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The next few days went by in misery for Hermione, without Draco she wasn't whole. Several times a day she would try and explain and he just wouldn't listen. He was angry, angry at everything. He blamed himself, and then he blamed Hermione, but would go back to blaming himself and everyone else because he found it impossible to stay angry at her. He couldn't listen to her voice, because it hurt too much, he couldn't look at her in fear of crying. He wanted to listen to her explanation but he was too confused, and hurt. He was sitting in his room brooding over all this when he heard a knock on the door.
"Come in" A timid looking Hermione walked in with something in her hand, he quickly looked away. But she walked closer and handed the paper to him, her hand brushed his as he took it and shivers went through both of them. Their bodies were wondering why they were being deprived of one another. It was like living without water.
"Dumbledore wanted you to look at these plans for the Yule ball"
"Okay"
"Draco" Her voice was just above a whisper. "Can we talk please?" Her knees started to shake slightly, so she leaned against the wall for support.
"That's what we're doing isn't it?" He was avoiding eye contact with her at all cost.
"No, I mean about the ball"
"I don't want to, just go please, I need time to think" Hermione was so angry that he wasn't listening, and she was angry at herself and it all came out.
"NO, YOU ARE GOING TO SIT HERE AND LISTEN!" she calmed herself down a bit, and Draco chanced a glance over at her where she was shaking, and on the verge of hysterics. " Gavin gave me a love potion, I know because we made it in 6th year potions, and It's all my fault because I should have been able to fight it off" Draco knew it was impossible to fight off a love potion but it still didn't make the situation any better. "Please believe me"
"How do I know if I should? That could be a lie"
"God damnit Draco, do you think I'd be standing here right now If I didn't care about trying to save our relationship. If I was actually cheating on you then I would have just dumped your ass as soon as you got mad, instead of going through this hell for the past week and a half. You're like oxygen to me Draco, everyday I get weaker without you by my side, I'm not whole, and I'm going fucking insane because I don't know what the hell to do, and you wouldn't even listen to my explanation!"
"I was hurt, I still am. It may be a love potion but I'm never going to forget seeing you kiss him, it tore my heart out" his voice was starting to shake, and for the first time since he was 6 a tear rolled down his cheek, and then another until a steady flow of tears was rolling from his eyes. Hermione couldn't see however because he had his back turned to her.
"Do you think that YOU are the only one that's hurt Draco, Everyday I blame myself, sometimes I feel like there's no point to go on. You were the one that was holding me up, and now that you're gone I don't see why I should wonder around day by day for the rest of my god forsaken life, I don't want you to forgive me, I need you to forgive me, even if you can't forget. Even if all we can ever be again is friends."
"I don't know If I can" Draco was lying, he was having a hard time too without her but he was still angry he felt betrayed, and he would never know for sure if she was telling the truth. " I just… I just need time to think about it" Hermione could tell right away that he was crying as soon as he started talking. She walked over and embraced him, Draco bathed in the pleasure of her touch for just a moment before he shook her arms off of him, causing tears to fall from her eyes as well.
"Jesus, Draco" Her voice had an angry snap to it now "I don't know how much longer I can give you to think about it, you've had a fucking week and a half, if you can't trust me then maybe I should just give up because I don't want to live like this, I don't want to live at all. I've already tried to commit suicide before I'm not afraid to do it again, because now as far as I'm concerned I have nothing to lose, because you're already gone." She got up from the bed and slammed the door behind her running down to Snapes office, leaving Draco crying on his bed. Crying every tear that he's ever held back but mostly crying about Hermione, he wanted so bad to run after her and hold her and tell her how he felt, and he believed her about the love potion but he was afraid of getting too close to her, because he was afraid of getting hurt again. He wasn't sure he'd ever forgive himself if she killed herself, he tried to get up but his legs weren't working properly at the moment. So he lied back down, thinking. A while later he heard a knock on the door, he didn't want to face Hermione again, now he felt foolish. But much to his surprise Professor Snape walked in. Upon seeing Draco's tears Snape's eyes widened he'd never seen Draco cry before. Snape sat down on the bed next to Draco.
"Are you going to believe her?"
"I don't know" he chocked back a sob and continued " I think I already do, but I'm afraid I'll get hurt again if I get too close to her. And what if she's lying, I don't think I'll ever know, I don't know I'm just confused."
"You obviously care for her Draco, so I don't know why you're putting yourself through this misery. If you really love her you'll be able to believe her and then forgive her, and if you stay afraid of getting hurt, I'm afraid she's going to leave you. Love is all about choices, and sometimes they are scary choices, but if you really love her you'll be able to forget all about the fear and take risks together" Draco looked at snape sitting before him giving him fatherly words of wisdom and he would have smiled at the predicament if he hadn't been so sad. "She came to me for help, and this might be something you want to see, now you can't always do this to fix your problems, but I know you feel betrayed and this may be the only way to fix your relationship. You've really got all the teachers worried. You and Hermione moping around like suicidal mutes. So please fix it. This is a special pensieve that allows you to know the persons thoughts as well as witness what really happened."
"Thanks Professor" when Professor Snape left Draco went inside the pensieve and witnessed and heard every single one of her thoughts, how she was trying to fight it, and how her heart broke when she realized what she had been doing. When Draco came out of it he was crying even harder than before, and then before he knew what he was doing his feet were carrying him to Hermione's room. He banged on the doors repeatedly.
"Hermione, Hermione" he yelled. She came to the door with red eyes and messy hair. "I belie….ahhhhh" both of them let out screams as they clenched their arms. They were being called to a meeting. They ran down to the fireplace, and flooed, so they could apparate.
They stood through the meeting, both wishing to be anywhere else but there. The tension was so thick between them you could cut it with a knife. After the meeting, they were bee lining to the nearest fireplace but Lucius stopped them.
"Draco, Hermione. Just the 2 people I wanted to see" they gave him wry smiles and followed him into another small room. They all sat and Lucius handed them some drinks.
"I have some truth potion here, I don't think there should be a problem with that" Draco and Hermione had been immune to the truth potion for awhile now, so they smiled and nodded neither one of them feeling a bit nervous, but they should have. Lucius watched their behavior and they hadn't been scared to take the potion so he smiled to himself, maybe he was just being paranoid after all. Draco and Hermione took a drink of the potion, and both noticed it tasted different than the normal one they usually drank.
"This tastes different, is it a new type of truth potion?" asked Hermione
"Well I had Snape brew me up a batch, and them I experimented with it a bit, so yes I've developed a better more effective truth potion it's very strong." Hermione looked at Draco, who was now playing with his fingers nervously. They went through the questions painstakingly, both of them tried every technique they knew to resist the potion, but it wasn't working much to their dismay. When he asked what they thought was his last question they both quickly got up.
"Wait, I have one more question, I've had a sneaking suspicion that something is up. Some of the information you gave me that should have been the same information as last week was different." They both looked at him innocently. "Where do your loyalties lie" Both Draco and Hermione were working double-time at trying to resist the potion. After a long pause Lucius asked again. Both of them were stalling for time hoping the potion would wear off. "Tell me now before I have to hurt you" Hermione attempted to say Voldemort but as soon as the first sound came out, she felt like a shock went ripping through her body and she collapsed from pain.
"Now, now it's not good to lie" He was now holding his wand to Draco's chest.
"Where do your loyalties lie my son, tell me or I will kill you" Draco gulped and gripped his wand from inside his robe pocket, and pulled it out
"My loyalties lie with Dumbledore" he said bravely "expel…." But Lucius was quicker with the spell and Draco's wand flew to him, and using Draco's wand he said the 2 most feared words in the wizarding world besides Voldemort.
"Aveda Kadevra" Dracos lifeless body fell to the floor, right next to Hermione. She didn't believe it, Draco WAS NOT dead, it just couldn't be. But she was angry as all hell that Lucius even attempt to do that to Draco. She took her wand out quickly and with a few choice words She had Lucius's wand and he was withering on the floor with pain. She then kneeled back down next to Draco, and felt he had no pulse. Right away she knew what to do, she wasn't even going to shed a tear, she had been warned about time travel, and that time should not be messed with unless it was crucial, and this was the most crucial thing to Hermione. She watched as her watch hands began spinning backwards.
Hermione was sitting in the back row of care of magical creatures staring at Draco a few seats ahead of her. She missed him so much, but he wouldn't listen to her when she tried to explain. All of a sudden she felt a new presence fill her body, Hermione from the future barged in throwing that Hermione out. When Hermione saw Draco, the biggest smile broke out on her face, and she ran over to him, pulling him into one of the most passionate kisses she could muster, the whole class had their eyes on them. Draco pushed her off.
"What are you playing at Hermione, you can't just cheat on me and then expect with one kiss everything will be okay" but Hermione didn't hear a word of it. All she cared about was that Draco was alive.
"Draco, You're alive, oh my gosh, you're alive" tears of happiness were rolling down on her cheeks.
"Umm Hermione are you feeling alright, maybe you should go see Madam Pomphrey" suggested Hagrid.
"No, I'm feeling wonderful, Draco we need to see Dumbledore right away" she grabbed his hand and held on tight because he was trying to squirm out of it, and ran all the way dragging Draco to Dumbledores office. They barged in through the door.
"Dumbledore" she said breathlessly "We have to put Harry under the fidelius charm" Dumbledore gave her a questioning look. "I just came from the future, Lucius put me and Draco on a strong truth potion that we've never had before, and he figured out we were spies, and he killed Draco so I traveled back in time right away. We've got to put him under fidelius, and then you've got to alter our memory so we don't know that he's under it" Draco and Dumbledore looked at her disbelievingly, so she put all of her memories from the future into a penseive and on accident the part where her and Draco were fighting. Dumbledore dismissed them from their office after altering their memory about the charm only so he could get the orders in affair. Draco and Hermione walked back to the common room in silence. When they got in there, Hermione was heading up the stairs figuring Draco was still mad at her but she didn't care because he was alive.
"Wait" he called. She went and sat next to him. "we were in a fight before I got killed, I never got to tell you, oh my god Hermione"
"Draco?"
"Hermione, I can't believe I've even waited this long to tell you"
"Tell me what?" Draco took a deep breath.
"I guess seeing myself die made me realize that there may not always be another time to tell you when I chicken out, and I want you to know. Hermione, baby, I'm in love with you, and I've never been so sure of anything in my life, I know that you could be the one I can spend the rest of my life with, when I'm not with you I ache, and crave for your touch, sometimes I go insane thinking about you when you're not there. I'm not a complete man without you, I love you more than life itself, and I think I would die if you didn't know that. If it had been you in that room that he killed, you would have never known my feelings for you, I wouldn't be able to live with that. I love you Hermione Granger." Hermione's heart was racing.
"I love you too Draco, you don't know how much I suffered when you were mad at me. I can't live with out you, I love you so much." Draco brought his smiling lips on to hers, they kissed, and in that kiss words didn't need to be spoken about exactly how much they loved each other because it was so strong. Draco picked her light body up, and carried her into his bedroom where he lied her down on the bed. She ripped his shirt off, and ran her fingers up and down his chest, while he slowly worked on her shirt. She helped him get it off, and he undid her bra sliding the straps down her shoulders and throwing it to the side. Draco began tracing her nipples lightly with his fingers. Hermione moved her mouth down to dracos neck, and began sucking, while Draco's tongue gave attention to her breasts.
"Mmmm, Draco" she moaned softly. Draco then moved his mouth back to hers and traced every curve of her body, he slipped his fingers inside of her skirt, and not being able to stand it anymore, she unbuttoned her own skirt , and let it fall off her legs and onto the floor. Draco took his mouth away and licked all the way down her body, and grabbed at her thong with his teeth pulling it down. He looked at her body hungrily, when her thong was completely off. He kissed her neck as he inserted a finger into her pussy.
"Draco, I want all of you in me" she whispered into his ears as she undid his pants, he kicked them to the side, and Hermione stroked his penis, he lowered it down so she could feel it at her opening, and he kissed her as he pushed into her. She lightly bit his tongue when he broke her barrier, but soon the pain went away, and instead there was complete bliss. They danced to the rhythm of love, and as they climaxed, when they were the closest that 2 people could ever be their souls connected. They would always belong to the other.
"I love you" they said together in between kisses.
Yay! They finally admitted their true feelings! I hope you all liked this chapter I think there will only be 2 or 3 more chapters after this one, so review and give me any input or suggestions for how you want it to end even though I kind of already have it planned out.
