Chapter 8- Broken forever

Lavender and Pavarti jumping on her bed waked Hermione up that morning.

"Come on Hermi!! Wakie Wakie!! It's already noon and your still sleeping!!" exclaimed Lavender. Hermione suddenly sprung up. Oh no! I would be late for classes! She thought, but then she suddenly remembered that it was Saturday. She let out a sigh of relief of it being the weekend.

"Good! You're awake! Now get dress! The boys are waiting for us downstairs! Its Hogsmeade weekend remember?" said Pavarti. Hermione let out a groan. She forgot that it was their first trip to Hogsmeade, and she didn't want to go see RON with HER! But then Hermione decided to go anyways… she didn't want to leave Dean all by himself.

Hermione got up and got dressed. After that, she putted on a pair of socks, and slipped on her shoes. She checked in the mirror to see if she looked decent, and then ran downstairs to meet the others.

"You were sleeping all this time?" asked Harry. Hermione nodded and walked over to Dean. She put on her best smile and "Hi." Dean smiled back at her and said,

"Good Morning." Then they all grew silent for a few minutes until Ron broke the silence.

"Well, I guess we better be off now before the carriages leave off without us," they all agreed and walked out of the portrait hole.

Once they got into Hogsmeade, they decided to go to Three Broomsticks for some butterbeer. Hermione felt very awkward around Dean, and she didn't know why. Maybe I made a mistake by going out with him, thought Hermione, I mean he is a really sweet guy and everything but I don't know. I really like Ron, and it feels weird going out with someone I don't like. Hermione's thoughts about Ron and Dean were swimming through her head when suddenly she heard Dean speak to her.

"Uhh… Hermione, are you okay?" He asked. Uh no! What am I going to say? I just can't say, yeah I'm perfectly fine; I'm just having second thoughts about our relationship and decided that I don't like you know more. But then she just decided not to say anything and just nodded 'yes'. She saw Ron looking at her, and when he saw her looking at him, he turned and started talking to Pavarti.

Dean and Hermione stayed quiet for a while. Man, I hate the quiet, thought Hermione. Then Dean suddenly spoke up,

"So…what did you do over the summer? Have any fun?" he asked. Hermione sat quite for a bit then answered,

"Umm… I visited a friend in Bul- I mean…some where," she replied. Oh no! This was the second time I was going to tell someone that I went to Bulgaria and visited Viktor! She told herself.

Not that visiting Viktor in Bulgaria was a bad thing, but what happened in Bulgaria Hermione was afraid to talk about. Dean looked at her confusingly and spoke up,

"What did you do in Bulgaria? Visited that Krum guy?" asked Dean. Hermione could tell that there was a hint of jealousy in his voice.

"Do you mind that we don't talk about my summer? How was yours?" Hermione wanted to change the subject so badly. She didn't want talk about what happened with Viktor and her. She was still sort of hurt by it. She looked at Dean and he looked slightly annoyed.

"Why? What happened?" asked Dean. Now Hermione could tell that he was very annoyed and confused at the same time. Hermione was on the verge of tears. Why won't he listen? She asked herself, I told him that I didn't want to talk about it and then he goes on asking me what happened! What is wrong with him? Can't he get it through his THICK skull that I didn't want to talk about it!?!?

Dean saw that Hermione's eyes were starting to water. Then he nervously put his arm around her shoulders and said,

"Never mind, don't worry about it. If you don't want to talk about it then that's fine with me." Then he gave her shoulder a reassuring squeeze. Hermione looked up at him, he smiled at him and she smiled at him. Then he suddenly looked away and said that he needed to go the restroom, and ran there. Hermione had a confused look on her face. Why did he always leave when she smiled at him? She asked herself, oh no! Was there something in my teeth? Hopefully not! He just probably had to go use the loo or something.

Then her eyes wandered to where Harry and Lavender were sitting. Her eyes widened to be surprised that they were already having their own snogging session! That meant that her and Dean would be doing this soon! She didn't mind kissing Dean, but then she didn't want her first kiss to be with someone she didn't like! She actually wanted to her first kiss to be with… Ron. But then Ron would never like her. Plus he was going out with Pavarti. And he really seems to like Pavarti.

Next, she looked over to see how Pavarti and Ron were doing. She was way more surprised and way more shocked when she saw them having their own little snogging session too! She was about to cry right there. Her heart, shattered, rip, torn, in other words, broken. She decided to look away from them and wiped her tears that were rolling down her cheeks.

She now knew that she shouldn't keep her hopes up anymore about Ron liking her. She was totally crushed and now they can't be anything more than 'best friends'. How silly of her that she thought her and Ron can go beyond that point. She never had loved any one else the way she loved Ron. She was afraid that she was now going to love Dean now.

About 3 minutes later, Dean came out of the restroom and started walking back towards Hermione. He apologized for leaving suddenly like that and asked if she wanted to take a walk. Hermione nodded 'yes'. She really wanted to get out of there. She couldn't stand seeing her ex-love and Pavarti snogging. Anyways, she wanted to spend time alone with her new boyfriend that she loves so dearly.

But did she really love him? Did she really want him as a boyfriend? Did she really want him to be her first kiss? Was she just saying that she loved Dean just to keep her mind off of Ron? All these questions were swarming around her head. She was getting really annoyed by all this thinking she was doing just over one silly crush. Was it just a silly crush?