Moving On
By Lydia

Rating: PG -13

Disclaimer: I don't own anything.

Summary: After finding out Vaughn is married Sydney realizes a few things and knows it is time to move on with her life.

Author's Note: This is just a short little thing. I don't know where it will go or if this is it. If you like I'll continue. Please review and let me know. This is my first Alias story. I don't normally write for this show, but got inspired.

I don't know why I still find myself coming here. Most of the time it just makes me feel worse. I don't know what is going to happen. Sometimes I wish I could just go back in to a simpler time and place. I should be married to Danny, working as a professor at some university, spending time with my best friends and busy being a mother. But that's not what happened. Instead Danny's dead, I'm still with the CIA, Francie's dead and Will, well I barely see him these days. I'm not a mother and I doubt I'll ever get the chance. I finally loved again after Danny and he's gone too. Married to another woman. If our roles had been reversed, I would have waited for him. I would have looked and looked until I found him or at least knew without a doubt that he was dead. He didn't even do that. Instead he ran off and got married. Both Eric and my father say I'm much better off without him, and I'm inclined to agree. From what my father says Eric really hasn't talked to Vaughn since he started seeing Lauren and he stopped altogether when they got married. Eric, like me, thinks he was to quick in what he did. He thought he should have looked for me a little longer, waited until they knew whether or not I was really dead or at the very least, wait a few more years to get married. Sometimes it makes me wonder whether or not he even loved me. If he could move on that fast from me, then I guess he didn't love me like that. Well, it doesn't really matter anymore, what's done is done. I, like everybody else, can't change what happened. Nobody can turn back time and give me back those two years. As much as I would love to have that time back, I don't know that I would go back. This has been a growing experience for me. It has taught me a lot about life and. and about love. I now realize that Vaughn just wasn't the man I'm supposed to spend my life with. He was a man that I trusted with my life and a man that I could tell absolutely anything to. I relied on him for support and help. I wanted his friendship more than anything. I think that's what hurts the most, knowing that I don't even have him as that anymore. Maybe one day we'll be able to be friends again, but I know we'll never get back to the level of friendship that we once shared. So for now, I'm going to work on me. I'm going to put the pieces of my life back together and search for myself. And who knows, maybe I'll find true love along the way.