Disclaimer: I don't own Gundam Wing

Disclaimer: I don't own Gundam Wing

_Sorry it took so long

Memory Lapse

Chapter 3 'What kind of person holds a gun to a child…'

* * * Relena

I could hardly register the statement. He didn't know Oz, he didn't know anything, he, they where doomed. "You don't remember anything, the war, Gundams…anything." It was more to myself than him. I was so lost and confused at the moment I didn't know what to say what to think. How could I ever get us out of this situation? I didn't know anything about survival. I had only shot a gun a couple of times and my aim wasn't that good. I didn't know anything about hiding. Without Heero I figured we where doomed.

"Gundams?" He asked again and I heard the confusion in his voice. "You want to explain some of this to me, because I'm lost." He laughed for a moment.

My head shot up as I heard his soft easy laugher. I had never heard him laugh before. In fact I couldn't recall a time in which he cracked a smile. It was weird, and once again I didn't know how to react. I guess I was looking at him strangely because his hand dropped from his head and his face fell.

"Did I do something wrong? I'm sorry if I did."

An apology, my mind was reeling. This wasn't Heero this wasn't right. Before I even realized what I was doing I had pulled my stiff and aching body to my feet and to the door. I needed to think, I needed someone to talk to, but there was no one. We where alone. If I went anywhere I might not find my way back. I reached out and placed my hand on the crumbling doorframe and sighed heavily. My head hung over and tears I didn't even know I had been suppressing ran down my cheeks. I didn't know what to do.

* * * * * * * ** Heero

Something I had done had hurt her feelings. Perhaps it was even the way I acted, I didn't understand it. What had I done that been so wrong? I just laughed and asked her to explain. Was her past, our past so horrible? What was my connection with her? I wanted to know it all so badly, but how could I ask when every movement I made seemed to shock her to no end and at this moment bring her to tears.

I wanted to talk to her to tell her I was sorry, to stop crying and the only way I was going to do that would be to get to my feet. That was going to be tricky everything felt like jelly and my head was pounding. Putting my palms firmly on either side of myself I lifted. I found I was surprisingly strong despite my fatigue and soreness. I lifted myself to my feet without too much effort. I was afraid to walk though it didn't seem like my feet would support me. As I took my first step I felt my knee buckle and I fell for the ground. There was nothing to stop me from hitting it then I saw her she turned just as I fell. She was running toward me. Then I felt her arms wrap around me stopping my fall.

It hit me like a bolt of lightening.

I was somewhere else. I was me, but I was Heero? I was holding a gun outstretched in my right hand. My lips were moving I was saying something, but I didn't even know what I was speaking. Then I saw whom I had the gun aimed at. It was a little red haired girl her eyes her barely open. She was already injured. Why was I aiming a gun at a child? I wanted to stop myself, but I couldn't and I pulled the trigger. There was no boom only the click of an empty chamber.

"I don't have to kill anyone ever again." I heard the words. And I began to fall. I barely saw Relena kneeled at the girl's side. She jumped to her feet calling my name. I couldn't stop the fall. Her hands wrapped around me and we both went crashing to the ground. I was barely conscious but I felt her hand stroking my head her sweet words…

My eyes flew open and I scrambled from her tight hold. I was confused. What did that mean? What had I just witnessed? What kind of person holds a gun to a child and why did she try and catch me? What did it mean? She was looking at me her eye wide.

"Heero, are you all right? Heero?"

I couldn't answer. Something was swirling around in my brain; it was just out of my reach. I wanted to know what it was. I wanted to catch it. I wanted. Then I heard it. It was loud it sounded like a plane, no it was something else. Then I heard her speak again her voice on the verge of panic.

"A mobile suit!"

* * * * * * * * * Relena

"Oh my God!" I yelled as I scrambled for our fallen supplies and tried desperately to get as much as I could. There was no time to get it all, but I had to try. I knew that neither on of us where up for traveling, but we had no choice. If we didn't go we would be caught and I'd already promised myself I wouldn't go back.

"What's going on." He asked from over my shoulder. His eyes wide as he looked at me from his position on the floor. He was confused.

I felt sorry for him, but I couldn't explain there wasn't enough time. We had to move. My body was screaming with each quick move I made, but I didn't have time to think about the pain. "We have to run. They've found us!" I called at him and picked up my makeshift bag and slung it over my shoulder. "We have to go!"

"Where?" He asked.

I shook my head. I didn't know, but we had to do something. My leg was throbbed as I bent down and put my hand under Heero's arm and around his back. "Lean on me and we'll get out of here a quick as possible." He nodded at me and I pulled him to his feet. It hurt so badly. My arms hadn't recovered and my muscles tore with the exertion. 'Please.' I pleaded, but this time there was no instant strength. I could barely move.

We took our first shuffling step forward and I heard the suit approaching over the trees. It wouldn't be long. We had to run. I looked to my side and tired to catch his eye. He looked panicked and almost like he was tried to remember something. "We have to run." I told him. He nodded at me and together we plunged into the forest leaving the shack behind.

We no longer had the darkness or the rain to hide us. If we didn't hurry we would be caught. I swallowed my fear and tried to thick of something. If Heero where here it would be different. I wouldn't have to do this. Determinedly I pushed the negative thoughts from my mind and tried to run without tripping on roots and sticks. It was hard. My leg was already refusing to move. It was numb from the thigh down.

Leaves and twigs broke across my face and we continued to run. The sound was getting closer and I knew we would never out run it. Spotting a particularly large patch of bushes I pulled Heero's failing body toward it and dragged him under the leaves. We sat there our breath coming in large painful gasps. We weren't in the shape to run. I could feel the blood pouring from my leg. I'd ripped it open again. I heard the suit coming closer and I grabbed hold of Heero pulling him close to me and down further into the foliage. Until they sent out foot soldier we'd be all right, but I knew it wouldn't be for long. When I finally heard the suit fading I let go of him.

He lifted up slowly his breath still coming in heavy gulps. His eyes were intense and wild with fear. I had never seen him scared before and it caused a pit of cold to form in my stomach. Heero Yuy didn't get scared. "Are you all right?" I asked finally breaking the silence.

"Yeah." He replied he fell into silence again and looked skyward. "I remember something."

I was started when he spoke again and even more when he said he remembered. I wanted to scream for joy. "What I asked." Maybe he knew where we were, how we could get out of here.

" I saw a suit." He paused and closed his eyes. "Wing…Zero? I think that was what it was. It was a mobile suit. My mobile suit?" He said the end almost like it was a question.

My spirits fell for a moment. It wasn't anything that would help us, but it was something. At least something was coming back. For some reason I felt he was holding something back. "Is that it?" I asked slowly. He looked at me for a moment as if contemplating something. Then his face hardened. I knew that face. He was holding something back.

"No." He said. "Nothing."

I let it drop momentarily and looked outside the bush. "We'd better go." I said. "We don't have much time and there is not telling when they'll come back." I wrapped my arm around and again we stood this time supporting each other.

Gee I'm glad you guys like this! Sorry it took so long, but here is chapter three. Tell me what you think! The next one should be longer.