Buffy,
This is draft number six, I can't seem to get it right, and I want it to be
right. Willow and Xander and everyone are writing letters to you, so I
figured I might try it too. I miss you. I miss you yelling at me, I miss
you telling me to go clean my room or to take off your clothes or do the
dishes. I miss you ordering me around like a kid. I miss you hugging me and
checking on me at night when you thought I was asleep. You're so stupid.
Why did you do it? It was supposed to be me. I was supposed to be the one.
Glory wanted me. Giles is okay. He's been watching out for me. He stays
at the house with me because we don't know what's going on with dad yet,
but I think it's because he wouldn't know what to do with me at his place.
And he says I have too many clothes to lug over. We locked the door to your
room. Nothing changes. You won't like this, but Spike comes to visit me. He
once told me that he vowed to protect me until the end of the world and
that since that hadn't happened he couldn't very well stop. I think he
might have been drinking, but it was still nice. I know you didn't like him
much. He did get kinda creepy, but it's nice to know I have a guardian
angel. Oh yeah, that reminds me. I saw Angel the other day. He's here, I
think he's staying at the mansion. I walked by there one night with Spike
and we saw a light on. Spike said it was probably just a reflection but I
know it wasn't. But I didn't push. I don't have the energy anymore. I'm so
scared, Buffy. I don't know what to do. It's been three months and I still
don't know what to do. I don't know who I'm supposed to belong to. Mom's
gone, you're gone, we can't find dad. Who's next? I wish I could talk to
you. Just one more time. I wish I could have jumped in your place. I would
have, you know. I wasn't scared. Willow's here. She's calling me to come
eat dinner, so I guess I'll go. But I want you to know that I love you. No
one could have been a better sister to me. You changed my life. I love you.
--Dawn
--Dawn
