True Feelings revealed

By: Haruka-chan

AN: Ok I'm a new fan of Nightwalker so I really don't know much other then what I saw in the show. In this fic it's gonna be like this. Shido is confused about his feelings for Cain and the other that surround him. He is also feeling guilty about turning Riho in to a vampire, and is confused about their current relationship and Riho is having strange dreams, and the gang thinks that it's Cain. K now that we cleared that out let's start with the same codes cuz of my mest up computer. ^_^ and also this is written so you all know who everyone is and what is going. I don't own Nightwalker!

"..."- Meaning Character Conversations

*...*- Meaning Character Thoughts

***...***- Meaning Character Dreams

~*...*~- Meaning Character is rethinking something another Character had said before

To become one...Chapter 8

Last Time...

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"What is happening?" She asked in a whisper. "I don't know" he said caressing her face. Riho closed her eyes. "This wasn't supposed to happen" she said. Shido nodded. "You love him, then why did you continue?" asked Riho looking up at Shido. Shido looked down at her, if he was to be honest he never felt the way he did moment ago with Cain, the need and longing he had for her. "I don't know, maybe I never loved him" Shido whispered. Riho Stepped forward and placed her head on his chest. "You do...your just confused" she said. "Why are you trying to convince me that I do?" he asked stroking her hair. "Because you do I saw it on your face" she said. Shido shook his head. "What do we do now?" asked Riho. "I guess we are now on Cain's bad side" said Shido. Riho yawned and nodded. "I will let you rest" he said steeping back. Riho looked towards her bed. "Stay" she whispered unsure. "Huh?" he asked confused. "Stay with me" she said. As much she wanted to say she wasn't afraid she was, and for some reason she wanted him to be there, his closeness comforted her. Shido looked unsure but nodded. "Very well" he whispered as he kissed her fore head. Riho blushed "I need to change" she whispered. He nodded and turned. Riho stripped and pulled on her slip. She looked at him and smile. What an ironic twist of fate it was.

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She laid next to him, staring in to his green-blue eyes. "Why?" she asked suddenly. "Why? What?" he asked. "Why did you give up your life?" she asked. His eyes went to look at the blue silk sheets. "I...I still don't understand why I did what he told me...why he came after me" he whispered. She placed a hand on his cheek, which he took and kissed the palm. "You were put under a spell" she said. He looked at her. "A spell?" he asked. She nodded and then sighed. He watched as her hands moved around and pair of cards were right above them, they were beautiful cards, with different pictures on them. "This was my mothers tarot deck" she whispered. He could hear the pain in her voice. She moved her hands more, which made the cards, shuffle and then they were lined up, and the back cover was to them. She flipped the first card, which was a card with a heart being stabbed with three swords. "Deception, and betrayal, he tricked you in to believing everyone you cared for was gone, but now they really are gone. He weakened your heart" she said. "This card means that you have been betrayed or deceived. Although this is very painful and can make you reproach yourself for having been so trusting, you will eventually able to move beyond the situation" Riho finished. She flipped another card, which had a young boy on a cliff that wasn't stable, and under it read THE FOOL. She chuckled "The fool what a wonder card you have landed on" she said. "Yes, I never seem to leave that one behind" he said. She smiled.

She flipped the other cards and they were in order to 1-7. "The first is the past influence, the second is the present, the third is the hidden influence, the fourth is obstacles, the fifth is outside influence, the sixth is the best course of action and finally the seventh is the outcome" She said. "how true they are" he said. "You have two more card left" Shido said. Riho's brows were furrowed together. "I don't wish to see those two" she said. "Why not?" he asked. She shook her head, and then moved her fingers to turn them over. "the lovers, and the wheel of fortune" she said. He could tell that something was wrong. "What is wrong with those two cards?" he asked. "Love the strong fulfilling emotion, and wheel of fortune which suggests that nothing last forever, this two combined might as well be death" stated Riho. She waved her hand and the cards disappeared. Shido stared at the fabric of the canopy which the light of the fire making the silk shine and refract light. She eyes traveled to where his was. She came closer and placed her head on his chest. He looked down at her. "Why did you leave him?" she asked. "After I saw your face I felt weak...as if there was nothing for me to live for...as if my conscious came back to me" he said. "The spell was broken" she whispered. "I suppose so" he said. She was quite enjoying the feeling of his skin on hers. She never has been this close to another man before, which added to her restlessness and fear. He smiled looking down at her, she didn't have to do anything for him to come to her. "Why did you ask me to stay?" he asked suddenly.

She pulled away, her hair falling over her shoulder over her bosom. His eyes just swiped the full picture of her, as she sat up with the white slip capturing the fires dance, her hair adding to the celebration of her beauty, her cream skin now a gold color and her blue eyes intense with her small full lips. He wondered what a painter wouldn't do to paint her portrait. He smiled. "To be honest with you, I really don't know why...I feel comfort around you" she said looking away as a crimson shad came over her cheek. Shido sat up behind her and kissed her shoulder, which earned him a gasp. "I feel strangely alive with you" he whispered. She turned to face him once more and this time it wasn't the blood that started the magnetism of their lips, it was sheer passion. Shido's lips lightly brushed hers. She kissed back and the kiss deepened, soon Shido's tongue speared down into her mouth causing her to moan. The need he felt from her was even greater then the once he felt for blood. She slowly pushed him down on to the bed, she on top. His moans mixed and mingled with hers creating a song for forbidden lovers. It was all about sensation and sense of touch. His hands on her shoulders then moving slowly down to her arms and then her hands, fingers lacing creating a bond that would always be there yet disappear.

She shuddered as he ran his mouth down the length of her neck, feeling hot and cold at the same time. Unsure of what to do, she sat perfectly still, waiting for him to show her what he wanted of her. She slid an arm around his waist for balance as he reached up to take the clip out of her hair. It tumbled over her shoulders and down her waist to make a small pile on the sheets. He ran his hands through the tresses, enjoying the silky slide of it on his skin. "You have such beautiful hair," he said softly, gathering it back from her face. He leaned down to kiss her again and she met him halfway. He teased at her lower lip with his tongue, she pulled away for a second as if to think over where this was going, but soon found herself like where it was going, if just for one night she could be happy as she use to be then she will endure any pain and sorrow that will come her way. He brought his mouth to hers again, this time gently nibbling at her lips. She gasped and he took advantage of the opportunity to tease the inside of her mouth with his tongue. She shivered at the feeling of his tongue in her mouth. Shido ran one hand up and down her back in a soothing motion. Finding the catches at the top of the slip, he began to undo them slowly, all the while gently kissing her. Shido put his hands on her shoulders and pulled back. She eyed him, worried that she had done something wrong.

"What is wrong?" she asked. "We...I shouldn't" he whispered. She pulled him close and brushed his lips against hers. "Just for one night can we forget everything and just be happy?" asked Riho. Shido was quite surprised to hear this from the one who has been trying to kill him and his ex-lover. Was here almost half naked tell him that it was all right to be happy just for one night? Yes, Fate was a sick joke. He nodded softly. He reached out and drew her to him, and gave her a deep, passionate kiss. She responded ardently, actually grabbing his shoulders. Shido lowered her down onto the bed, never breaking the kiss. He went to work on her slip. The tiny little buttons running down the back were a challenge, and he was tempted to just rip them off, but he knew that would scare her. He was surprised to realize how much he wanted her. Patiently, he undid each button until the slip was loose enough to be slipped off. But he waited, wanting to go slowly. He unbuttoned his dress shirt and it joined the jacket crumpled on the floor. Riho was astonished to see the muscles rippling on his lean form. She wanted to touch them, but was unsure as to if she should or not. Shido took her hands and pressed them to his stomach. She ran her hands over his chest, stopping when he inhaled sharply. He merely smiled and urged her to continue. She was surprised by the softness of his skin. It was like nothing she had ever felt before. Even the finest satin didn't compare. She slid her hands across his broad shoulders and down his back, ending at his waist.

Shido reached for her and she didn't resist. He pushed down the top of her slip, baring her slim shoulders and brushing soft little kisses on her skin. Riho shuddered as he continued, running his mouth down the curve of her spine and back up again. Her breathing was jerky, at best, and she couldn't believe how he was making her feel. He smiled, glad that she was able to respond. He had hoped to make this as pleasurable an experience for her as he could, given his own inexperience with women. Riho's eyes were half-lidded as she looked at him. He pushed the slip down farther, revealing her breasts. Now she blushed and moved to cover herself. "No," Shido said, catching her hands. "Don't. You're so beautiful." She blushed again. No one had ever seen her in such a manner. He pulled her to him, resting her head on his shoulder. She gasped at the contact between their bare skin, and her nipples hardened as they brushed against his chest. He reached up to cup them in his hands, running his thumbs across her nipples. She shivered and her head fell back. Shido used the opportunity to feather kisses down her throat. He laid her back down onto the bed and stretched out next to her, still teasing her nipples. He took one hardened peak into his mouth and suckled gently. Riho gasped aloud, arching her back. He slipped an arm under her back to hold her closer as he continued, paying equal attention to both breasts. Then he trailed kisses down the plain of her stomach, pushing her slip aside as he went.

Shido paused to catch his breath, which was ironic to him because his kind didn't need to breath. His pants were uncomfortably tight and he was beginning to feel a bit warm. He swept aside her slip, and it slid down onto the carpet beside the bed. Riho watched him with heavy eyes, waiting to see what he would do next. He came to kiss her again and she wrapped her arms around his neck, burying her fingers in his hair. She sighed, never having expected that he would make her feel this way. All that remained was a pair of lacy white panties. [AN: I know back then they probably didn't have panties but they do in this story] Shido ignored them for the moment and kissed his way up to her breasts again. He flicked the hard nubs with his tongue, making her squirm against him. He slid one hand down to rest against her mound and she stiffened. "Strange how you make me feel" he whispered into her ear, nibbling on the lobe. She slowly relaxed, and he reached inside to touch her. She whimpered as he ran one finger between her folds to explore her most private place. He kissed her slowly and thoroughly, distracting her from what he was doing. He found her clitoris and began to gently stroke it. She gasped, straining toward him. "Shido…" He smiled, glad to see that she was enjoying his ministrations, not to mention his name without 'Lord' or any kind of title, just his name on her lips. He continued to rub her, feeling a sudden wetness against his finger. He slid his finger into her passage and moved it around. She was tight, but that was to be expected. He moved a second finger to join the first, attempting to gauge the width. He looked up at her face; her eyes were closed tightly and she was panting rapidly. He continued to move his fingers in and out as he rubbed her button. Soon she was arching to him.

"Shido!" she moaned as she began to spasm. Her eyes rolled back as she felt wave after wave of pleasure rush over her. Riho couldn't think, couldn't even breathe. All she could do was surrender to the sensations he was producing. She barely even noticed when he removed her underwear and his pants and moved over her. Shido could barely contain himself. Every fiber of his body was demanding the release he had just given to her. He took his straining organ in his hand and rubbed it against her opening, wetting it with her juices. She tensed a bit as he slowly entered her, then tried to relax as he continued in. He paused when he encountered her barrier. He captured her mouth for a long, hot kiss and thrust forward. She let out a small scream that was smothered by his lips and tears welled up in her eyes. He held perfectly still, though it took all of his self-control. He kissed the crystal teardrops that had escaped to roll down the sides of her face and whispered reassurances into her ear. When the pain faded from her eyes, he began to move gently, giving her time to adjust. He gritted his teeth in an effort to maintain control but it wasn't easy when she started to move to meet him. "Oh, god….Riho…," he ground out as she wrapped her legs around his hips, bringing him deeper inside of her. Her head fell back and they were both breathing in shallow gasps. Unable to help himself, Shido began to move faster, feeling his orgasm building. It hit him violently, and he thrust deeply into her, flooding her with his seed. She let out a strangled scream, digging her fingernails into his upper arms and he realized that she had gone over the edge with him. Spent, he collapsed on top of her.

It was several minutes before either of them could speak. Shido brushed the damp hair away from Riho's sweaty face and whispered, "Are you all right?" Her eyelashes fluttered as she attempted to open her eyes. "Hmm?" She managed to focus on his face. "Shido? I - I never thought…it would be like this…" She trailed off, exhausted. Shido chuckled and pressed a soft kiss to her forehead. "Neither did I" he whispered. He rolled off of her and pulled her next to him. "I wish this moment would just freeze" she whispered. Shido nodded. "But why should it be the only time?" he asked. She looked up at him and smiled. "No, it shouldn't be the only time" she whispered, before he captured her lips once more. Yes, this was the most ironic picture to anyone's mind. But the question now was will it last, will the feelings and emotions be there in the morning? in a week? In a month? in a year? Forever? Because that is what they both were forever, each bound to another in a tangle of love, hate, and duty. The moans and gasp of their love was beautiful for them, it was a memory, a time that forever be frozen in their minds, and hearts.

She a goddess, he a vampire, two that shouldn't mix like vinegar and oil. Yet they were like sugar and water, they matched so well not when they were separated can't they be what they were once? Somewhere in the back of her mind she knew that the lovers and the wheel of fortune was to be their fate, full of so much meaning yet nothing at all there. The empty void that had nothing there yet it took up space.

TBC

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AN: Lemon part one! Yes, school is finally over. yesterday was the last day one of more exam on Thursday and I'm free for the summer, well other then the fact I still have to study and get myself ready for college and have to work and all that stuff. Now the chapters will come a little faster then usual. I hope you guys like this chapter. I know it was a quickie, but the Lemon part 2 will 10x better then this one. I promise. Anyway the usual sorry about grammar and spelling not my strongest points. Pleasezzzzzzzzzzz review. I don't care if it's lame or stupid or any of that stuff just review. Makes me feel good when you guys do. Thanks to all those who have! ^_^ see ya