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_Thanks for the reviews guys we seem to be on the same line of thinking cuz all those questions will be answered. Not all of them in this chapter but they will be answered All right here it is. READ ME…Okay I did us the Endless waltz story line, but there are still Gundams. They didn't explode them at the end of the second war.

Memory Lapse

Chapter 5 'Contact'

********Relena

They had me. I couldn't run I couldn't hide at the time and now I was back where I had started. They had me again and there was no way to get away, there was no one to rescue me this time, I was on my own. I had to convince them that I was alone, that Heero had left me. I didn't know if they'd buy it, probably not, but I had to try. The soldiers surrounded me again, this time I didn't scream, or through my weak arms around in an attempt to keep them away. I knew that is was hopeless. The first one to me grabbed my upper arm in a vice like grip and hauled my weakened body to its feet. I couldn't stand and was disgusted with the fact that I had to lean on him for support.

"Where is he at Ms. Dorlain, I know that he is in here somewhere." I knew that voice. I knew who that was, but my heart screamed at me it wasn't, that it couldn't be. He stepped from the throng of men and into the open a face fitting the voice. It was him, the guard from the prison. Involuntarily I began to shake. I didn't think I would ever see him again.

"Wh…who?" I asked weakly hoping he would buy it. Even as I stood there nothing on my face betraying my inner thoughts I knew he would see through me.

"I know who was with you, Heero Yuy doesn't give up. He'll be out here sooner or later, that is unless you tell me where he is at." He took another step closer until his breath was on my face stinging the fresh scratches. I turned away unable to look at him. I remembered his breath on me before. I remembered the way he looked at me before he struck me. I remembered the threats.

"I don't know what you're talking about." I managed as I turned my head away. I knew that he knew I was lying I could tell by the look on his face, but he backed away shaking his head as he did. I would have sighed with relief, but he suddenly spun back around slapping my hard with the back of his hand. His face was mere inches from mine, his voice harsh and his eyes wildly searching mine.

"I'm not stupid. I know he's out there somewhere, probably hurt, maybe setting up a get away, but I know he didn't leave, I know he's here, and if you lie to me one more time…" He trailed off and sneered. "You remember what I did before, you remember don't you." His hand reached out again and cupped my face pulling it together. "Don't lie to me."

He finally released me and I felt all the remaining strength leave my body. I was going back, and Heero… Pushing myself away from the soldier whom held me I stood unsteadily on my feet and looked out into the woods. I knew he was out there and I just wanted him to run, or perhaps remember who he was.

"Get her back to the prison!" The man who had slapped me only moments before yelled, " I'm going after Yuy." He paused and pointed at a couple of his men. "Come with me."

"Run." I whispered so low I could barely hear it, "Run!" This time it was louder a scream. "Run, Heero they're coming after you run!" I screamed as loud as I could manage and pushed the unsuspecting solider holding me away and tried to take a step forward, but my legs failed me and I hit the ground hard. "Run!" I yelled again. My throat was raw and my body hurt. I felt the man's arms coming around me again and pulling me up, but I didn't struggle. "Run." I said again and felt a something hitting me in the back of the head. The pain exploded in my scull and I fell into blackness.

**********Heero

I knew I had to get someone to help me and somehow what I'd found would have to do that. I could still see the images running through my brain, but I couldn't think about those right now. I had to think about Relena. I had to save her. I didn't know why I eat at me, but thought of her hurt gnawed at my stomach and made me almost sick. Pulling myself to my feet, I ran back the way I'd come to the contraption that had to save us. I didn't know what to do with it, but I knew what it was. A whisper of a memory calling faintly in the back of my mind, a mobile suit, a Gundam.

My body was numb, but I pushed the feeling back and focused on what I had to do. As I came upon the contraption I felt all the air rush from my lungs. It was huge, even when it was lying flat on the ground, covered by various bushes and camouflage tarps. "Wing Zero." I let the words escape my mouth feeling so familiar on my lips. I knew this machine yet I didn't. Ignoring the way my muscles shook and trembled with effort I stumbled for the suit.

As I walked scenes past threw my mind not flashes like the others but phrases and words, faces. All things I didn't know and didn't understand. It was like they were from a past life. The God of Death, white fang, Oz, bodies the dead lying all around me while I stood over them, the only survivor, murder, a blond helping me to my feet a suit over me, explosions, me a gun pointed a thin boy wearing a priest collar. They were moving faster now, running with a speed unimaginable. I couldn't stop them, I screamed. Only then when I fell to my knees my head clutched between my arms did they stop. I stayed that way for a moment afraid they would come again. I don't know how long I lay there until I was able to move again. My muscles were tight will fatigue and refused to move very far. As I uncurled myself I again began to trek to the Gundam. This time I made it.

My arms shook as I removed the tarp covering the Gundam and moved almost instinctively for the cockpit. It was amazing as I watched my hands move with a mind of their own opening the door and lowering myself into the seat. I watched as the door shut and had the sudden urge to run away, I felt as if someone was shutting me in a coffin. It didn't move though and as the door shut I was plunged into utter darkness. I almost panicked before a few lights flipped on overhead. I didn't know what to do, but maybe somehow this had a communication device and I could contact someone, someone that would help me. I reached out for the elaborate control panel and put my hand on one of the levers. Then I had the flash. It was vivid so clear, I felt like I was there and I couldn't move.

I looked out the window as the students ran for the dance being held in the courtyard that night. A school dance, something I had never been to before. I heard their exited screams and for a moment I wondered what I would be like to be down there with them. I shook my head as soon as the thought came to mind. "It doesn't concern me." I tell myself and reach out and shut the window blocking out the joyous cries.

I turn back to my computer and reread the data, remembering where I was. "Records on Heero Yuy as St. Gabrielle's institute erased." I silently went through the rest of the files deleting everything I could find on myself. I would be like a memory; no one quite could piece together, remembered and dismissed in the same breath. Just as I was rising to pack my things I heard my door creak open. It was almost silent, but the noise didn't escape my keen hearing. Someone had found me out and they were coming to kill me. I grabbed hold of my gun feeling comforted as the cold steel warmed in my palm I wiped around my cold hard mask on whoever it was was going to die.

"Going on a other mission Heero?"

I froze my glare faltering. "Relena?" I whispered in question, but didn't lower my gun. What was she doing here? Why did she follow me, why wasn't she afraid? She took a step toward me and I clicked the safety off. She didn't come any closer for the moment.

"I know your secret." She whispered slowly. "I know you have to fight." She took another step forward and gun was pressed into her chest, but she didn't flinch. "At least come down and enjoy the party before you go." She grabbed either side of her skirt and bowed in front of me.

Before I could even realize what had happened she was gone. I hadn't been able to shoot her. Why? It killed me to think about it. I had to kill her she knew too much about me. I had to…but I had failed a second. I hadn't been able to pull the trigger. The thing that nagged at me more than that was why I wanted to go to the part? I had never had interest in things like that before, it wasn't part of my mission, it wasn't…My mind was going crazy. For the first time in my life I felt two different sides of myself fighting, was I going crazy? Why would one tell me to go and the other to stay? Which should I listen to? Finally rationalizing one voice I thought. If I go I can kill her. I can pull her away from the crowd and be done with her. It seemed to work and the other voice stopped. I was still completing my mission I wasn't stopping anything.

As I descended the steps leading to the courtyard I immediately felt my nerves rise and moved to the defensive. I didn't know what I was doing, or why I was even here. I was about to run, to leave and jump in my Gundam where everything felt right and fly away when I felt a familiar grip on my arm and a soft voice reached my ears. I was confused. My urge to leave suddenly left. It was Relena she had me by the arm. She was smiling.

"I'm glad you came Heero. Would you like to dance?" She didn't wait for an answer but dragged me onto the floor with her.

I didn't know how I knew to dance, but I followed her easily. I was still tense no where near relaxed, but I was content enough to keep myself from bolting. I could still feel the gun in my pants resting against my side. It comforted me. If I had to I would kill her. I would complete my mission. The strangest thing was the way I liked touching her. The way I liked to feel her hand in mine. How I wanted to pull her closer, but refused to let myself do it. Her smell was killing me, not because it was foul, but somehow pleasant. It wasn't perfume it was just her. It was the way she smelled. I was lost and almost forgot why was here when he voice tore me from my thoughts. I jerked to face her as she spoke.

"Are you still going to kill me?" She asked her voice barely above a whisper.

"Yeah." I responded immediately. There was no hesitation, even thought something about her was keeping me from doing it. I couldn't kill her. I didn't know why I didn't want to.

"That's okay because I'm on your side now." She opened her eyes and I could see a world of hurt in them. I couldn't ever remember someone's eyes enticing me so. I had never cared before, but somehow I didn't like they way they brimmed with tears yet to be shed. They way they were so determined and strong at the same time.

"One my side?" I responded dumbly.

"I know why it is you fight now. I don't want to die without answers and I'll…" Her words were cut off as a loud explosion shook the ground. I turned and saw a mobile suit above my head. They'd found me they were after me. I ran leaving her standing there my mind focused again I had a mission.

My head was pounding when the image, the movie ended and I was transported back to reality. I had held a gun to her, but how long ago had that been. Was that from this war? Even as the question entered my mind I dismissed it. Relena had looked so much younger, even I had. I swallowed as my hand moved away from the lever. Why had I wanted to kill her? How many times had I pointed a gun to her, and why had a done it? I wanted to know what had driven me. 'It was your mission.' The thought came to me almost like logic. 'My mission.' All because of a mission I would shoot I would kill a girl… My thoughts trailed off as I thought of her. Even within my damaged and half memory I knew I felt something for her. I didn't know if she knew that I had to that I must love her. It was plan. It was right in front of me, but I knew for certain that she had no idea. Why wouldn't I tell her? Would I even have a chance to know that she was captured? I blinked and tried to figure out a way to work any of the stuff in the suit, but I didn't know what to do. One thing caught my eye though a button blinking right above what appeared to be a video screen. Without even thinking a pushed it. There was a moment of silence before the screen below it flickered and a person I had never seen before appeared on it.

"Heero? Buddy is that you? God we've been trying to call you for two days! Where have you been." The man appeared to be young no more than twenty. He had a long braid that was flipped over his shoulder and large violet eyes. I didn't know what to say, but it didn't seem to bother the man. "When you took off after Relena we had no idea where you had gone to. We hoped you'd contact us and tell us how things were going, or even come back it's been hectic here…"

"Here?" I asked.

"Yeah, in the Cinq Kingdom." Duo said slowly and cocked a brow. "You okay buddy?"

"Who are you?" I asked desperate to know why his face appeared so familiar, but refused to before apparent in my mind.

"Are you all right?" He asked again. "What's going on?"

That was all the prompting I needed. I told him everything. I told him they had Relena and I had no idea how to save her. I told him Oz was after us. I told him I couldn't remember who I was. I told him that I was in a mobile suit and I had no idea how to use it. He seemed to take all the new very well his mouth open a bit and his eyes wider than before, but he didn't say anything. "I don't know what to do." I told him.

"Hey…um hold on…yeah." He rose from in front of the screen and disappeared for a second. I couldn't see him anymore but unfortunately I could hear his voice. "Guys! It's Heero he's lost his memory. He doesn't know where he is and Oz has Relena." His voice was panicked but when he returned he was all smiles. "Just hold on a second their Heero."

I kept silent and pretended I hadn't heard a thing. The next one to appear beside him was a small blond. I remembered him as well. I didn't know his name thought. "Who are you?" I asked.

"Quatre." He said evenly apparently more calm than his friend. "You don't know anything Heero…do you know where you're at? What's going on?"

I shook my head. Maybe know I would get some answers, who was Oz and why were they after Relena and who was I. I waited patiently for him to say something else.

"Do remember anything?" He asked.

"I remember this suit and that I…I have killed a lot of people." I swallowed hard with the last words. It was like admitting I was a monster.

The man smiled sadly at me and I could tell he felt truly sorry for me. "We've all done things we regret." He explained.

"I need to know what's going on." I pleaded with him as I thought Relena again and the scream that I had heard. "She's in trouble and I have to get her."

"Lost his memory and still has it bad." I heard the other say from the other side of Quatre. Quatre pushed him with his elbow. I was confused.

"Hold tight Heero we're going to get a trace on where you're at and we're going to come and help you, okay."

I nodded. "How long will the trace take?"

"Just a few minutes." Quatre confided and disappeared. The other was the only one left.

"Who are you?" I asked.

"Duo Maxwell." He said evenly. "I may run and I may hide, but I never lie." He smiled.

I didn't smiled back. What he had said earlier still bothered me. "What do you mean 'still has it bad.'" Duo shifted under my gaze and tried to avoid looking at the screen.

"Nothing." He said slowly. "I just you…"

"I love her don't I. I love her and I don't remember." I was sure that was it that I ignored the way he was looking at me, as if I had just sprouted two extra arms.

"Got it Heero." It was Quatre again. "You're only a couple of hours from here. We'll meet you right where you're at."

"That's too long." I said immediately. "I can't wait that long. She could be dead by then."

"Just stay." Quatre demanded. "You can't do anything in the state your in. You can hardly move. How are you supposed to save her?"

I wanted to say that I had promised that I was going to save her because I had to, but I said nothing. "Fine." I said instead. " I'll wait." Even as they nodded at me I knew I was gong to do everything but wait. If I didn't go she could die and it would be my fault. I couldn't bear the thought. Perhaps something of my old feelings for her where returning or perhaps these were new. I didn't know, but as the transmission ended. I knew I had to figure out how to work the Gundam if I was going to save her. I wasn't going to wait and maybe be too late.

I looked at the panel again and one button caught my eye. It was red. Swallowing I reached for it and pressed it. A deep rumbling coursed through my body and I felt the suit lurch forward.

So what do you think? Still good? Sorry if a little of the Party dialogue was wrong. I tried my best.