Again a song of linkin park. Numb
Disclaimer: News flash: we just heard from our sources that wolf and dragon girl does not own anything. (wow what a surprise -_-;)
# # Means song
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Kai's POV
I roll on my side so my back is at you. Stupid Tyson. How dares he saying that to me. "I think your grandfather forgot to learn you some social skills." he had said. He knows nothing about the way I was raised. I feel that I'm tired. I close my eyes and fall to sleep.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~Dream~~~~~~~~~~~~~
"Come in," a voice said from behind the door I'm standing at. I open the door, without any control of my body. As I enter the room I recognize it. It's my grandfather's office. I see my grandfather standing at the window. "Kai, I need to talk with you," he says without looking at me. "Yes grandfather." I answer.
"I'm disappointed in you. Today you lost that beyblade match. Why did you? Explain it."
"I tried as hard as I could, but he was stronger than me.
"Well I think you didn't try hard enough. You're a Hiwatari, Kai. And no grandson of me would be known as a loser. How would you ever expect to become the perfect blader if you lose every time."
# I'm tired of being what you want me to be,
Feeling so faithless, lost under the surface,#
"It was only one match and you can learn from mistakes." I say. Before I know it my grandfather presses me against the wall. "How dare you to talk to me like that. I'm your grandfather. You should be thanking me for taking you into my household. I toke care of you and this is how you repay me. Lose and have a big mouth. I gave you the chance to be the world's greatest blader. Just like me. To keep up the name Hiwatari."
# I don't know what you're expecting of me,
Put under the pressure of walking in your shoes.#
"It was only a match," I mutter. "Still not understanding, aren't you? I can fix that." He grabs me by my hair and drags me into another room.
No! Not this room! I don't want to remember anything that happed in that room!
"This will teach you a lesson." my grandfather says, grabbing a long chain. I close my eyes in fear to wait for the smack. And it feels hard against my back.
#[Caught in the undertow
Just caught in the undertow]
Every step that I take is
Another mistake to you.
[Caught in the undertow
Just caught in the undertow]#
I made myself ready for another blow. But there is none. I open my eyes, and I'm surrounded by darkness. I see a little boy playing on the ground. He looks happy yet very familiar. I walk towards him. He knows someone is there and turns around. "Hello mister, wanna play with me?" He asks happy. Play? Playing is a waste of time. No wait that's my grandfather thinking. Or not. I don't know it anymore.
# I've become so numb,
I can't feel you there,
Become so tired,
So much more aware,
I'm becoming this,#
"Everything okay mister?" the little boy asks. Where do I know him from. I just can't place him. "If I'm sad I always sing my happy song. I call it the happy Kai song." Kai? His name is Kai. No way this could be me. I can't remember being like this. But he looks so much like me. Why didn't my grandfather let me like this? He's happy. I just wished that would stay.
# All I want to do,
Is be more like me,
And be less like you#
"You want me to sing it for you?" "No, that isn't necessary." The little me grabs my hand and we start walking. I see some orange light. When we got closer I see that the light is coming from a house that's on fire. "Mommy, daddy!" the little boy yells with tears in his eyes. He runs towards the house but is been stopped by a younger version of my grandfather. "Your mother and father are dead. From now on you will live with me." he says. "NO!" I yell, but they don't seem to hear nor see me. Little me turns his head in the direction of the remains of the house. His face full of tears. "Stop crying. You're a boy. Boys don't cry. If you cry you're weak. If you show any happy emotion you're weak. The only way to live in world is to be mean. If I'm done with you, you will be exactly what I want you to be. The perfect blader." my grandfather says disappearing out of my view.
I look at the house. Only one door is left. I open it and walk through it. All of the sudden I'm the hotel room. I see Rei and myself standing there. "Kai please, I don't like it when you're acting so mean. I'm your boyfriend, can't you at least be nicer to me." Rei says. "If you want me to stay your boyfriend you have to respect me for who I am." the other me says. "But can't you be a little bit nicer to me." I see the other me slapping Rei against his cheek. "I am who I am. You have nothing to say about that. And as team captain you have to listen to me." With that the other me left the room.
Tears run over Rei cheeks. And when he touches his red cheek more tears start to roll. I try to comfort him, but I can't reach him and he doesn't hear me. I never knew I hurt Rei so much. I didn't mean it. I don't know better. Rei runs out of the room and I follow. But as I go through the door I land in a big hall.
"Where have you been," the o so familiar voice of my grandfather asks. "Out" I answer. "I told you not to go anywhere without my permission. Now go to your room and no dinner."
# Can't you see that you're smothering me,
Holding too tightly
Afraid to lose control#
I walk up the stairs and land in a place that looks like a prison. I walk until I reach a glass window. At the other side of the window I see my grandfather. "How dare you to come here, Kai. Hadn't had enough fun already about how you managed to get me here. How could you go to the police. I wished you never met that Rei." Rei? What has Rei to do with this?
#'Cause everything that you thought I would be,
Has fallen apart, right in front of you.#
"I'm your grandfather. I took care of you. You will not get away with this. I will get you for this. Just wait until I'm out of here." He was dragged away. I want to get out of here. I want to know what this al means.
#[Caught in the undertow
Just caught in the undertow]
Every step that I take is
Another mistake to you.
[Caught in the undertow
Just caught in the undertow]
And every second I waste
Is more than I can take.
I've become so numb,
I can't feel you there,
Become so tired,
So much more aware,
I'm becoming this,
All I want to do,
Is be more like me,
And be less like you.#
I run for a while. I run and see flashes of me at the police station, with Rei at my side.
# And I know I may end up failing too,
But I know you were just like me,
With someone disappointed in you#
Rei. Why is he with me? I don't know what to do. I just keep on running. Running and don't stop. I don't know why I run I just do it.
# I've become so numb,
I can't feel you there,
Become so tired,
So much more aware,
I'm becoming this,
All I want to do,
Is be more like me,
And be less like you.#
~~~~~~~~~~~~~End of dream~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Slowly is open my eyes. I can hear you walking around. A quick glance at the clock tells me I've only been a sleep for a few minutes. I pretend to be asleep so you won't notice I'm awake. Why are you packing your stuff? You're leaving because of me? I have to stop you. I didn't mean it like that. I want to change. I want to be happy again. Just like I was when I was little.
# I've become so numb,
I can't feel you there,
I'm tired of being what you want me to be.#
I see you walking towards the door. I have to stop you. You're only one who could help me. The only one who would understand me.
#I've become so numb,
I can't feel you there,
I'm tired of being what you want me to be.#
"Where the hell do you think you're going."
Okay that came out wrong.
Tbc?
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So what do you think. I know it's mean to end it at the exact moment like the other. But maybe I will continue. Tell me if you think I gave to much away in the dream and if you understand it. I really would like to know. Well I have to stop. ^^
Disclaimer: News flash: we just heard from our sources that wolf and dragon girl does not own anything. (wow what a surprise -_-;)
# # Means song
^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^
Kai's POV
I roll on my side so my back is at you. Stupid Tyson. How dares he saying that to me. "I think your grandfather forgot to learn you some social skills." he had said. He knows nothing about the way I was raised. I feel that I'm tired. I close my eyes and fall to sleep.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~Dream~~~~~~~~~~~~~
"Come in," a voice said from behind the door I'm standing at. I open the door, without any control of my body. As I enter the room I recognize it. It's my grandfather's office. I see my grandfather standing at the window. "Kai, I need to talk with you," he says without looking at me. "Yes grandfather." I answer.
"I'm disappointed in you. Today you lost that beyblade match. Why did you? Explain it."
"I tried as hard as I could, but he was stronger than me.
"Well I think you didn't try hard enough. You're a Hiwatari, Kai. And no grandson of me would be known as a loser. How would you ever expect to become the perfect blader if you lose every time."
# I'm tired of being what you want me to be,
Feeling so faithless, lost under the surface,#
"It was only one match and you can learn from mistakes." I say. Before I know it my grandfather presses me against the wall. "How dare you to talk to me like that. I'm your grandfather. You should be thanking me for taking you into my household. I toke care of you and this is how you repay me. Lose and have a big mouth. I gave you the chance to be the world's greatest blader. Just like me. To keep up the name Hiwatari."
# I don't know what you're expecting of me,
Put under the pressure of walking in your shoes.#
"It was only a match," I mutter. "Still not understanding, aren't you? I can fix that." He grabs me by my hair and drags me into another room.
No! Not this room! I don't want to remember anything that happed in that room!
"This will teach you a lesson." my grandfather says, grabbing a long chain. I close my eyes in fear to wait for the smack. And it feels hard against my back.
#[Caught in the undertow
Just caught in the undertow]
Every step that I take is
Another mistake to you.
[Caught in the undertow
Just caught in the undertow]#
I made myself ready for another blow. But there is none. I open my eyes, and I'm surrounded by darkness. I see a little boy playing on the ground. He looks happy yet very familiar. I walk towards him. He knows someone is there and turns around. "Hello mister, wanna play with me?" He asks happy. Play? Playing is a waste of time. No wait that's my grandfather thinking. Or not. I don't know it anymore.
# I've become so numb,
I can't feel you there,
Become so tired,
So much more aware,
I'm becoming this,#
"Everything okay mister?" the little boy asks. Where do I know him from. I just can't place him. "If I'm sad I always sing my happy song. I call it the happy Kai song." Kai? His name is Kai. No way this could be me. I can't remember being like this. But he looks so much like me. Why didn't my grandfather let me like this? He's happy. I just wished that would stay.
# All I want to do,
Is be more like me,
And be less like you#
"You want me to sing it for you?" "No, that isn't necessary." The little me grabs my hand and we start walking. I see some orange light. When we got closer I see that the light is coming from a house that's on fire. "Mommy, daddy!" the little boy yells with tears in his eyes. He runs towards the house but is been stopped by a younger version of my grandfather. "Your mother and father are dead. From now on you will live with me." he says. "NO!" I yell, but they don't seem to hear nor see me. Little me turns his head in the direction of the remains of the house. His face full of tears. "Stop crying. You're a boy. Boys don't cry. If you cry you're weak. If you show any happy emotion you're weak. The only way to live in world is to be mean. If I'm done with you, you will be exactly what I want you to be. The perfect blader." my grandfather says disappearing out of my view.
I look at the house. Only one door is left. I open it and walk through it. All of the sudden I'm the hotel room. I see Rei and myself standing there. "Kai please, I don't like it when you're acting so mean. I'm your boyfriend, can't you at least be nicer to me." Rei says. "If you want me to stay your boyfriend you have to respect me for who I am." the other me says. "But can't you be a little bit nicer to me." I see the other me slapping Rei against his cheek. "I am who I am. You have nothing to say about that. And as team captain you have to listen to me." With that the other me left the room.
Tears run over Rei cheeks. And when he touches his red cheek more tears start to roll. I try to comfort him, but I can't reach him and he doesn't hear me. I never knew I hurt Rei so much. I didn't mean it. I don't know better. Rei runs out of the room and I follow. But as I go through the door I land in a big hall.
"Where have you been," the o so familiar voice of my grandfather asks. "Out" I answer. "I told you not to go anywhere without my permission. Now go to your room and no dinner."
# Can't you see that you're smothering me,
Holding too tightly
Afraid to lose control#
I walk up the stairs and land in a place that looks like a prison. I walk until I reach a glass window. At the other side of the window I see my grandfather. "How dare you to come here, Kai. Hadn't had enough fun already about how you managed to get me here. How could you go to the police. I wished you never met that Rei." Rei? What has Rei to do with this?
#'Cause everything that you thought I would be,
Has fallen apart, right in front of you.#
"I'm your grandfather. I took care of you. You will not get away with this. I will get you for this. Just wait until I'm out of here." He was dragged away. I want to get out of here. I want to know what this al means.
#[Caught in the undertow
Just caught in the undertow]
Every step that I take is
Another mistake to you.
[Caught in the undertow
Just caught in the undertow]
And every second I waste
Is more than I can take.
I've become so numb,
I can't feel you there,
Become so tired,
So much more aware,
I'm becoming this,
All I want to do,
Is be more like me,
And be less like you.#
I run for a while. I run and see flashes of me at the police station, with Rei at my side.
# And I know I may end up failing too,
But I know you were just like me,
With someone disappointed in you#
Rei. Why is he with me? I don't know what to do. I just keep on running. Running and don't stop. I don't know why I run I just do it.
# I've become so numb,
I can't feel you there,
Become so tired,
So much more aware,
I'm becoming this,
All I want to do,
Is be more like me,
And be less like you.#
~~~~~~~~~~~~~End of dream~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Slowly is open my eyes. I can hear you walking around. A quick glance at the clock tells me I've only been a sleep for a few minutes. I pretend to be asleep so you won't notice I'm awake. Why are you packing your stuff? You're leaving because of me? I have to stop you. I didn't mean it like that. I want to change. I want to be happy again. Just like I was when I was little.
# I've become so numb,
I can't feel you there,
I'm tired of being what you want me to be.#
I see you walking towards the door. I have to stop you. You're only one who could help me. The only one who would understand me.
#I've become so numb,
I can't feel you there,
I'm tired of being what you want me to be.#
"Where the hell do you think you're going."
Okay that came out wrong.
Tbc?
^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^ ^^^
So what do you think. I know it's mean to end it at the exact moment like the other. But maybe I will continue. Tell me if you think I gave to much away in the dream and if you understand it. I really would like to know. Well I have to stop. ^^
