Title: Lost in the Abyss
Author: ShadowChild
Summary: Harry does something that brings everyone to reevaluate how well they know him. He tries to kill himself. Only one person cares enough to find out why.
A/N Nuther chappie. I think we're nearing the end here folks but my new story should be out soon enough… it's not quite as angsty as this but I hope you like it…
That one breakthrough made Ginny so happy that she snuck down to the kitchens and Dobby gave her a cake that she shared with Luke who loved it.
She and Luke visited Harry everyday and every once in awhile he'd twitch or almost open his eyes. It was finally as if he was trying to fight the force holding him.
Harry was worse than miserable. After finding his parents his heart had leapt into his throat and he'd ran up stairs to where Luke was asleep in his crib and found that the baby boy was not breathing. Harry had fallen to his knees and started to sob. He wasn't sure for how long he knelt on the floor of his baby brother's room. At some point a group of wizards came in. He didn't know any of them.
They didn't seem to know what to do with him, it seemed that Sirius and Remus had been attacked also. When Harry heard that he started to bawl again and a medi-wizard gave him a sedative.
When he'd awoken he hadn't known where he was. He thought he'd been there before but the nurse standing over him was someone he didn't recognize.
"Hello there Mr. Potter. I am Madame Pomfrey. You are at Hogwarts. Professor Dumbledore thought this would be best since classes start next week."
Harry had nodded feeling sluggish and drowsy. When he awoke again he felt better and he sat up. When Madame Pomfrey came back he asked her,
"Where will I live in the summer?"
"It's not for me to say but I believe you will be living with your mother's sister." Harry flinched. His mother had not liked her sister he was sure of that. One time he'd heard her call his aunt,
"A giraffe cross bred with a beaver."
It was nearly Christmas. The school was decorated and most of the students were home. On December 23rd Luke and Ginny were walking to the Great Hall when someone rushed past them then stopped. It was Dumbledore.
"Oh Ginny, I was looking for you. And is this Luke? Pleased to meet you young man." He shook Luke's hand hurriedly as he continued, "Ginny there is an emergency. Voldemort and his death-eaters are going to attack the castle." Ginny nodded knowing what he wanted. She scooped up Luke and ran to the Hospital Wing. Luke struggled. It was late for dinner and he was hungry,
"Ginnee! Puta down! Gotta eat!"
"Sorry Kiddo we have to go get Harry." Luke's eyes brightened.
"Hawwy gonna wakie up?" he asked hopefully. Luke had not understood why his Harry was always 'seeping.'
"I hope so." she had Luke sit on an empty bed while she went to kneel next to Harry's bed.
"Harry you need to wake up now. Voldemort is attacking. That is not the only reason we need you. Luke misses you. He doesn't know why you won't wake up. I know you want to by now and it is time.
"Harry I know you think or at least you thought we, only need you to defeat Voldemort but that is not true. We all need you Harry, Hermione and Ron need you. I need you. Luke needs you c'mon Harry." Harry's eyes began to flicker
Harry was once again running through the blackness. There seemed to be a point of white on the horizon and he ran to it.
He ran and ran until he didn't think he could run anymore. Then the light seemed to enlarge. It engulfed him in a white wonderness. It was blinding but he was so happy he was going where he needed to be and it felt wonderful. He wanted to travel through the light. He swam through it and then he flew through it and then he opened his eyes.
His vision was blurry then Ginny sat his glasses on his nose. He sat up and smiled at her. She smiled back and he wondered why he'd never realized how beautiful she was before. Suddenly there was a weight on his lap and he looked down to see that Luke had crawled onto his lap.
"Hawwy! " He cried Harry held him closed blinking back the hot tears that wanted to come. "Hawwy wakie up!"
"That's right Luke." Harry looked at Ginny who also had tears in her eyes. "That's right." He sat Luke down remembering what he must do. He stood and Ginny handed him his wand. He met her eyes and whispered "thank you." he felt his face drawing magnetically nearer to hers and their lips met in a warm, passionate kiss. When they drew apart Ginny whispered,
"You're welcome." Harry ran out of the room knowing that he had something that he had to take care of himself. Ginny stood watching the door close behind him. The past moment seemed unreal. After everything she'd finally brought him back and she was so happy. Now who knew what would happen. Luke came over to her a worried look on his small face.
"Hawwy go bye, bye?" he asked. Ginny nodded holding back tears.
"Yes. But he'll be right back." Luke nodded solemnly satisfied.
Ginny did not know how long she waited with Luke in the hospital wing. Luke had gotten very cranky, he was hungry and then she knew he was very tired. He cried for a while and Ginny held him close, rocking him until he fell asleep. From around her she could the occasional scream or breaking window and she didn't know what was going on. At one point she put her head in her hands and cried out of fear.
The tears had just stopped coming when the door to the Hospital Wing creaked open. Ginny sat up then jumped to her feet as a pale, exhausted looking Harry came into the room. Ginny hugged him and he held her for a while then they both sat down on the bed Harry had occupied for a month.
"Oh, Harry I was so scared." She whispered so as not to awaken Luke. Harry smiled meekly.
"So was I."
"Is he gone?" Ginny asked worriedly. Harry nodded.
"Yes. Or at least he should be. I ran first to Dumbledore and he gave me this book. It was ancient and he told me that it was made by Merlin. When a person's archrival uses it on them and it is indeed a matter of finality, that is it is the final battle, they will be trapped in the book. The entire story of their life will be there but the person will never return."
"And you used that on Voldemort?" Harry nodded. "Wow Harry." Harry shrugged.
"I did what I needed to do." Ginny put her arms around him.
"Yes you did. All I care about is that you were here to do them." Harry smiled and kissed her again.
Once again the Wizarding World celebrated this time for the true vanquishment (a/n my word) of the Dark Lord. The students were called back to Hogwarts early to celebrate. Christmas Spirit was magnified. For that occasion the house fires were opened to the Floo network. Ron and Hermione came tumbling through the fire together. Hermione threw herself at Harry.
"Oh Harry I'm so sorry." Harry hugged her back a tear in his green eyes.
"That's okay Hermione. I owe you an apology too." Hermione let go and Ron came hesitantly over to Harry.
"Hey mate I just want to say," Harry put his hand up.
"No Ron you've already apologized. It's my turn. I should have told you guys how I felt. I should have told you about Luke."
"You tried Harry. We should have listened more." Harry shrugged.
"Well it's done now. What do you say we go play quidditch." Ron grinned. Ginny was just coming down the stairs with Luke who'd just awoken from a nap.
"Won and Hermynin!" he exclaimed. Ron and Hermione were opened mouthed. Harry took Luke from Ginny.
"What do you say kiddo? You want to ride on a broom for the first time?" Luke clapped his small hands.
"Broom!" Ginny smiled.
"And you Ginny? Care to fly a bit?" she nodded and they all went out to the quidditch pitch.
One evening Ginny noticed someone missing from the nightly celebration. Harry had gone to put Luke to bed in the Gryffindor tower, Ginny did it the night before, and he had not returned.
Ginny's first thought was that he had stayed upstairs with Luke but she saw that one of the huge doors to the grounds was open a crack. Ginny slipped out outside and saw a solitary figure sitting on the same rock by the lake that she liked to sit on. She trekked through the snow. The sun was setting in the winter sky a million different oranges and reds blending with pinks and golds.
She stood behind him for a moment before sitting on the snow next to his rock.
"Hey." She said cautiously. Harry kept looking at the sunset as he murmured,
"Hey." They sat in silence for a moment neither of them wanting to upset the other. "It's so beautiful." Harry finally said.
"Yeah it is."
"You know I've always thought of sunsets as the bringer of life. I know most people consider that the sunrise but with the sunrise a day has ended and you spend the night just waiting for the new one. I know that sounds corny,"
"No, it sounds beautiful. Harry," Ginny paused wondering if she dared ask the question that had nagged at her since he'd awoken. "Did you, want to come back?" Now Harry finally looked down at her.
"At first I didn't, I was happy. The dreams, they were everything I'd ever wanted. Sure when I'd come out of it I'd know they were only dreams but that didn't seem to matter. After a while when you started to correct thing well the dreams weren't so wonderful any more and I wanted to come back and apologize. Then when you brought Luke I fought the dreams."
"Yeah I figured you were." Harry smiled.
"I have so much to thank you for Ginny." Ginny waved him off.
"There's only one thing I want. I want you to love me. If you don't its okay just know I love you." Harry looked at her and chuckled a bit.
"Oh Ginny I love you. I've loved you I think since fifth year. I thought I loved Cho but then I knew I didn't it was you. You told me Luke recognized you when you picked him up. Well yours was my favorite picture to show him." Harry began to blush despite the cold weather. "Some nights when I was really mad at the Dursley's I used to imagine, well I'd imagine that one day you and I would raise Luke together." He ducked his head down looking at his hands.
"Oh, Harry." Ginny breathed.
"Yeah, I know it's stupid." Ginny shook her head.
"No Harry, it's perfect. I was thinking the same thing the past few days." Harry looked at her again hope in his eyes that used to be so filled with pain. Ginny thought she saw a faint spark of the life that used to live in his eyes.
"Really?" Ginny nodded and Harry smiled. Ginny got on her knees in the snow and kissed him. They walked back to the castle hand in hand.
A/N *wipes tear from eye.* well all that's left is the epilogue. It's been a wonderful ride. I think this story will always be one of my favs! Review s'il vous plait.
