Hey everyone! I was just going to leave this as a songfic but I decided to
continue because the reviews I got were all good. so ya. but whatever else
I add onto this will also be in sonfic form ( hehe.I know I have other
stories to update as well .I'll do so tho.and this one'll prolly be shorter
than the last.prolly suck too tho lmao. thanks to:
crazy4nc128 -hehe thanks man! And thanks for reviewing everything I write!! :D
DallysGirl4Life -hehe thanks a lot, and I'm glad you want me to continue!:D
Scarlett7 -Thanks a lot. I just really like the song and the outsiders of course so I decided to mix lmao! Well thanks a lot! :D
kimmerkay -I'm glad you're gunna keep reading! Thanks for reviewing yet another of my stories! Ur awesome! :D
And as always. I own nothing. Neither Outsiders nor Whisper by Evanescence
catch me as i fall
say you're here and it's all over now
speaking to the atmosphere
I can see Darry climbing. He has big muscles it's easy for him. But he's approaching I have to do something. I see Soda below me looking very worried.
I want to jump. I want to be caught. But then again I don't. I want it all to end. It won't be over until I'm gone. I have to do this. I want to feel the air rush around me. What other choice do I have?
no one's here and i fall into myself
this truth drives me into madness
i know i can stop the pain if i will it all away
No one's here I'm all alone. Well they're here I can see and hear them. Even Steve who had apparently crashed on our couch was out trying to convince me to come down. But I'm still alone. Except for those voices in my head.
"Jump Pony Jump!"
"No don't do it kid!"
"You're worthless and useless and stupid just do it!"
"You'll show them!"
They're driving me crazy. I want them to leave. But they won't. Not until they've achieved their mission. After all they speak the truth.
I can end it all. I can make this pain go away. It'll be easy. I'll will it away with one swift jump.
don't turn away
don't give in to the pain
don't try to hide
though they're screaming your name
It's too late now to turn back Pony. Don't turn away now. But I have to fight it. There's so much pain but I can't let it win. I'm a good person I can't let this happen. I have to face the pain instead of running.
I can hear them screaming my name now over the voices. Are they finally getting through? Do I really need to do this? They'll help me out. They care about me.
Who am I kidding? I'm no good person. And they don't care less. They just don't want a crime scene in their front yard. Or have to pay the money that will be involved with the funeral or hospital bills or whatever.
No but they do care, they do.
don't close your eyes
God knows what lies behind them
don't turn out the light
never sleep never die
I can't close my eyes. I know the voices will take over. I can't let them win. No I must keep them open and stay in control. Never sleeping, never closing my eyes for fear of what will come.
I must win, I must. So instead I look unto the ground below me.
i'm frightened by what i see
but somehow i know that there's much more to come
immobilized by my fear
and soon to be blinded by tears
i can stop the pain if i will it all away
It scares me. I'm scared of dying. I'm scared of jumping. I'm scared of what everyone else will think. But wait I'm crazy right?
I know that I must fear staying alive much more. I know that the pain I feel now is much greater. I need to get it over with. Just do it Pony please just do it.
I walk a little further onto the branch. I want to jump. But I'm so afraid. My legs won't move anymore. They're planted down. But why am I so afraid. This is what everyone wants. This is what is right.
I can feel warm tears start to drip down my face as I start to think straight for the first time in awhile. I can no longer see the people on the ground through my tears. Why am I crying?
But I can feel the branch start to wobble. Darry must be close.
don't turn away
don't give in to the pain
don't try to hide
though they're screaming your name
I know he's close. But I don't turn around. I don't look back. That would make me want to go back but there's no turning back now. This is it.
I can still hear them scream my name but it starts to become more and more faint as the voices become louder and louder. Now I can no longer hear them at all, only the voices in my head.
"Stop wasting time!"
"Don't do it! Don't do it!
"Get it over with all ready!"
"Just hurry the hell up. Ready one, two three!"
And I feel my feet leave the branch.
don't close your eyes
God knows what lies behind them
don't turn out the light
never sleep never die
The ground rushes closer and closer but actually very slowly. The spinning is making me sick. So I close my eyes. I'm stronger then them. I try to block out the voices. But I can't I'm not stronger than they are! I'm not!
"Good job Pony!"
"Look what you've done!"
"Now no one ever has to deal with you again!"
"That's right! You did the right thing!"
That silly one voice. It always tries to be the voice of reason. Does it not see its outnumbered and it isn't coming through.
Nothings coming through.
But wait, what's that. I can hear something over the voices. It's so loud it hurts. It's a siren. How long has it been there? Oh well. Pointless now. I'll be dead soon enough.
fallen angels at my feet
whispered voices at my ear
death before my eyes
lying next to me i fear
she beckons me shall i give in
upon my end shall i begin
I open my eyes as I see the end coming before me. I know heaven's near. I wonder if I'll see Johnny and Dally and Mom and Dad. I hope so.
"You're not going to heaven!"
"There's always a chance Pony. You're a good boy!"
"There's no chance! Look at all the harm you've done!"
"You're going to helllllll! You're going to helllllll!"
I see my death now fast approaching. I do the only thing I can think of. The first good thing I've done in awhile. I finally find my voice for the first time in a long time. "I'm sorry!" I yell and my voice fades in the distance.
forsaking all i've fallen for i rise to meet the end
It's coming. The end is coming. Is this it? Is this the end of Ponyboy Curtis? I see a fruit fly pass in the distance. Lucky bastard.
crazy4nc128 -hehe thanks man! And thanks for reviewing everything I write!! :D
DallysGirl4Life -hehe thanks a lot, and I'm glad you want me to continue!:D
Scarlett7 -Thanks a lot. I just really like the song and the outsiders of course so I decided to mix lmao! Well thanks a lot! :D
kimmerkay -I'm glad you're gunna keep reading! Thanks for reviewing yet another of my stories! Ur awesome! :D
And as always. I own nothing. Neither Outsiders nor Whisper by Evanescence
catch me as i fall
say you're here and it's all over now
speaking to the atmosphere
I can see Darry climbing. He has big muscles it's easy for him. But he's approaching I have to do something. I see Soda below me looking very worried.
I want to jump. I want to be caught. But then again I don't. I want it all to end. It won't be over until I'm gone. I have to do this. I want to feel the air rush around me. What other choice do I have?
no one's here and i fall into myself
this truth drives me into madness
i know i can stop the pain if i will it all away
No one's here I'm all alone. Well they're here I can see and hear them. Even Steve who had apparently crashed on our couch was out trying to convince me to come down. But I'm still alone. Except for those voices in my head.
"Jump Pony Jump!"
"No don't do it kid!"
"You're worthless and useless and stupid just do it!"
"You'll show them!"
They're driving me crazy. I want them to leave. But they won't. Not until they've achieved their mission. After all they speak the truth.
I can end it all. I can make this pain go away. It'll be easy. I'll will it away with one swift jump.
don't turn away
don't give in to the pain
don't try to hide
though they're screaming your name
It's too late now to turn back Pony. Don't turn away now. But I have to fight it. There's so much pain but I can't let it win. I'm a good person I can't let this happen. I have to face the pain instead of running.
I can hear them screaming my name now over the voices. Are they finally getting through? Do I really need to do this? They'll help me out. They care about me.
Who am I kidding? I'm no good person. And they don't care less. They just don't want a crime scene in their front yard. Or have to pay the money that will be involved with the funeral or hospital bills or whatever.
No but they do care, they do.
don't close your eyes
God knows what lies behind them
don't turn out the light
never sleep never die
I can't close my eyes. I know the voices will take over. I can't let them win. No I must keep them open and stay in control. Never sleeping, never closing my eyes for fear of what will come.
I must win, I must. So instead I look unto the ground below me.
i'm frightened by what i see
but somehow i know that there's much more to come
immobilized by my fear
and soon to be blinded by tears
i can stop the pain if i will it all away
It scares me. I'm scared of dying. I'm scared of jumping. I'm scared of what everyone else will think. But wait I'm crazy right?
I know that I must fear staying alive much more. I know that the pain I feel now is much greater. I need to get it over with. Just do it Pony please just do it.
I walk a little further onto the branch. I want to jump. But I'm so afraid. My legs won't move anymore. They're planted down. But why am I so afraid. This is what everyone wants. This is what is right.
I can feel warm tears start to drip down my face as I start to think straight for the first time in awhile. I can no longer see the people on the ground through my tears. Why am I crying?
But I can feel the branch start to wobble. Darry must be close.
don't turn away
don't give in to the pain
don't try to hide
though they're screaming your name
I know he's close. But I don't turn around. I don't look back. That would make me want to go back but there's no turning back now. This is it.
I can still hear them scream my name but it starts to become more and more faint as the voices become louder and louder. Now I can no longer hear them at all, only the voices in my head.
"Stop wasting time!"
"Don't do it! Don't do it!
"Get it over with all ready!"
"Just hurry the hell up. Ready one, two three!"
And I feel my feet leave the branch.
don't close your eyes
God knows what lies behind them
don't turn out the light
never sleep never die
The ground rushes closer and closer but actually very slowly. The spinning is making me sick. So I close my eyes. I'm stronger then them. I try to block out the voices. But I can't I'm not stronger than they are! I'm not!
"Good job Pony!"
"Look what you've done!"
"Now no one ever has to deal with you again!"
"That's right! You did the right thing!"
That silly one voice. It always tries to be the voice of reason. Does it not see its outnumbered and it isn't coming through.
Nothings coming through.
But wait, what's that. I can hear something over the voices. It's so loud it hurts. It's a siren. How long has it been there? Oh well. Pointless now. I'll be dead soon enough.
fallen angels at my feet
whispered voices at my ear
death before my eyes
lying next to me i fear
she beckons me shall i give in
upon my end shall i begin
I open my eyes as I see the end coming before me. I know heaven's near. I wonder if I'll see Johnny and Dally and Mom and Dad. I hope so.
"You're not going to heaven!"
"There's always a chance Pony. You're a good boy!"
"There's no chance! Look at all the harm you've done!"
"You're going to helllllll! You're going to helllllll!"
I see my death now fast approaching. I do the only thing I can think of. The first good thing I've done in awhile. I finally find my voice for the first time in a long time. "I'm sorry!" I yell and my voice fades in the distance.
forsaking all i've fallen for i rise to meet the end
It's coming. The end is coming. Is this it? Is this the end of Ponyboy Curtis? I see a fruit fly pass in the distance. Lucky bastard.
