The Flower's story chp28
"James!!!!!!!! James wake up you stupid git! I'm gonna kill you!" James tried to ignore the illusion of a shrieking girl sitting on top of him by putting his pillow over his head. Unfortunately the illusion seemed to materialize, grab the pillow and start to hit him with it.
"Agh! Stop it you figment of my imagination!" James tried to push Lily off his bed.
"Using an intelligent vocabulary now are we? James you are going to be late! And I say you instead of we because I am taking my leave now for I do not wish to be late on my first last day of being head girl you bloody dumb git!" As she said this with rising passion she proceeded to throw every single pillow in the room at him with quite a lot of force, to the dismay of all the other boys sleeping in the room.
"Lil please! We don't have to get up for a few more hours! James doesn't take that long to get ready!" Remus groaned as his pillow was taken from beneath his head.
James looked at the clock and realized Remus was right. He was about to say something snappy to Lily about how she can't keep time correctly until it clicked in his thick head exactly what he was late for!
"Oh!"
"Yes 'oh!' now hurry up or we'll be late." She biffed him on the head as she started to leave but she felt the urge to do something before she started for the common room. So Lily made an about face, ran up to James and gave him a quick kiss on the lips.
"See you in a few head boy" she whispered right before she dashed down stairs.
"That was completely unnecessary!" moaned Peter from under his covers.
"You should have heard them during the summer Peter!" exclaimed Sirius "They were sooo loud! Especially during the night! They would stay up until dawn just howling at the moon like-"
"Yes Sirius?" Remus popped his head up "Like what?"
"Like......PENGUINS! Dear have you ever heard penguins howl...I mean they are a bunch of loud buggers!" he said less than sincere
"Excuse me but those are mine and Lily's howls your discussing and I personally would like to think we didn't howl like penguins or anything else for that matter! So please if you're going to talk, talk about something else. I have to go. See you all at breakfast than!" James sighed and left the dormitory with a wave
"Disgusting. They need to get up this early just to snog? Now that's what I call pathetic!" sirius yawned
"Yes well I'm sure you an Tasha did plenty of snogging and howling yourselves over the summer, eh? Remus laughed
"Ha Ha! Go to sleep scruffy!" Sirius scoffed
"Same to you snuffles!" Remus laughed as he ducked back under the covers.
The only sound left to be heard after their heads hit their mattresses (being that they had no pillows) were Peters' quite disturbing snores.
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James creeped down the silent corridor trying not to make any disgruntled noises. He especially didn't want Peeves to come for an early morning visit.
"Hey!" Lily called quietly to James "What took you so long?"
"Oh...Sirius and Remus were having a howling contest!"
"They were what?" Lily asked confused as she took his hand
"Never mind" James laughed to himself
They walked slowly to Dumbledore's office just trying to enjoy the morning silence in each other's company. It was nice just having a little time to themselves without having Sirius or Tasha or even Peter have some sort of accident or commotion.
"Good morning my fine young head girl and boy!" Dumbledore greeted them as they walked into his office. "I trust you two to be a little less tardy on our next visit hmm?"
"Sorry Sir, but James refused to get up! It was quite annoying." Lily exclaimed
"Well, please do have e seat and let us begin shall we?" he gestured toward three seats in the middle of his office. There seemed to be a bunch of objects lying in the middle of the chairs. James took a seat in between Lily and Dumbledore. Lily knew what Dumbledore was planning for them today, because she realized what the extent of her power was over the summer, she was just too nervous to tell anyone about it.
"Professor I know you know what I know!" Lily sighed as she sat down
"And what is it that I know you know Ms. Evans?" he peered down at her through his half moon spectacles.
"I know you know that I know that I can use my magic without my wand...a little at least." She stared at the objects in disarray.
"Huh?" James stared between the two of them "But that's impossible isn't it professor?"
"No...Unfortunately it is not. You see if most wizards had this power then the world would be spouting magic out of its rear end. But the fact is that only very rare cases of wizard or witch in lily's case have this ability."
"But that's really good isn't it?" James persisted "I mean if we didn't need our wands anymore?"
"No James because our wands control our magic. That's why the wand usually chooses the wizard...as my good friend Mr. Olivander tells me often. It's like they have minds of their own!"
"I want to see it then..." he looked at Lily a little mad. Why hadn't she told him about this?
"Mr. Potter it's not-"
"No! It's all right professor...I've sort of been practicing..." Lily sighed
She looked down at the objects on the floor and tried to find the smallest of them...and the least damaging. She picked out a sack of bertie blotts every flavor beans. She pointed her "wand" hand at the object and her fingers glowed a warm green light. A sort of wave seemed to ravel out through her fingers and onto the sack of beans. It was as if this wave of green held the bag up in mid air. It soon became too much of a strain to hold on so she let the bag go with a thump.
James just stared at the bag in a state of shock. "But...that's not possible..."
"James you just saw it with your own two eyes I think it's possible." Lily said dejectedly starting to get up
"Ms. Evans before you leave I would like to advise you both" Dumbledore glanced over at James "that these powers should granted, not be taken lightly/ however I do not wish you to dwell on them. They are not your worst problems in your lives right now. Use them with caution, and you can do only good. You may go back to your dormitories now. Have a nice last first day!"
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Lily and James didn't talk the rest of the day. The fact that Lily withheld this information from him the whole summer was just a little too much for James. He knew that she had been through just a little more than he had. With all the times she's gotten beat up and the betrayal of her cousin, the loss of all her relations. But this was the last straw. He just didn't feel like even looking at her for any reason.
The first person to notice this of course was Tasha. She had always been very aware of Lily and James' relationship. She saw they were making very little eye contact while usually they couldn't keep their faces apart. The only moments they made eye contact that morning was when Lily had passed the biscuits to James. Even then they looked as if they could never trust each other again.
"Sirius" Tasha whispered to him in the library that afternoon "have you noticed anything odd going on today?"
"You mean Lily and James not talking to eachother" he said reaching for a book
"Yes! So you have noticed something is wrong between them!"
"No, not really. They're probably just having some little dispute as usual. Although it never lasted this long before." Tasha was about to jump in with a comment about rescuing their relationship but Sirius knew what was coming.
"Tasha...let's leave them alone for once OK?" he asked putting his hands on her shoulders
"But...Why? They're-"
"Tash! Haven't you noticed them growing more distant lately? Lily is growing up just a little faster than the rest of us don't you think? Maybe its about time James grew up too?" Sirius explained somberly as he led Tasha towards a nearby table.
"Sirius...What are you talking about? They love each other! Can't you see that?" Tasha pleaded
"Of course I can. Anybody with eyes can see that. But people can fall out of love too Tash."
"How the bloody hell can you say that? After everything they've been through, that we've been through?" she couldn't believe what she was hearing from him
"I want them to stay together just as much as you but you have to realize things are going on between them that not even any of us know about. Things so gigantic that it's tearing them apart."
"Sirius Black, if I didn't think your kidding, which I'm going to force myself to believe, I would hit you so hard that...that...that you'd wouldn't believe in anything you just said!" With that Tasha stood up and walked out of the library.
Sirius looked at her retreating back and sighed to himself. Where did his big mouth get him now?
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Later that night when everyone had already gone to bed Lily and James were the last ones in the dormitory studying for future exams and such things. James knew they had to talk sometime. So he walked over to the table Lily was sitting at and took a seat next to her.
"Well?" he asked with an agitated face.
She looked up at him in annoyance
"Well what?" She asked indignantly
"We have to talk sometime the rest of this year. We are head boy and head girl you know?"
"No need to remind me for the five millionth time today James. I know what we are!"
"Lil why didn't you tell me? You kept this a secret for how long? Before today I never knew there were people who used magic without wands."
"Why is it such a surprise huh?"
"It's not a surprise it's a nightmare. If people had the power you had our world would be filled with tyrants and dark wizards!" James explained exasperated
"Oh, so that's what you're afraid of isn't it?" Lily asked getting up and gathering her books.
"I'm not afraid of anything!" James started to do the same.
"You're afraid that I'm going to follow in grand daddy's footsteps aren't you? You think I'm going to become another Voldemort don't you?" She yelled facing him
"No! I'm not afraid of that! I'm just afraid I'm going to lose you to this horrible thing that you have inside you!"
"Damn it James you already have!" Lily screamed, throwing her books down onto the floor. Tears were flowing swiftly down her cheeks now.
"What?" James asked quietly
"This "thing inside me' as you like to put it has already taken a bite! I have changed. I'm not the same girl I was 6 years ago James! I had parents then! I had never gotten a black eye then. I still had a family god damn it!" she sunk down onto the floor letting her emotions take over. James was still standing staring at the wall. A loss for words.
"You've changed too James!" She cried looking up at him. "You know you've grown cold. You know that you haven't had real fun in over a year! And I know, that you think your better than me!" he looked down at her, his features were expressionless.
Lily slowly got up and walked in front of him. They were noses to nose now, the tension just building and building.
"Ever since I told you about Slytherin, I knew it! Because your ancestor was nobler and brave than mine was you think that you have more power. Well just maybe that's where you're most wrong!" Lily stopped to see if he had anything to say. He just stood there looking into her eyes. Except when she looked back at him, his eyes seemed dead. No life emitted from them, no past happiness surfaced. He had changed more than she thought. So lily did the only thing she could. She turned slowly around, nodding, and walked toward the door to the stairs.
Before she opened it she stopped with her hand on the doorknob. "I want you to know James that I will always love you. No matter what happens. No matter, who you are, you'll be in my heart forever" and with that she opened the door and walked up to her dormitory without looking back.
James just stood there with his eyes closed.
"And you'll be in mine"
Authors notes: hey sorry for the delay but this I thought was a really good chapter and it needed time and development. And much Empire Records watching! Thanks for being so patient dudes and dudettes! R&R no flames please!
Disclaimer: I own nothing.
"James!!!!!!!! James wake up you stupid git! I'm gonna kill you!" James tried to ignore the illusion of a shrieking girl sitting on top of him by putting his pillow over his head. Unfortunately the illusion seemed to materialize, grab the pillow and start to hit him with it.
"Agh! Stop it you figment of my imagination!" James tried to push Lily off his bed.
"Using an intelligent vocabulary now are we? James you are going to be late! And I say you instead of we because I am taking my leave now for I do not wish to be late on my first last day of being head girl you bloody dumb git!" As she said this with rising passion she proceeded to throw every single pillow in the room at him with quite a lot of force, to the dismay of all the other boys sleeping in the room.
"Lil please! We don't have to get up for a few more hours! James doesn't take that long to get ready!" Remus groaned as his pillow was taken from beneath his head.
James looked at the clock and realized Remus was right. He was about to say something snappy to Lily about how she can't keep time correctly until it clicked in his thick head exactly what he was late for!
"Oh!"
"Yes 'oh!' now hurry up or we'll be late." She biffed him on the head as she started to leave but she felt the urge to do something before she started for the common room. So Lily made an about face, ran up to James and gave him a quick kiss on the lips.
"See you in a few head boy" she whispered right before she dashed down stairs.
"That was completely unnecessary!" moaned Peter from under his covers.
"You should have heard them during the summer Peter!" exclaimed Sirius "They were sooo loud! Especially during the night! They would stay up until dawn just howling at the moon like-"
"Yes Sirius?" Remus popped his head up "Like what?"
"Like......PENGUINS! Dear have you ever heard penguins howl...I mean they are a bunch of loud buggers!" he said less than sincere
"Excuse me but those are mine and Lily's howls your discussing and I personally would like to think we didn't howl like penguins or anything else for that matter! So please if you're going to talk, talk about something else. I have to go. See you all at breakfast than!" James sighed and left the dormitory with a wave
"Disgusting. They need to get up this early just to snog? Now that's what I call pathetic!" sirius yawned
"Yes well I'm sure you an Tasha did plenty of snogging and howling yourselves over the summer, eh? Remus laughed
"Ha Ha! Go to sleep scruffy!" Sirius scoffed
"Same to you snuffles!" Remus laughed as he ducked back under the covers.
The only sound left to be heard after their heads hit their mattresses (being that they had no pillows) were Peters' quite disturbing snores.
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James creeped down the silent corridor trying not to make any disgruntled noises. He especially didn't want Peeves to come for an early morning visit.
"Hey!" Lily called quietly to James "What took you so long?"
"Oh...Sirius and Remus were having a howling contest!"
"They were what?" Lily asked confused as she took his hand
"Never mind" James laughed to himself
They walked slowly to Dumbledore's office just trying to enjoy the morning silence in each other's company. It was nice just having a little time to themselves without having Sirius or Tasha or even Peter have some sort of accident or commotion.
"Good morning my fine young head girl and boy!" Dumbledore greeted them as they walked into his office. "I trust you two to be a little less tardy on our next visit hmm?"
"Sorry Sir, but James refused to get up! It was quite annoying." Lily exclaimed
"Well, please do have e seat and let us begin shall we?" he gestured toward three seats in the middle of his office. There seemed to be a bunch of objects lying in the middle of the chairs. James took a seat in between Lily and Dumbledore. Lily knew what Dumbledore was planning for them today, because she realized what the extent of her power was over the summer, she was just too nervous to tell anyone about it.
"Professor I know you know what I know!" Lily sighed as she sat down
"And what is it that I know you know Ms. Evans?" he peered down at her through his half moon spectacles.
"I know you know that I know that I can use my magic without my wand...a little at least." She stared at the objects in disarray.
"Huh?" James stared between the two of them "But that's impossible isn't it professor?"
"No...Unfortunately it is not. You see if most wizards had this power then the world would be spouting magic out of its rear end. But the fact is that only very rare cases of wizard or witch in lily's case have this ability."
"But that's really good isn't it?" James persisted "I mean if we didn't need our wands anymore?"
"No James because our wands control our magic. That's why the wand usually chooses the wizard...as my good friend Mr. Olivander tells me often. It's like they have minds of their own!"
"I want to see it then..." he looked at Lily a little mad. Why hadn't she told him about this?
"Mr. Potter it's not-"
"No! It's all right professor...I've sort of been practicing..." Lily sighed
She looked down at the objects on the floor and tried to find the smallest of them...and the least damaging. She picked out a sack of bertie blotts every flavor beans. She pointed her "wand" hand at the object and her fingers glowed a warm green light. A sort of wave seemed to ravel out through her fingers and onto the sack of beans. It was as if this wave of green held the bag up in mid air. It soon became too much of a strain to hold on so she let the bag go with a thump.
James just stared at the bag in a state of shock. "But...that's not possible..."
"James you just saw it with your own two eyes I think it's possible." Lily said dejectedly starting to get up
"Ms. Evans before you leave I would like to advise you both" Dumbledore glanced over at James "that these powers should granted, not be taken lightly/ however I do not wish you to dwell on them. They are not your worst problems in your lives right now. Use them with caution, and you can do only good. You may go back to your dormitories now. Have a nice last first day!"
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Lily and James didn't talk the rest of the day. The fact that Lily withheld this information from him the whole summer was just a little too much for James. He knew that she had been through just a little more than he had. With all the times she's gotten beat up and the betrayal of her cousin, the loss of all her relations. But this was the last straw. He just didn't feel like even looking at her for any reason.
The first person to notice this of course was Tasha. She had always been very aware of Lily and James' relationship. She saw they were making very little eye contact while usually they couldn't keep their faces apart. The only moments they made eye contact that morning was when Lily had passed the biscuits to James. Even then they looked as if they could never trust each other again.
"Sirius" Tasha whispered to him in the library that afternoon "have you noticed anything odd going on today?"
"You mean Lily and James not talking to eachother" he said reaching for a book
"Yes! So you have noticed something is wrong between them!"
"No, not really. They're probably just having some little dispute as usual. Although it never lasted this long before." Tasha was about to jump in with a comment about rescuing their relationship but Sirius knew what was coming.
"Tasha...let's leave them alone for once OK?" he asked putting his hands on her shoulders
"But...Why? They're-"
"Tash! Haven't you noticed them growing more distant lately? Lily is growing up just a little faster than the rest of us don't you think? Maybe its about time James grew up too?" Sirius explained somberly as he led Tasha towards a nearby table.
"Sirius...What are you talking about? They love each other! Can't you see that?" Tasha pleaded
"Of course I can. Anybody with eyes can see that. But people can fall out of love too Tash."
"How the bloody hell can you say that? After everything they've been through, that we've been through?" she couldn't believe what she was hearing from him
"I want them to stay together just as much as you but you have to realize things are going on between them that not even any of us know about. Things so gigantic that it's tearing them apart."
"Sirius Black, if I didn't think your kidding, which I'm going to force myself to believe, I would hit you so hard that...that...that you'd wouldn't believe in anything you just said!" With that Tasha stood up and walked out of the library.
Sirius looked at her retreating back and sighed to himself. Where did his big mouth get him now?
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Later that night when everyone had already gone to bed Lily and James were the last ones in the dormitory studying for future exams and such things. James knew they had to talk sometime. So he walked over to the table Lily was sitting at and took a seat next to her.
"Well?" he asked with an agitated face.
She looked up at him in annoyance
"Well what?" She asked indignantly
"We have to talk sometime the rest of this year. We are head boy and head girl you know?"
"No need to remind me for the five millionth time today James. I know what we are!"
"Lil why didn't you tell me? You kept this a secret for how long? Before today I never knew there were people who used magic without wands."
"Why is it such a surprise huh?"
"It's not a surprise it's a nightmare. If people had the power you had our world would be filled with tyrants and dark wizards!" James explained exasperated
"Oh, so that's what you're afraid of isn't it?" Lily asked getting up and gathering her books.
"I'm not afraid of anything!" James started to do the same.
"You're afraid that I'm going to follow in grand daddy's footsteps aren't you? You think I'm going to become another Voldemort don't you?" She yelled facing him
"No! I'm not afraid of that! I'm just afraid I'm going to lose you to this horrible thing that you have inside you!"
"Damn it James you already have!" Lily screamed, throwing her books down onto the floor. Tears were flowing swiftly down her cheeks now.
"What?" James asked quietly
"This "thing inside me' as you like to put it has already taken a bite! I have changed. I'm not the same girl I was 6 years ago James! I had parents then! I had never gotten a black eye then. I still had a family god damn it!" she sunk down onto the floor letting her emotions take over. James was still standing staring at the wall. A loss for words.
"You've changed too James!" She cried looking up at him. "You know you've grown cold. You know that you haven't had real fun in over a year! And I know, that you think your better than me!" he looked down at her, his features were expressionless.
Lily slowly got up and walked in front of him. They were noses to nose now, the tension just building and building.
"Ever since I told you about Slytherin, I knew it! Because your ancestor was nobler and brave than mine was you think that you have more power. Well just maybe that's where you're most wrong!" Lily stopped to see if he had anything to say. He just stood there looking into her eyes. Except when she looked back at him, his eyes seemed dead. No life emitted from them, no past happiness surfaced. He had changed more than she thought. So lily did the only thing she could. She turned slowly around, nodding, and walked toward the door to the stairs.
Before she opened it she stopped with her hand on the doorknob. "I want you to know James that I will always love you. No matter what happens. No matter, who you are, you'll be in my heart forever" and with that she opened the door and walked up to her dormitory without looking back.
James just stood there with his eyes closed.
"And you'll be in mine"
Authors notes: hey sorry for the delay but this I thought was a really good chapter and it needed time and development. And much Empire Records watching! Thanks for being so patient dudes and dudettes! R&R no flames please!
Disclaimer: I own nothing.
