Disclaimer: I don't own AMA or any of the characters.

A/N: Okay, I'm revising this story and making a few changes here and there, and correcting some my grammer and spelling errors. I'm also lowering the rating, for obvious reasons. I want to take this time to thank Summoner Ami-chan, whose story Grin Of Desire inspired me to write this, and Vicc Sawyer who e-mailed me. I would also like to apologize to any reader whom I may have disappointed. Well I'll shut up and let you read now. Enjoy!
By the way ~ means the character is thinking.



Alice sat by the window in her room at the asylum watching two birds building a nest.

~How cute. Reminds me of that screaming bird back in Wonderland. I ate a piece of mushroom and grew quite large and scared her. She accused me of being a serpent. ~

Alice smiled at the fond memory, then sighed sadly. It had been two weeks since her victory over the red queen and was slowly starting to gain back her sanity. However, she found herself missing Wonderland.

~I felt more at home in Wonderland than I ever will here. Even if I do become sane, I'll be feared, shunned, and hated. Whereas in Wonderland everyone would most likely say `welcome home Alice! ` And smother me in hugs and kisses and beg me to stay and never leave again. Especially White Rabbit and Cheshire Puss. ~

Alice found herself wondering about the feline who spoke in riddle and helped her in the fight against the queen's armies.

~And what of you Cheshire? How are you and the rest of Wonderland faring? Are you missing me much as I miss you, or do you no longer need me? You most likely don't now that Wonderland is free. ~

Alice found herself on the verge of tears. She feared being forgotten and having to spend the rest of her life alone in the asylum.

~I want to go back to Wonderland! I don't want to be all alone! ~ Alice thought miserably.

She was taken out of her thoughts by a knock on her door.

"Come in." Alice said weakly wiping away tears.

The door opened and Alice's new nurse Mandy came in holding something behind her back.

"Alice, I have something for you." Mandy said in her friendly voice.

"Oh really? What is it?" Alice asked curiously.

Mandy giggled and handed Alice her old toy rabbit.

"I thought you might like to have this Alice. I know it must mean a lot to you." Mandy said.

Alice was speechless for a moment and the tears that threatened to roll down began to take their toll.

"Tha…Thank you Mandy." Alice said clutching the toy that had been taken away from her years ago.

Mandy smiled and gave Alice a kiss on the forehead.

"You're welcome child. Now try to get some rest, you have an appointment with Doctor Diaz in the morning." Mandy said.

Alice nodded and headed for bed when a question popped into her head.

"Mandy. Can I ask you something?" Alice said.

"Of course dear, what is it?" Mandy asked.

"Well, what happened to my other nurse D? Did she get fired or something?" Alice asked a glint of hope in her voice.

Mandy had a look of pure disgust on her face at the mention of nurse D.

"Yes, she did Alice. She was finally caught mistreating you two weeks ago while you were in a deep sleep. To be honest I'm glad. She finally got what she deserved, but let's not talk about that bitch anymore okay?" Mandy said.

Alice smiled and nodded. She laid down in her bed and after wishing Mandy goodnight, she fell into a calm, peaceful sleep with her rabbit.

Meanwhile back in Wonderland the Cheshire cat was watching Alice through a looking glass he had. He smiled at the sight of her sleeping so peacefully.

~Alice, dear Alice. If you only knew how much we all miss you. How much I miss you.~

He sighed sadly as Alice's image faded to reveal his own teary eyed reflection. He knew he should be happy now that Wonderland was free. Sure he was relieved, but the truth was that ever since Alice left, he had been miserable.

~Why do I feel this way? I knew Alice would go back after killing the queen, so why do I feel so miserable? ~

~Maybe because you love her you mangy cat!~

Cheshire gasped in shock at this sudden realization, but he knew it was true. He had fallen in love with Alice during the fight to save Wonderland.

~Alice, how did I grow to love you? Sure, I always knew that I cared about you but, I never thought I would actually fall in love with you.~

Tears began to stream down Cheshire's face. He didn't bother to wipe them away.

~What's the point? Fresh ones will just appear in their place.~ Cheshire thought bitterly.

"Cheshire ol boy, why so glum? You usually have a big ol grin plastered on your face? What's the matter?" White Rabbit asked concern evident in his voice as he hopped up to Cheshire.

"I miss her." Cheshire said. He turned his head to reveal his tear stained face and bloodshot eyes.

"You love her, don't you Cheshire?" Rabbit asked making Cheshire blush a deep red and turn his away.

"How did you know? Is it that obvious?" Cheshire asked.

Rabbit sighed and adjusted his jacket.

"Cheshire, my friend. It's obvious you have fallen for Alice while she fought to save us. The way you were always rubbing against legs, the way you would purr uncontrollably whenever she would pet you, and the way you would stare at her while she slept. I maybe a tight ass when it comes to time but, I'm not blind Cheshire, and I 'm not stupid." Rabbit said.

"I never said you were Rabbit. I just, god I'd give anything to see her again!" Cheshire said.

He looked in the looking glass again and Alice's image had reappeared.

"I see they gave the toy rabbit back to her. Least they could have done." Rabbit said.

Cheshire nodded in agreement. New tears began to fall down his face. Rabbit handed Cheshire a napkin and he accepted it gratefully. Rabbit had been the only one to ever see Cheshire cry, other than Alice.

"Don't worry old chap. A very reliable source tells me that she wants to come back to Wonderland." Rabbit said hoping to cheer Cheshire up. He wasn't disappointed.

"Really? She wants to come back? To visit or to...." Cheshire's voice trailed off.

"Stay?" Rabbit said finishing the sentence for him.

"I'm not sure about that. Rest assured though, that I'll keep you informed." Rabbit said.

Cheshire smiled.

"You always do, Rabbit. Thank you." Cheshire said

"Don't mention it old friend. Now do try to get some rest, and for god's sake Cheshire, eat something! You need to get some meat back into those bones of yours!" Rabbit said.

"I will Rabbit. You must be late for something, as usual. I've delayed you long enough buddy. Go take care of your business, I'll see you soon." Cheshire said.

Rabbit hopped away. Cheshire sighed.

~ Oh Alice. I can't wait to see you again. I hope this time you'll stay for good.~

He saw some fish swimming in a near by lake and ran off to catch some to feed his starving and deprived body. Filled with new hope, he now wore the most sincere grin he ever had in his life.


A/N: Well, that the first chapter. R&R to tell me what you think.