will never change." Buffy stated as the tears slowly flowed down her face. Angel touched her face gently.
"You only did what you thought was right. You both needed some time apart to think about things." Buffy looked at him.
"Yeah, but four years apart. I could have visited or called more, but I didn't. I was just so scared about him finding out about Emily that I couldn't even manage to contact him. I went and started this whole new family without him even knowing. I couldn't tell him because I was afraid he would hate me." Angel brushed hair out of her face.
"He doesn't hate you, Buffy. He could never hate you. You are still all he talks about and I know you two can get through this. You're here now and that's all that matters." Angel told her, trying to make her feel better. She just put her face in her hands and continued to cry. Angel hugged her to him and let her cry on him. She then pulled away and looked at him. She was about to say something when she felt Emily move next to her and knew she was waking up.
"Mommy," the little girl said.
"I'm here, baby." Buffy said as she lifted her daughter up and put her on her lap. The little girl then wrapped her arms around her mother's neck and started to cry. "Shhhhhh, it's okay sweetie. You had another bad dream?" Buffy felt Emily nod and she just rocked her back and forth to calm her down. Angel got up and headed to the door.
"I guess I should head back down." He stated.
"Angel, do you think you can take her to Dawn while I change?" Angel nodded and walked back to her. "It's okay, he's a friend." She whispered to the girl as she handed her to Angel. Angel wrapped his arms around the child and even though she didn't really know him she also wrapped her arms around his neck like she did with her mother. "I'll be down in a minute." Buffy told them and Angel nodded then looked at the child.
"Hey, if you smile I'll give you some ice cream. You like that?" The little girl looked at the stranger and smiled as she nodded her head.
"Yeah," she told him and he smiled back at her.
"That's a good girl." He said as he left the room. Buffy watched them go and she couldn't help but smile also as she got up to change.
