Goddess, I had so much on my mind. How was I ever going to even get close to 350k in gold?! I was beginning to worry that maybe Braden thought I'd lost interest in him. After all...he proposed to me a full year ago. Thankfully, Braden was a patient and gentle man, though most didn't see it. Under that tough exterior, he was a big softie. It was what I loved most about him...he knew the meaning of hard work, he ran a very successful ranch all on his own, but even so, the blush on his cheeks when I first asked him out was unmistakable. I could tell that under his gruff exterior he had a gentle soul.
Because we both ran farms, unfortunately we had little time to spend alone together. But he was adamant that we could make it work, and we had. We'd had a picnic over by the river near his ranch, we'd gone to see the flower festival together, we'd had dinner at my place a few times, but he'd never stayed the night with me. I supposed it was probably because he's always been more of the gentleman, but I also figured he'd want to be home first thing in the morning to tend his livestock and also to give little Elijah his painting lessons, so it hadn't been a big deal before...until now. I had very real plans to accept his proposal, yet the furthest we'd gotten on an intimate level was he'd seen my breasts and I'd let him do some experimental touching...also, he didn't know it, but I'd seen his quite enormous bulge once when he fell asleep here, he'd been exhausted from work that evening so I told him to take my bed and sleep while I made us a nice dinner. I never told him his cock was very much awake as he slept.
So...what was my problem? Well, I wanted to marry him more than anything else in this world, but I wanted us to cross that boundary together before we tied the knot. I was still a virgin, and honestly, after seeing the sheer size of just his bulge through his pants, I had to admit I was terrified of how big he'd be with nothing to cover him! He had always been a pretty large man, so I suspected he'd be pretty well endowed...I remember nearly fainting the first time I saw him working shirtless in his fields. It was a particularly hot summer day, so he'd shed his shirt to deal with the heat, but it nearly gave me a heatstroke when I saw the size of his muscles! The irony of it was that he walked over to me and warned me about the dangers of heatstroke and gifted me fresh milk from his cow, Emily, and told me to take care of myself. I could barely look away from his abs, which made for an awkward "thank you" from me. He even got worried when I had started sweating and insisted on walking me back to my farm...he damn near carried me there, but I insisted I was fine and walked by his side back to my farm. I knew I wanted to take that step with him...but was I really ready? No, I couldn't doubt myself now. Even though I still had a ton of gold to save up, I was set on marrying him, and obviously that would come with the act of sex. I couldn't falter now. But I still couldn't help but worry...I supposed everyone got at least a little nervous their first times, but lately it was all I could think about. I wanted us to make love, to be as close as two people could be, but...what if he didn't feel the same? If he proposed to me, he must feel the same about this...right? But what if he wanted to wait until marriage? Oh, Goddess, what was I going to do?
*Braden's POV*
I hadn't heard from her today...maybe she was feelin' bad? Damn, I should've checked on her. No, saw her runnin' about earlier, she just hadn't stopped by...wait, was she upset with me for something? Ah, Goddess...deep down I knew she just needed more time. I'd noticed she was growin' more crops than ever before, and selling every last one. She was selling everything she could, and I knew it was all so she could accept my proposal. I knew that big ol' house she was gonna get was huge, big enough to even start a family someday, but that kinda size came with costs. Lately, though, somethin' else had been stuck on my mind, and I wasn't sure what to think, do, or even say. Lately I couldn't look at her beautiful face without feelin'...well, turned on. I knew it was somethin' most couples did nowadays, they'd take that big step before tyin' the knot, but I just couldn't imagine tellin' her I felt that way. I was still a virgin myself, so I didn't have any kinda know-how on how to do that with her...well, properly. Most others I've heard talk about it say it just comes on instinct. Goddess, I sure hoped so...last thing I wanted was to go and embarrass myself during our first time together. And what about her? I'm definitely well above average in my size, and the last thing I wanted to do was hurt her. Would she even feel the same way? Would she want to take that step with me before tyin' the knot, or would she want to wait until after? Either way, it had to happen sooner or later, and I sure as hell knew I wanted it to be sooner.
What was I gonna do? I couldn't just walk on over and ask her to have sex with me! Ugh...that'd be one helluva vist if I did do that! How would anyone respond to their boyfriend knockin' on their door and sayin' "Hey, wanna let me in so we can have sex together?" No way...I had to be gentle with her on this. I thought it over until I had everything planned...I'd get up an hour early to tend the livestock, then I'd head over to her place. By then she'd be headin' out to care for her livestock, and I'd offer to help since she's got so much on her plate right now, 'specially with all them crops she's been growing. That way she could finish work early and not be too tired out. Then I'd tell her I need to talk to her about somethin', and ask if I could come in. I'd lay it out slow and gentle, and say the same thing I did when I proposed to her..."Ya don't need to answer me now, take some time and think it over." And of course, I'd let her know it's okay if she doesn't want the same thing, I ain't gonna force her into nothin' she doesn't want. That was a good strategy...right? Goddess, I hoped so...one way or another, startin' tomorrow she'd at least know how I feel.
*Your POV*
I just finished petting and feeding my pets for the morning. I'd changed into a new dress, and I was ready to go tend my livestock. Just as I walked out the front door, I saw Braden heading toward my house. Oh, no, I'd been so busy worrying yesterday that I forgot to stop by for a visit! I walked up to him to apologize, but he spoke before I could.
"Hey, babe...mind if I help with the livestock this mornin'? I know yer mighty busy with them animals along with tendin' the crops every day."
Wow, not what I was expecting, but of course I accepted his offer, because I really did have a lot on my hands lately. I was just glad he didn't seem upset with me. We stepped into the barn together and he insisted he'd take care of the cows, sheep, and horse if I could just tend the chickens. Okay, what was going on here? Was I missing something? Thankfully it was rainy today, so I didn't need to worry about the crops, but I at least checked on them to be sure they were all growing well. I thanked Braden several times for his help, but he just kept responding by saying "no need to thank me, just wanna help." Afterwards I was heading straight back to my house. I invited him in for lunch, since we hadn't had much time together recently and of course, he'd just helped me quite a bit. He sat down on my couch and motioned for me to join him. He hugged me tight and gave me a soft and gentle kiss...Goddess, I loved his kisses. He held me like I'd disappear if he let go, yet he kissed me so gently, almost like I was porcelain. Suddenly I started feeling pretty warm down south...Goddess, it was agonizing to feel this way. But how could I tell him that? Suddenly, he broke the kiss and looked me dead in the eye. He seemed nervous, but he spoke before I could.
"Babe, listen...there's somethin' I need to talk to you about...it's been on my mind for a long time, but I think I finally know how to put it into words."
He let out a big sigh, and I never could've suspected what he'd say to me next.
"We both know we're gonna get married, we've made the plans but it just takes time before that can happen. I get that, and I know how hard you've been workin' every single day. I truly love you more than anything...but there's been somethin' weighin' heavy on my mind lately. I want...oh Goddess, how do I say it...I want to bind myself to you forever...damnit, that's what marriage is, what I mean is...I...I want to...make love with you...I want to take that step with you...but please, I want you to take your time givin' me an answer. I just wanted you to know how I feel about you...how much I love you."
He kissed my head and made to leave, but I grabbed his wrist before he could walk out the door. He looked confused at first, but I already knew my answer, because this had been weighing on myself, as well.
"Yes. I want the same thing, Braden. I just didn't know how to tell you, and the thought of telling you scared me...but I know that I want this, too. My answer is yes."
