Chapter 5
"Inuyasha.....COOL!" They started to ask him a hundred questions, most were incoherent since they were all talking at the same time.
Inuyasha leaned in towards Kagome so she could hear him over the other girls. "Kagome can we go now, they're giving me a headache."
"Ya, just a sec, there's something I need to do first." She turned and walked over to Hojo, who had been staring at the new arrival the whole time. "Um, Hojo......I'm sorry...... but I can't go out with you. I tried to tell you earlier, but I can't love you the way you need to be loved. I need to follow the path my heart has chosen. I'm sorry, please understand." She stared up at him in hopes that he did indeed understand.
"I had a feeling that's what it was. You never really seemed interested in our dates. I guess I had hopes that were too high. Don't worry I understand." He gave her a weak smile as she smiled up at him. He watched her turn and walk over to Inuyasha. "And Kagome, take care of your health, if you need, I have plenty of medicines for you."
"Uh, thanks," she hollered back and continued to walk over to Inuyasha. "Shall we go?" After saying goodbye to her friends for the evening, Inuyasha walked her home.
Once her friends were out of sight, he finally asked the question that had been nagging him. "Hey, Kagome. What's a boyfriend?"
Kagome's face vaulted at his innocent question. 'He's what, 19 years old and doesn't know what a boyfriend is?' "Well, how should I explain it? Well for a girl, he's a guy that you like that likes you back. You hang out together, get to know each other better, share your secrets, your ideas, and your desires with. You spend a lot of time together doing things."
"Like what."
"Um....like talking, going on dates, hugging, kissing, just enjoying each other's company and their love. Later, usually, if the guy decides he can't live without the girl he'll propose and if she says yes they become fiancés then eventually get married." Kagome stared at the sidewalk as she walked beside him. 'He couldn't have been serious, he didn't even know what it meant. Then why did he say he was?'
"So was that Hojo guy your boyfriend?"
"NO....no, we only went out a couple times but never anything serious. I always ended the date early to return through the well."
"Good." He whispered as they continued to walk in silence.
They were almost home when Kagome broke the silence. She stopped at the top of the stairs leading to her house. "Inuyasha? Did....did you mean it? About being my boyfriend?" 'Please say yes!'
"KEH. Of course not, why would I want to be your boyfriend. When I ......I...." he continued to walk toward the house. 'DAMN! Why can't I just say it?'
"When you can have someone like Kikyo." It was just barely a whisper, but she knew his sensitive ears heard every word. 'Why? Why does he always choose her, she's dead. WHY?'
He turned suddenly at her accusation "That's not what I meant! I meant....."
"OSUWARI!" tears started to stream down her face. "Why don't you just go back and find a way to revive her.....AGAIN! Inuyasha your a....a....JERK!" Kagome covered her face and ran to her room, leaving a very uncomfortable hanyou behind.
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"Kagome please let me explain." Inuyasha climbed in through her bedroom window and noticed her laying on her bed with her back to him. He could smell the salt in the air and knew she was still crying. He silently positioned himself beside her bed as he listened to her sobs. "The reason I don't want to be your boyfriend is....I...I....um.....want us to be more." He said the last sentence extremely softly, almost hoping she hadn't heard. Having forgotten about her newfound senses, he heard her gasp, which drew his attention up to her. She was now sitting on her bed staring at him with wet golden brown eyes. He watched as she removed the ribbon from her hair and her dog-like ears perked up. 'DAMN I forgot about her new ears and her stronger senses. She heard?!' He then mentally bashed himself for his stupidity.
"Inuyasha do you realize how confusing you can be at time. You say you'll protect me, then run off after Kikyo. You get jealous when another guy so much as looks at me, then you go make out with Kikyo. You only show me compassion one night a month, while she gets all the other days and nights. I'm sick of it, I won't be a third wheel. We'll find away to bring her back and she can have her souls back."
Her words not only stabbed at his mind but at his heart as well. 'Give her soul back, is she joking, she would die!' There was so much pain and sorrow in her eyes it made his heart ache even more. There was seriousness in her voice also which caught him off guard. 'She's actually considering giving up her life to Kikyo. What the hell is going through her mind.' He had had enough. After standing he grabbed her by the shoulders and stared at her. "You didn't hear a word I said did you?! The reason I don't want to be your boyfriend is because I want us to be more! For your information, Kikyo kissed me, I didn't kiss her. Plus Kikyo didn't even know about the new moon, which means I trust you more. As for compassion, if you're referring to that night in the woods, I would call that guilt. I felt it was my fault Kikyo had died. Kikyo is dead and at peace now and I have no intention of ever bringing her back." He paused for a moment and watched as a few new tears rolled down her still puffy cheeks. "I've known what I've wanted for along time now, but my youkai pride always held me back, but now, the fear of losing you is over ridding that. I don't want to lose you.....EVER! I would get jealous because I thought of you as my.....my.....mate!"
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"Inuyasha.....COOL!" They started to ask him a hundred questions, most were incoherent since they were all talking at the same time.
Inuyasha leaned in towards Kagome so she could hear him over the other girls. "Kagome can we go now, they're giving me a headache."
"Ya, just a sec, there's something I need to do first." She turned and walked over to Hojo, who had been staring at the new arrival the whole time. "Um, Hojo......I'm sorry...... but I can't go out with you. I tried to tell you earlier, but I can't love you the way you need to be loved. I need to follow the path my heart has chosen. I'm sorry, please understand." She stared up at him in hopes that he did indeed understand.
"I had a feeling that's what it was. You never really seemed interested in our dates. I guess I had hopes that were too high. Don't worry I understand." He gave her a weak smile as she smiled up at him. He watched her turn and walk over to Inuyasha. "And Kagome, take care of your health, if you need, I have plenty of medicines for you."
"Uh, thanks," she hollered back and continued to walk over to Inuyasha. "Shall we go?" After saying goodbye to her friends for the evening, Inuyasha walked her home.
Once her friends were out of sight, he finally asked the question that had been nagging him. "Hey, Kagome. What's a boyfriend?"
Kagome's face vaulted at his innocent question. 'He's what, 19 years old and doesn't know what a boyfriend is?' "Well, how should I explain it? Well for a girl, he's a guy that you like that likes you back. You hang out together, get to know each other better, share your secrets, your ideas, and your desires with. You spend a lot of time together doing things."
"Like what."
"Um....like talking, going on dates, hugging, kissing, just enjoying each other's company and their love. Later, usually, if the guy decides he can't live without the girl he'll propose and if she says yes they become fiancés then eventually get married." Kagome stared at the sidewalk as she walked beside him. 'He couldn't have been serious, he didn't even know what it meant. Then why did he say he was?'
"So was that Hojo guy your boyfriend?"
"NO....no, we only went out a couple times but never anything serious. I always ended the date early to return through the well."
"Good." He whispered as they continued to walk in silence.
They were almost home when Kagome broke the silence. She stopped at the top of the stairs leading to her house. "Inuyasha? Did....did you mean it? About being my boyfriend?" 'Please say yes!'
"KEH. Of course not, why would I want to be your boyfriend. When I ......I...." he continued to walk toward the house. 'DAMN! Why can't I just say it?'
"When you can have someone like Kikyo." It was just barely a whisper, but she knew his sensitive ears heard every word. 'Why? Why does he always choose her, she's dead. WHY?'
He turned suddenly at her accusation "That's not what I meant! I meant....."
"OSUWARI!" tears started to stream down her face. "Why don't you just go back and find a way to revive her.....AGAIN! Inuyasha your a....a....JERK!" Kagome covered her face and ran to her room, leaving a very uncomfortable hanyou behind.
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"Kagome please let me explain." Inuyasha climbed in through her bedroom window and noticed her laying on her bed with her back to him. He could smell the salt in the air and knew she was still crying. He silently positioned himself beside her bed as he listened to her sobs. "The reason I don't want to be your boyfriend is....I...I....um.....want us to be more." He said the last sentence extremely softly, almost hoping she hadn't heard. Having forgotten about her newfound senses, he heard her gasp, which drew his attention up to her. She was now sitting on her bed staring at him with wet golden brown eyes. He watched as she removed the ribbon from her hair and her dog-like ears perked up. 'DAMN I forgot about her new ears and her stronger senses. She heard?!' He then mentally bashed himself for his stupidity.
"Inuyasha do you realize how confusing you can be at time. You say you'll protect me, then run off after Kikyo. You get jealous when another guy so much as looks at me, then you go make out with Kikyo. You only show me compassion one night a month, while she gets all the other days and nights. I'm sick of it, I won't be a third wheel. We'll find away to bring her back and she can have her souls back."
Her words not only stabbed at his mind but at his heart as well. 'Give her soul back, is she joking, she would die!' There was so much pain and sorrow in her eyes it made his heart ache even more. There was seriousness in her voice also which caught him off guard. 'She's actually considering giving up her life to Kikyo. What the hell is going through her mind.' He had had enough. After standing he grabbed her by the shoulders and stared at her. "You didn't hear a word I said did you?! The reason I don't want to be your boyfriend is because I want us to be more! For your information, Kikyo kissed me, I didn't kiss her. Plus Kikyo didn't even know about the new moon, which means I trust you more. As for compassion, if you're referring to that night in the woods, I would call that guilt. I felt it was my fault Kikyo had died. Kikyo is dead and at peace now and I have no intention of ever bringing her back." He paused for a moment and watched as a few new tears rolled down her still puffy cheeks. "I've known what I've wanted for along time now, but my youkai pride always held me back, but now, the fear of losing you is over ridding that. I don't want to lose you.....EVER! I would get jealous because I thought of you as my.....my.....mate!"
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