Nameless Fear

By: Mya Avalon-Malfoy

They fear to speak your name Just thought you ought to know. I guess they believe that silly saying: 'If we don't say it, maybe he'll go.'

I thought you ought to know; they hate you. They won't forgive you for what you've done. This'll drive them, until they realize The end has already begun.

It began with the death of my innocence.

When you took me under your wing

I thought you an angel, a knight, a real friend In our little world you were king.

'The beginning of a beautiful friendship' I think that's what you said I believed you then, but now I can laugh. 'Friendship' Ha! You had been my end.

I didn't care you words offered artificial warmth; I was naïve enough to think them real. For I never fought when held under your trance I listened to you, too numb to feel.

Likewise you never noticed when I shivered From the caress of your wings of jet black But I followed you anyway, and from that first step; I realized there was no turning back.

Just thought you ought to know I waited for you In that cold chamber Were secrets hold true.

I thought you'd be proud That I'd waited so long But as I grew weaker Somehow you got strong

You told me to come And I followed blindly Unable to resist that voice That whispered to me kindly.

That gentle voice that talked to me Even when I could not hear But your name will never leave my lips You're what mum calls a nameless fear.

But they don't know you, not like I did Yet, you changed in the blink of an eye. I'm starting to think that they were the lucky ones. But if they were then. who am I?

Your words spun me in webs of lies And I believed them; every one. I was just a pawn in one of you little games Thought you ought to know: they weren't any fun.

The ink was like poison, spread across an empty page. Out of all those little comforting nothings, not one word was true Just thought you ought to know, I remember them all. But worst of all, I remember you.

I felt you slip away from me, All those times; so long ago. The boy was gone before I knew I was left here. All alone.

Trapped in a world without you. People. They rejoice at this fact. That you were finally gone But I knew that you'd come back.

You'd come back for me, just like you said. -- And what a cold reunion it'll be. I thought you ought to know: I'll be ready this time. What Was Never Yours ~ Ginny

AN: My first; also one of my first Gin/Tom fics since I've been converted. In reality it's a combo of a bunch of little poems, but, in a way, I think they kind of fit together. This is the result of weeks of scribbled napkins in the commons. Hope you enjoyed it. I wrote this before I changed my name again, so, don't fret: review!