Thoughts part 4: suicide

(Kai's pov)

Pain. Pain is al I feel. Pain in my body. Pain in my heart. Pain. I can't stand it anymore. Pain. It hurt so much. Pain. It must stop. Pain. It's going stop now.

(Ray's pov)

I'm laying on the cough cause Kai isn't letting me in anymore. The others are all asleep in their room. 'What's Kai doing. Maybe he's sleeping.' I hear the front door opening and closing. That has to be Kai. I walk to our room. The door is open and in the room is nobody. Quickly I grab my coat and run out of the apartment. I'm afraid that something could happen to him or worse he did something to himself. I try to see were he went to. I fail. Nearby a man is standing against a wall. "Excuse me sir," I say. "Did you see a slate-haired boy? A little bit taller then me." The man nodded. "Did you know where he went to?" I ask. "The lake," he says in a husky voice. I shiver by the sound of the voice. "Thanks" I say and run as fast as I can towards the lake. I'm standing at the lake looking for Kai. Hoping with my whole hart I'm not to late. At the other side I see a figure standing. "KAI!" I yell

(Kai's pov)

I'm standing by the lake. The water is clam. The pain in side of me is driving me crazy. It has to stop. Nobody will miss me, not even. "KAI!" someone yells. I recognize Ray's voice. 'No Ray, I have to do this. The pain have to stop.' I jump into the lake. The pain will finally stop. Closing my eyes I feel a hand wrapping around my wrist. Pulling me out.

(normal pov)

Kai chocked out the water in his longs. "Why did you did that." he said. "I didn't want you to die." Ray said. "You didn't, you didn't," Kai said with anger. "Since when did you decide when I live or not. It's my live and if I want to end it you have nothing to say about it!" Ray stared to the ground. "Please Kai tell me. What's bothering you. Why do you want to kill yourself?" he asked. "The pain. I want the pain to stop." Kai answered. Ray lifted up is head and looked into Kai's eye's. "What's the cause of the pain?" he asked. "Please tell me. If you tell me I can help. You shouldn't go through this alone. I want to help you." Kai tried to hold back his tears. "I got. I got. raped," he whispered. Ray was shocked and didn't know what to say. Kai busted out of tears. He laid his head on the other boys chest. Ray warped his arms around him, trying to comfort him. "It's going to be alright." He whispered in the boy's ear. "I'm going to help you go through this." After a while Kai stopped crying. "C'mon lets go back. It's getting cold and I don't want you to be sick." Ray said and warped his coat around the older boy's shoulders. They walked to the apartment. When they were in side Kai toke a warm shower, while Ray made two cup's of tea. Silently they drank their tea. "Do you think I'm a dirty used thing?" Kai asked hardly hearable. "Of course not. You were just at the wrong place at the wrong time. C'mon lets go to bed." Ray said. They drank their last bit of tea and went to bed.

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owkay this part kinda sucks. I know I'm losing a little bit of inspiration. If someone have some suggestions. There welcome. Just mail me. Maybe it could be some help.