If there are a lot of mistakes please tell me so I can correct them.

It's a Kai/Ray fic.

If you want to see the disclaimer you can see it in the first part.

"talking"

'Thinking'

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Thoughts part 2: What I'm I thinking?

(Kai's pov)

I felt a hand on my shoulder. A little bit scared I stand still. "What is a pretty boy like you doing all lone in the park on this hour." I hear a husky voice saying, "That can be dangerous." I want to look behind me but before I can turn around I feel a hard blow on his head. I fell on the ground. Before I gave in the darkness I heard the husky voice laughing.

I slowly opened my eyes. My head was hurting and my image was blurry. It took awhile before I was seeing clear again. Then I realized some cloths. I was lying in the bushes. As a piece of trash. Useless after been used. Fast I put on my missing cloths I found not far away of me and ran back to the apartment. When I was almost there I saw Ray running before me. Quickly I hide in an alley nearby. Not wanting Ray to see me like this. When he was out of sight I walked further to the apartment. When I entered our room I saw Ray already lying in bed. On his cheeks I saw tears. Carefully I made them dry. After that I took a shower. I washed myself a few times. Quietly to not wake up Ray. After the shower I put on my tee shirt and boxers and climbed in to my bed. I feel a sleep at once.

(Ray's pov)

I woke up at the sound of running water. I look around me. I see that Kai's bed's messy. That means Kai's back! I'm happy about that. The sound of running water stops. Quickly I get out of bed and walk to the bathroom. There's Kai standing in front of the mirror with only a towel around his waist, painting his blue triangles on his cheeks. "Why do you always put those things on your cheeks?" Ray asked suddenly. Kai who hadn't noticed I was there quickly turned around. I chuckle a little bit. "What?" Kai asked confused. "Your right cheek is totally blue," I say laughing. Kai looked in the mirror and smiled. I took a washing-glove and cleaned both of Kai cheeks. "You should forget about them once," I said after I was done. "Okay but then you then you must leave your hair down," Kai answered. I put my arms around his neck and gave a loudly kiss on his cheek. Kai looked surprised. "Aren't you mad about yesterday?" he asked. "No I was just to pussy," I answered and laid my head on to his naked chest. "No I was a jerk," Kai said. "A cute jerk," I joked.

(Kai's pov)

'What's wrong with me? Here I am with Ray in my arms and he's not mad on me. Why can't I just forget about yesterday and be happy with Ray. Why did he pick me? Why did he have to be there? Why did he do this to me? No don't think about it you're with Ray now. I feel so dirty. I'm not good enough for Ray. I'm dirty used thing.' A hand waved before my eyes. "Hello! Kai are you still there," Ray said. "Sorry just thinking about something." I said and walk out of the bathroom. Quickly I put on my cloths before Ray entered the room. "Let's go eat some breakfast before Tyson eats everything we got," I said. Ray nodded and got dressed. As promised he let down his hair. We walked together towards the kitchen. Kenny, as usually, was typing on his laptop at the dinner table. "good morning Chief," Ray said cheerful. "Good morning Ray, Kai," Kenny said tiredly. He properly worked all night long. "Hnpf," I said and sat on a chair. Ray went to the firth to get stuff for breakfast. After a while he put down three plates with pancakes. Silently we began to eat. After a few seconds Tyson came in with a drooling mouth. "Do I smell food?!" he asked. "Sorry Tyson I'm eating now. You have to make some one your own." Ray said and took a bite. "where's Max?" "I'm here," Max answered sleepy as he walked in to the kitchen. I saw Tyson stealing Kenny's pancakes, who was to busy to notice, and began to eat it hastily. Max was eating some cereals. After Tyson was finished with Kenny's pancakes he tried to steal mine. This time I didn't say anything about it. I was to deep in my own thoughts. 'Why did it have to happen to me? Why didn't I stayed with Ray or went strait to the apartment. I don't wan to think about it any more. I wished it never happed to me. Should I tell Ray or not. He probably will think I'm a dirty used thing. No Ray would never think that. He probably feel sorry for me. I don't want that. No this is my problem and not Ray's. So he don't have to bother about it. He's such a good person and I'm a dirty used thing I'm not good enough for him. I would only hurt him. I can't even tell him I love him.' I stand up from the table and run to my room. I can hear Ray shout my name. I lock the door and tears fall from my eyes.

TBC

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Yeah part two is finished! It's a little bit longer than the first one. So what do you think? Good enough to continue. Please review and tell me what you think.