When you see * * use like " " this mean one of the characters is thinking this. ++ From my life++. Means what it says.

Living in Pain
Ch.1 "So five years ago you made your way into a bath house for spirits. And.." repeated the shrink, Dr. Koaskie. *Why is he repeating what I just said? (Chihiro)* "Yes, that is what I said". The doctor sits back in his chair and just stares at Chihiro. "But that does not explain why you are exiling yourself, Chihiro." *The guy has like a 7 year diploma, yet he is so dense. (Chihiro)* "I miss my friends". "But you could make new ones". "That is true, but why would I make friends with people I don't relate to"? "Good point. You could just be not searching hard enough". "Them me as a question, do you think I don't want to find friend, that I enjoy not being able to talk to someone. To not be able to share my problems; and if you say you can be that person, your wrong. I want to some one closer to my age or at least act my age". "I see". He scribbles something on his stack of papers and stand-up. "Well, Miss Chihiro, I can't wait to hear what you have to say at are next appointment. Have a nice day", and with that he escorts her out of his office.

Later that day, after dinner, Chihiro and her parents sit in the living room "discussing" the notes from Dr. Koaskie. +"See, Yugo, I knew she was a nut case! It's probable from you giving into her over sensitivity"! Chihiro starts to cry but is forced to stop. "Stop you crying, or I'll really give you something to cry about"! Chihiro tries to stop crying but can't control her churning emotions. + From my life++ 'SLAP'
"Stop"! His yelling and bruises only add to her urge to cry. While
Chihiro took beating after beating, Chihiro's mother just stared in
shock. After she saw a drop of ruby blood, she ran for the phone, and
dialed for the police. Once Akio saw what his wife was doing he drops
his grasp of Chihiro and stomped his way over to his wife. Chihiro
could take this chance and run but she loved her mother to much. *I
can't leave her. (Chihiro)*
"Chihiro RUN, RUN," screams Yugo! Yugo drops the phone and runs to
the front door. Her father decides to forget about his wife
rebellious act, and go back to punishing Chihiro. *Run. (Chihiro
screams to herself)* With excruciating pain she leaps across the room
and out the back door. *RUN, RUN, RUN. (Chihiro)* Chihiro runs with
all her strength, yet even that is not enough.
"You little bitch," yells the monster she once knew as Father. Some
where along the chase, he picks-up a fallen limb. In one swift swing
he connects the thick with Chihiro's lowers back. With the force and
the pain of the rough bark, Chihiro rolling down the steep hill
outside their house. With the help of a sturdy tree she comes to a
halt. During the short time it takes for the monster to follow the
destructive path to Chihiro, he lets go all the consequences that
might happen and let all of his rage and anger be released with what
he will do next. +All the while Chihiro lays were she landed felling
the pain of every scratch and bruise, both physical and emotional. +
From my life++ *Please, oh God, I don't want to die. I want to see
Haku just one more time. I want to have my first real kiss. I want to
know what it feels like to lay down next to a guy. next to Haku.
(Chihiro)* While she in visions Hakue's face a steady stream of salty
tears glide down her cheek and into her cuts. *Chihiro get up.
(Chihiro conscience)* With a new found source of energy she finds a
limb to , match the monster's in size and in weight. With strength
she never had, she swings and aims for the monsters head. She kneels
on the ground to catch her breath, looks at his motionless body.
"MMMRRR," he murmurs in pain.
Chihiro stager up and run with fear coursing through her veins. She
runs with no destination set in her mind. She just runs. When she
can't run anymore she clings to a boulder for support for exosted
body. *What do I do? (Chihiro)* She pulls her face to look at the
rock and notice its design. The small smiling creature that used to
mean foreboding now meant refuge. She looks up to see the dark
tunnel. Slowly she stumbles her way in. Using the cool walls for
support she makes her way through. She sits down on one of the
benches inside the abandoned train station. *What am I doing here? He
probable won't even recognize me. What if he doesn't love me? What if
he never did love me?... I have no where else to go though. No friends
and a mother that probable will hate me, because I messed up our
lives. (Chihiro)*
With what little strength left in her tired body, she walks out to see
the world she oh so missed. Over tall hills she makes her way to the,
what will soon be river. But all her strength is gone. She slips and
falls causing her to land on her ankle in a painful position. With the
surge of new pain she gives-up and lets all her pain, in one piercing
scream, free.
"AHHHHH".

A/N I have no been hurt by my father like in the story he has hit me.
The character Dr. Koaskie is a real doctor he is my shrink and he said
writing may help me release some of my depression so I wrote this. I
am not a person that wears black and is so sad all the time. I'm just
"overly sensitive" as people put it. Like the song "I'm sensitive and
I'd like to stay that way".