Hello. I have a new story out called "In Sess We Trust" which no one has reviewed. I think its good…it gets better later…but I am trying to flesh it out more and make it into longer chapters for everyone knows I usually write short ones. So…we'll see how that goes.
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-MC
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We stood outside the door of the house and just kind of stared at each other. It was that awkward moment in dates when the guy was wondering if she would put out on the first night and the girl was wondering if she should.
I almost, almost invited the damn woman in for coffee.
Almost.
When I remembered she lived with me and felt incredibly stupid as I fumbled for my keys. I walked her to her door, which was another stupid move because her door was virtually two feet away from mine.
I was scoring bonus points tonight.
Note to self: Don't ever keep score with this woman again. You won't have any ego left to get up in the morning if you do.
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"I know, ten minutes later, but you felt stupid?"
"Well, uh…"
"Yes?"
"It was a figure of speech."
"Is that what they are calling it these days?"
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I wanted to kiss her but I wasn't really sure if I should. If she responded like the previous time than we would inevitably find ourselves in the position we were in a couple of nights ago and I don't know if I could bring myself to do it this time. I mean, I hope I could, but since things were going so well I didn't want to mess everything up with my…problems.
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"Admit it. You need viagra."
"Oh—you have crossed the line. NEVER insult a man's virility. Especially since…"
"Especially since what?"
"Especially since you know about my virility…don't you now?"
"Annnnnnndddd?"
"You know what."
"He he he…ummm…I take it back…?"
"That's a good girl."
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But it didn't seem like I had a choice in the matter. Kagome was leaning up to kiss me and I got so lost in her beautiful, dazzling green depths that it took me about three seconds to hear what she was saying.
"Sir…sir?"
That was weird.
"Kagome, why do you sound like Jaken?"
But Kagome was blushing madly all the while slowly inching behind my back out of view.
"Excuse me sir, but I have some information you asked me to research?"
"Which was…?"
What had I asked him to research? Dear god, I hope it wasn't anything unpleasant or embarrassing. What a way to ruin the mood. Humph.
"Office assistants, sir. Office assistants at your company are typically used for—"
Don't want to have that running about. No one else needs to know what they are used for. Which all they are used for is office assistance, I'm sure. Riiiiiiight.
"Ah, Jaken. Why don't you put that information in my office…"
That! That stray thought interrupted my kiss? The kiss that I didn't want…right? Yeah, right.
Note to self: STOP asking Jaken to do things needlessly. Even though it is entirely amusing to send him on worthless errands, and to just simply annoy the paid help, Jaken did serve your father. He deserves a bit of re—
My father.
I am like my father. I work where he worked, I live in the same house, I get my hair cut at the same barbershop and I even still live by those damn rules. Even though it doesn't stop me from breaking them time-to-time. My father would have loved this arranged marriage. This little perfect business arrangement. Did he even believe in love?
I know I didn't—until Kagome that is.
Kagome.
She was still behind me. I turned to her and stroked her cheek gently. It pleased me greatly that she wanted to be protected by me.
Or, perhaps since I was the only thing large enough to ensconce her entire being that was why she hid behind me. Or perhaps it was because she wanted me to handle Jaken…or perhaps she was embarrassed at being caught…or perhaps…
I need to shut up. This woman…
"Goodnight…Koishi."
And I left her looking puzzled. I don't really know why I did it—why I added 'beloved' to my long lists of names to call her. Wife, perhaps being the one that I couldn't utter out loud. But I did it and it felt right. It would have felt even more right if I was saying it after we had made love and she was about to fall asleep in my arms.
I am just so disgustingly romantic.
Note to self: Discover if the Gucci lingerie really is totally infected into her wardrobe. Perhaps a little number such as that would enlighten my…enthusiasm.
Even though I was tired I found myself strolling around the gardens. Her birthday was in three days. If I wanted to company I needed to wed her before the three days were over.
The company.
The reason my home contained a sleeping raven-haired vixen at this very moment. It was strange to think that a little less than two weeks ago this woman just barged into my happy life. But I laughed at that. If I were truly honest with myself I would admit that I wasn't happy before. Yes, I had Rin and she made me happier than most parents can say they are. I love her so much that I would give my life for her, a feeling I am not quite sure what to name or categorize as but happy for it all the same. And I had my career, my life's work. But that seemed to pale in comparison. Kagome needed to fill a spot in my heart that could not be filled with a child or a calling…I needed the love such as the old couple. Being with Kagome somehow made me free…free, open and not restricted to this mold my father set for me so vigorously since birth.
Hmmm.
I suddenly felt the urge to be around her and I almost ran back to the house and opened the conjoining door in our rooms. Kagome was asleep. She looked so innocent when she slept and I swiftly made my way over to her bed and pulled back the covers and climbed in. After spooning her body to mine I fell into a deep and dreamless sleep.
Just the way I like it.
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The sun pierced my eyes and I didn't feel like getting up. I was so comfortable and warm that any thoughts of moving out of bed were completely absurd. I turned over on my other side and the arms around my waist tightened.
Wait a minute.
Something did not register.
Arms?
Warm body?
My eyes shot open and I was met with deep golden orbs.
Why don't I remember this?
"Ohayou Koishii."
Obviously Sesshomaru reverted to Japanese in the morning.
"Hi…how did you…? Did we…?"
"No, we did nothing. I wanted to be near you. Do you mind?"
Mind? Mind! Sure, I don't mind that a gorgeously sexy man is holding me intimately in my bed and calling me god knows what in Japanese! And on top of it the man said he loves me! Me, for goodness sake! Even worse is I don't even know if I am wearing a nice nightgown or something. I look like complete shit in the morning! And he thinks—
He nuzzling my neck and alternately kissing and nipping my ear distracted me. Apparently he had given up on waiting for me to answer. When I started to moan a bit and shift my neck more into his kisses I heard him chuckle lightly.
"I love you, Koishii."
He said it again! And it didn't help he was so cute in the morning—his hair like a shroud around him and being slightly disheveled. He resembled a sleepy puppy in the morning and it gave him such an endearing air that it made me like him even more than I had before. Perhaps even—no, that would never happen, right?
I liked this side of him better than the pressed, prim and pretentious Sesshomaru. But he can't just get into my bed and claim he loves me!
It was horrendous!
Uncalled for!
So I slapped him. I slapped Sesshomaru Kingston. In my bed. Confessing his love to me.
I'm a lunatic.
Check me into the funny farm, the nut house, the crazy hut—whatever. I am certifiably insane.
I didn't like the look of hurt in his amber eyes so I kissed his glorious lips. They were just asking for it, really.
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"My lips were 'asking' to be kissed?"
"Shut up."
"Come on, darling, what are my lips saying now?"
"They are saying 'I am a complete ass.'"
"I would never say that about you!"
"Grrrrrrrr!!!!!!"
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I wanted to punish him for being so god damn sexy and wonderful but it wasn't working out as I planned. The kiss soon deepened into more and I found my tongue battling with his.
Forget everything I said before. Forget my promises to myself that I never wanted to marry him. He has opened up to me. He is putting himself out there for me. Me. I wanted to be with him for him now, not for the company. I didn't want to marry him simply because he was a last resort. Now he was my first and only resort.
This time I became needy as I pushed his shirt off his shoulders and brought my lips to suckle on his nipples. I licked down to his navel and I kissed his stomach as I undid his belt buckle and pants.
I guess he just jumped into bed with me right after I fell asleep. The sneaky bastard.
At last he was naked before me and I took in the sight. Sesshomaru was leaning against the pillows, his hair fanned out and he was completely aroused. He was breathing shakily again but he seemed that he wanted me in control. The hands that were around my waist were gliding up my thighs and lifting up my nightgown as I straddled him though. When I was naked I brought my lips to his again in a slow, marauding kiss.
"Are you sure?"
His hands were sliding up and down my thighs and I wanted him badly even though there was barely any foreplay.
"Yes," I breathed out and he turned so I was positioned underneath him and he kissed me so gently and lovingly I almost cried at the act.
"This is going to hurt a bit, Koishii."
And like before he brought his arousal to my waiting opening and slowly pushed himself inside. He didn't stop this time, though. He drove into me until he was in to the hilt and he had ripped through my virginity.
I was completely and utterly his.
"Don't…don't move." I desperately urged him as I wrapped my legs around his waist. "Just don't move."
The pain and unwelcome stretching to accommodate his overly large self soon faded into a welcome heat that I yearned for him to love within me, though. I rolled my hips as he kissed me again and he started to thrust himself over and over into my welcoming body.
The pleasure was so foreign and I could hardly contain it. I felt so wonderful doing this strange and new dance that I screamed his name as I orgasmed. And after that he came as well, burning my insides with his hot liquid.
Sesshomaru collapsed on me and I caught my breath before he pulled out and lay next to me.
"I love you." He said as he kissed my forehead. "Marry me?"
I was almost off to sleep when he asked.
He wanted to marry me?
Right.
My birthday was in two days. But was marrying him so bad? It would make my father happy. And I hadn't forgotten my words before. Yes, it would make me happy.
"Yes, I will."
"You won't regret this," he whispered as he kissed me again. I melted into that kiss and at that moment I felt like I truly did love him.
We got up later and ate some breakfast with Rin. It was a giggly affair and we teased each other. I was surrounded by love. In this large mansion I felt surrounded and engulfed in love.
I was complete. I didn't care if he wanted the company anymore. I wanted him and that was what mattered. After lunch Sesshomaru said he had to go take care of some things at the office. As he was at the door I ran to him and hugged him. I stood on my tiptoes and kissed him.
"I…I love you."
He smiled at me and picked me up and spinned me around.
"Oh, Koishii, you've made me so happy. Don't worry, I'll be back soon." He kissed my nose much like he did Rin and left.
I dazedly played with Rin in the gardens. We were currently making daisy chains and laughing merrily about a little joke Rin had played on a boy at school.
I sighed.
I lost my virginity, got a fiancé and told him I loved him. I never thought it would go in that order, but I was happy.
Jaken came into the gardens with a beautiful woman I'd never seen before. Rin immediately dropped the flowers and ran to her.
"Kagura-sama, Kagura-sama!"
The woman absently tapped the girl's head and strode over to me. She eyed me over.
"And who are you?"
She acted like she owned the whole damn mansion.
"Kagome Carlton…and who are you?"
"Kagura…Sesshomaru's wife."
Oh. That's how it was. The cold that gripped my heart spread all over my body. I suddenly felt very sick. I walked away quickly and found Jaken. After curtly asking him to send my things back to my house I went and got my keys.
The bed was still rumpled from when we had made love. I dumbly wondered what he was taking care of.
I hated leaving like some wounded animal but that is exactly what I felt like. I was completely wounded and hurt and I needed to my mother. Or anyone who could comfort me. I felt like some whore. How did we not know he wasn't still married? How did my father allow this to happen? I was probably some joke in bed and Sesshomaru was probably off getting a real woman now. But it just didn't seem like him…
Why did I have to love him?
I stepped out into the hall and made my way to the wooden double doors. I looked back into the mansion that became my whole world in such a small matter of time just as the occupants came to mean so much to me.
Rin, who was such an enchanting and courageous girl. I loved her smile and her outgoing attitude. We had become great friends after we conspired to take Sesshomaru out of work and she hadn't given me a moments rest since. But I didn't mind.
Jaken, who made me laugh with his regal air and proper ways. Even though Sesshomaru annoyed him to the fullest extent he continued to stay. And Sesshomaru did respect him…in an interesting and familiar manner.
And Sesshomaru, the man that I had come to love. The man that I lost my virginity to. The man to whom I gave everything and anything and he took it away from me. In an instant. I don't know if she was really his wife, but no matter. Why stay and fight over him?
But my heart wanted to stay. And stay it did. Housed in the warmth and light of the Kingston mansion I left my heart. And all my love.
The door sounded with a resounding thud behind me with its finality.
