The Flower's story Chp 29

Love feels no burden,

thinks nothing of trouble,

attempts what is above its strength,

pleads no excuse of impossibility...

It is therefore able to undertake all things,

and it completes many things,

and warrants them to take effect,

where he who does not love would faint and lie down.

Love is watchful and sleeping, slumbereth not.

Though weary, it is not tired;

though pressed, it is not straitened;

though alarmed, it is not confounded...

- Thomas A. Kempis -

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Lily Ran up to the dormitory sobbing. She couldn't believe what had just happened. The person that she loves the most in all the world hates her now. Thinks, that he's better than her. Molly and Tasha were still up when she came into the room. They both looked up from what they were doing just in time to see Lily slam the dormitory door and and walk swiftly into the girls bathroom.

Molly got up imediatley and put her ear to the bathroom door, Tasha's ear was just below hers. They heard lily getting sick in the bathroom and then the sink running for a while. Molly looked down at Tasha in question. Tasha got up from the door and walked somberly over to her bed.

"Do you know what's wrong with her?" Molly whispered keeping her ear to the door.

"I don't want to know." But she knew. Everything Sirius had said that afternoon was weighing on her mind. Just then the bathroom door lock was unhooking. Molly flung herself next to Tasha and they waited for Lily to come out.

When she did Molly couldn't help but take in a deep breath. She looked awful, all pasty and sweaty, and messed up from the pain and tears. Lily lifted her head from the charm bracelet she was fidgeting with and looked at Tasha.

Tasha got up and walked over to her slowly trying to keep the words down that she needed to ask. So she took lily in her arms and whispered soflty.

"It's over now, just let go lily, it's over."

Lily backed away from the hug and went to sit down on her bed. Molly sat down next to her, nervous, and wondering why Lily was so upset.

"That's the bit Tash." Lily forced a laugh "I don't want it to be over." Molly was about to put her arm over lily in comfort but lily prevented it. She shoved molly's arm away from her hurtfully. "Don't touch me right now OK?" Molly was hurt but she brushed it aside being that Lily was extremely upset.

Lily started to pace the room in frustration and pain.

"It was just a misunderstanding!" lily told herself

"What kind of misunderstanding" Tasha asked

"It wasn't anything grand. I just forgot to tell him a few things over the summer, that's all! Nothing to go all balistic over right?"

"What kind of things?" Tasha persisted

Lily didn't want to spill the whole wand-less magic deal so she created some alternate problem similar to hers.

"Just some problems I was having, some new things in my life that was all!"

"What kind of problems?"

"Tash, please!" Lily yelled stopping and looking at Tasha in exasperation. Lily all of a sudden realized how tired she was, and jumped into her bed. She closed the curtains around her bed and didn't talk to anyone for the rest of the night. The only sound coming form lily's bed were the silent tears rolling down her cheeks.

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James stood in the common room for who knows how long, until Sirius and Remus came down stairs. They had heard some mumbled yelling and knew only to well that the only girl who could yell like that in Gryffindor tower was Lily. But when they got to the common room, the only person there was James. Who was sitting in a love seat, hunched over, with his head in his hands.

Sirius sighed and sat down across from James. He leaned over and ruffled James' hair trying to lighten the mood. James swatted Sirius' hand away form him. He looked up at Remus and Sirius, his eyes bloodshot from salty tears. Remus knew only to well what had happened.

"You know, the funny thing is I never thought that it would've lasted this long. You know with how much we fight and everything. But you never know how much you truly...love someone until they're gone. Probably forever." James smiled bravely

Remus and Sirius just stared pathetically back at James. Not knowing what to say.

"You want to know the hardest part?" they shrugged

"She's not gone forever. She'll be torturing me for the whole year and probably more. Just seeing her everyday with those big sad, angry eyes staring back at mine. That'll be the worst part to bare!"

"James, what happened?" Remus asked sitting down next to him.

James instantly got up not wanting to be near anyone. He walked over to the fireplace and just stared at it in pain.

"This time it really wasn't my fault! She should have- I don't understand how-." He sighed not wanting to give everything away.

"Lil, and I have been dating for how long? We live together we go to the same school we're in the same house you would think she would tell me everything right? But she withheld extreme...emotions from me that I have never heard of before, and she had no right to! She should've told me damn it!"

Remus sighed not wanting to take sides "James maybe she just wasn't ready to tell you...I mean I've known Lily for-"

"Yes Remus we know OK? You and Lily shared a life and death experience well so did we! Several actually... But I know I'm right and if it's over it's over! I don't need her. I lover her yes...but I don't ever need her! So don't start lecturing me on what I don't need to hear!"

James stormed upstairs and went to bed without saying anything to either of them.

Remus and Sirius looked at eachother in surprise.

"Wow. Well what he needs to hear is exactly what he won't let us say." Remus sighed

"Or let Lily say. But their both as stuborn as hippogriffs neither of them will budge." Sirius said getting up with Remus.

"It just goes to show...Nothing lasts forever!"

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The next few days were extremely awkward. Lily and James tried to act polite around each other for the sake of the others. Personally they would rather have them fighting all the time.

Finally after a month the rest of the school started to notice that Lily and James weren't doing the ritual flirting and kissing in hallways. So the other girls and boys in the school started making moves on them. Especially the girls. There used to be a group of fans that came to watch James practise Quiditch now there was a quarter of a stadium full. They would sit there cheering and waving like a bunch a loony lovesick Beatles fans.

Sirus' amusement at the look on James' face as he rolled his eyes whenever he walked onto the pitch for Quiditch practise soon started to dwindle. The cheers were actually getting annoying and after a few jokes and mickey's sent James' he started to get annoyed. So this one afternoon Sirius and the rest of the team flew over to him quite exasperated.

"Oy, James!"

James was about to throw the quaffle at one of the girls in frustration b/c she kept chanting

POTTER POTTER HE'S A CUTIE

NOTHING CAN SHAKE IT LIKE HIS-

She didn't get that far. James made sure of that. So after taking a deep breath of satisfaction he turned around to look at why Sirius had called his name.

"What is it?" James asked impatiently wanting to get on with practice.

"James listen." Sirius said as he flew up to him. "The team is really frustrated about all this girly fan bollucks. We can't concentrate, and it's starting to get out of hand..."

"What, you think I can do something about it? You think I like this canting and banter from gits who don't know how to tie their own bloody shoelaces?" James said flying around Sirius and screaming that last bit at the girls.

Most of them didn't even notice the comment was meant to be insulting.

"James get a grip-" sirius started

"No, I will not get a grip because of those mindless twits" James lowered his so only Sirius could hear "Lily thinks I've paid them off or something so now she's got these brainless gits following her around! And Sirius she's threatened to move of the house and stay with Tasha over the summer." He looked over the castle in disgust

"I wish I had never met her..."

Sirius looked at his friend in sympathy, but not enough sympathy to put Quiditch behind him.

"James I'm sorry I really am but you have to let of it!" James looked as though he was about to start another huge row when Sirius shoved the quaffle he was holding into James' stomach. "I don't want to hear it. The Quiditch cup should be ours in our final year, you know how bad I want it! And as much as I hate to admit we have N.E.W.T.'s to deal with, we do! Your Head boy James...get a grip." Sirius turned his broom to go down to the lockers "And rid of those girls next practice.

James stood there staring at where his friend was floating a second ago. How could he have been so daft, how could he have let some stupid girl get between him and his Quiditch games. So James turned to the giggling girls with new determination and set out for them.

"Hello there." He said as he glided to a halt on his broomstick

"Hi...James..." one of he girls sad giggling madly in the process

"Yes hi...um...listen it would be really nice if you girls could please not come to my practice's anymore. Oh, and stop following me around, and stop taunting Lil in the hallways! James exclaimed quite plainly

"But James we thought that you and Lily were-"

"You thought wrong, whatever you thought. Now please go away and don't follow me ever again." James started to turn to leave but just for good measure he added "Or I'll have Sirius hex you!"

And with that he flew to meet Sirius back in the locker rooms to change.

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Lily's admirers of course had not been hired as James had thought, and they were taunting her to go out with them a little to hard. Remus had noticed these boys and shoed them away once with a few good jinxes but they just kept coming, and Lily was running out of insults to turn them down with.

"Bloody hell Molly I don't know what to do!" Lily sighed as she sat down in front of the fire of the Gryffindor Common Room.

"These boys just don't go away. They keep making whistling noises at me and calling me names like sweet stuff and candy...as if I was actually a piece of Candy!" she took in a deep breath to calm her nerves

"Listen Lil, maybe you should go to proffesor Dumbledore or Proffesor McGonogall about this. This is verbal harassment and you know it!" Molly was really starting to worry about Lily AND James because of their growing group of lunatics. Both head boy and girl had been feeling drained and now they both looked it.

Lily shrugged and reached down beside her to get her books from her bag. But it wasn't there. She started to look around her chair and on the table but her bag was no where to be found.

"Great" she muttered to herself "I think I left it in the library when I was trying to sneak out without being seen by some of my fans" she said with disgust.

"I'll be back" She sighed and she got up to walk to the dormitory hole.

"You want me to come with you?" Molly asked carefully

"No no no. You stay and do your homework, my notes on professor sprouts lesson yesterday are under my pillows if you need help on her essay."

"Thanks Lil...are you sure you don't want me to come with you?"

But Lily didn't hear her. The portrait was already closing behind her. Molly had a bad feeling about this, so she quickly got up and walked up to the boys' dormitories, where she knew a few practical jokers would be pretty worried if they knew what had been going on.

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Lily had just came out of the librarys lost and found and was heading for the door to leave when she heard a long slow whistle sound out behind her. She knew what it was but decided to keep walking away casually through the doors and out into the corridors. Of course being head girl she knew that she could deduct points from these idiots or send them to weeks worth of detention. But there was something menacing about them, something that just didn't feel right.

"Oy! Sweety! Why haven't you said yes to going out with me yet?" Some git yelled but she knew he was pretty much right behind her.

"Maybe it's because the thought of even saying those revolting words to such a revolting person was to horrifying to imagine"

She stopped dead in her track, turned around to face him eye to eye and hissed coldly "Maybe even a bit more horrify than that slab of skin sitting on your skull!"

"Watch it little girl!" Said another voice behind the boy she was facing. It turns out she was outnumbered four to one. There was no way she would be able to hex them all at once. Especially if she tried her wand free magic. But all the while she was thinking of her options Lily had no intention of letting down her cool calm demeanor.

"Or what, pond scum" she directed her comment to the very beafy boy in the back. He seamed to make a sort of growling sound one only heard from a dog getting ready to jump on you.

The boy directly in front of her grabbed her bag and threw it away. Probably thinking her wand was in it. He pushed her up against the wall and made sure his croonies were huddling around her close by. Making sure no one was coming.

"Get off me you toerag!" Lily yelled hoping someone would here her She was to nervous to summon up her anger so that her powers could work against him but something else happened that at first she thought it was her own doing.

This boys croonies seemed to be getting large punches in the face one at a time which sent them faultering back. They looked at one another while each was getting a good hit. Soon enough they had enough of it and ran away. The head boy who now had his hands on both lilys arms to keep her from getting away tunred to see what was going on. Before he could turn around again Lily had kicked him in an area where men usually did not like to be kicked. With her heart pounding she ran to her bag and grabbed her wand but before she could say anything to hex him with someone had grabbed her around the waist and put a hand on her mouth. Also in the process throwing some sort of gleaming cloak over her.

She didn't move, to scared and nerve racked to do anything, so she watched as the boy finally recovered from his traumatic experiance and huddled away as if it had been him who's dignity was threatened. Even after he was gone the person didn't uncover her mouth, but dragged her into an empty classroom. By now she was struggling to see who had pretty much saved her from getting a few more bruises and scars. The person let her and ripped off the cloak from both of them.

She turned around to see a very worried looking James.

"What were you doing huh? Trying to show off all those little special powers and make the gits more annoyed by pissing them off huh lil? Then what would have happened if I hadn't been there? A few more bruises ok with you? Hell maybe they would take it one more step furnther over that with ra..." James flared the cloak on a nearby chair, not willing himself to say. He lookede at her carefully and came towards her. For a second she thought he was going to hit her or something so she moved away from him angrily. He seemed hurt but she didn't care at the moment.

"And what were you doing? Following me I presume? Trying to prove yet again that you better than me you bloody piece of-" Lily yelled back at him

"You presume wrong you prat of a girl!" James interupted mockingly right back at her, anger rising "Molly had snuck up to the boys' dormitory after you left. She told us what had been happening to you. Remus said that you had told him it stopped but it didn't did it!? Did it?" James screamed at her

Lily turned away...even though James had seen her cry before, she couldn't bear to have him see her in this weakened state. She didn't want him to come off thinking that she needed him and was a lesser person without him...even though that thought had crossed her mind in the month that they were apart.

"What do you care?" Lily said trying to sound strong and defiant but instead her voice sounded like a mouse who had to much to eat. She could hear footsteps behind her as James approached slowly, taking deep breaths. She shuddered slightly as she felt his hand slide into hers.

"Lily" he said quietly, just standing there behind her talking into her back. "No matter what happens I will always care about you, whether you hate me or not." She turned around to look at him tightening her grip on his hand "I'm pretty sure" James said with the slight develish grin shes come to adore "That no matter how hard we try, nothings gonna keep us from leaving eachother" he said with a meaningful glance.

She smiled "If you mean Sirius and Tasha...I could give them a few good detentions if you know what I mean!" James smiled fully now.

They both couldn't take their eyes of eachother. It was a moment of realization for both of them they couldn't bare to live without eachother, if the whole world was falling to pieces around them all that they needed was to look into each others eyes and smile.

"Lil, do you want to marry me?" James asked as if he was asking some sort of everyday question.

Lily came out of her trance of love and stared at him in disbelief. Had he gone completely bonkers? They were way to young...and...and...

She found herself looking around the empty room for excuses to say no. But the answer was there in front of her all the time. He just stood there waiting for an answer. She grinned at him as more tears started to coarse down her cheek.

"Sure, why not?" Lily said as casually as he had asked her. James' smile extended ear to ear as he picked her up by her waist and swung her around. They laughed in excitement, and as James put her down she kissed him in her happiness.

"Wait!" said Lily suddenly

"What?" James asked looking worried

"Are you sure your ready to put up with tantrums full time?" Lily asked grinning

"Haven't I already?" Lily nodded in agreement, and walked hand in hand out of the classroom. They had a mutual agreement that no one really needed to know about this being that wouldn't exactly get married for years to come. But just because they know that one day, they would officially belong to eachother and that was enough to last a life time.

Authors note: Again I am mucho sorry for the delay but end of yr tests and pretty much yr round tests and work have kept me from posting. Ok I know the 5th book is out with a depiction of james and lily and the gang about how they got together and when but I'm not changing a think in my story b/c I started writing this b4 I knew anything about the 5th book. Hope you like even though there is quite a difference between the actually reality of the story. Thanks a lot. I'll tr to write more soon. Tata.

Disclaimer: nothing is mine except the obvious